Shattered

Angelica's P.O.V-

I woke up in a annoyingly clean room. The walls almost glowed from how white they were. The floor was no different, you could almost see your reflection on it. I looked up and was almost blinded by the bright lights. I close my eyes and groan softly, rubbing them as I tried to remember last night's events.

"Ah! I see you're awake" A man in a white lab coat smiles at me. Then it dawns me. I was stupid enough to actually try to die frozen last night. Harry found me, then I was slipping in and out of consciousness, great just great. This all means I'm in a hospital.

"Where's Liam?" I rush out, sitting up, but regretting it seeing I felt dizzy and sick to my stomach.

"Look to your right" He smiles sympathetically at me. I do as told and sure enough, I see my Liam curled up in a ball on Harry's lap. They were laying on a very comfy looking couch. It wasn't old or hard looking like you would expect of a hospital. It looked actually quite new and warm.

"I'll go get you something hot to drink, you need to stay warm so don't get out of bed" He ordered. I nodded and smiled gratefully at him. He walked out and about a few minutes later, Liam woke up and jumped out of Harry's lap and onto my bed.

"You're awake! You're awake!" He kept jumping up and down on the bed. I laughed and opened my arms for him to jump in and hug me.

"Well you seem happy" I said a bit pained. He frowned slightly but then smiled at me.

"I always knew you were something more than my big sis" He giggled and kissed my cheek. A tear ran down my cheek, but I was happy, happy he was dealing so well with all this, cause I wasn't at all. I was feeling awful, disgusted, sad, stressed, frustrated, disappointed, and so on.

"I'm glad you're not angry at me" I say and kiss his cheek sniffling slightly. Right there the doctor walks in and hands me a cup with steam coming up. I sniff it and it's hot chocolate. I gladly take it from his hands and begin drinking slowly, careful not to burn myself.

"You're doing a lot better, and you're not going to have any permanent damage, but we are going to ask you to check in in three days to make sure every thing's okay" He says. I nod. Wait, does this mean I'm free?

"Does this mean she can go home?" Harry speaks up from beside the bed, for the first time. The doctor smile widely and nods.

"I'll leave you love birds and you're kid alone" He winks and walks out closing the door, before I could protest or anything.

"I'm sorry" I apologize to Harry.

"You should be! I was worried sick! You just run off then I find you half dead and frozen in the middle of the woods behind the house! I thought you were going to die or something!" He said angrily. I lowered my head in shame and bit my bottom lip to stop me from crying.

"I'm truly sorry. It wont happen again, Mr. Styles" I said looking at him dead in the eyes. He groaned and rubbed his face falling back into the couch.

"Can I call you mommy then?" Liam asked me.

"Only if I can call you by your middle name" I bargained. He thought about it for a minute and then nodded.

"Thank goodness! It was getting quite confusing" I wiped my forehead, pretending I was tired, which I kind of was.

"What's your middle name?" Harry asked, obviously talking to Liam.

"My full name is Liam Jacob Greyson" He replied proudly. I laughed at his cocky pose and shook my head.

"Well then, Jake, I've got to get ready" I said lifting him in my arms but almost falling. I've only had hot chocolate, nothing else, I'm basically living on an empty stomach, not good.

"I'll take him" Harry said taking Jake from my hands. I smiled gratefully and nodded. I was walking to the bathroom when I remembered I need clothes and that I'm wearing one of those hospital gowns that are quite revealing. I turned around slowly to see Harry looking at the ceiling biting his lip and holding out a shopping bag with some clothes in it.

I snatched the bag and walked to the bathroom as quickly as I could. I closed and locked the door, stripped, not really noticing a difference. I took a quick shower and got dressed. I smiled down at the bracelet but frowned when I remembered he probably bought this. I sighed and walked out to see him and Jake talking on the comfy looking couch. I sat a bit farther from them, waiting for them to acknowledge me so we could go.

"But I really like her" Harry said.

"Then take care of her, show her!" Jake argued back. He sounded like a therapist talking to a troubled teenager about how to solve his problems. Yes I was listening to their conversation a bit, I'm a concerned mother/sister. Urgh, why does it have to be so complicated.

You're probably still confused, so I'll explain, cause that's all I do apparently: My father used to rape me before as well. Mom had a lover, but she never got pregnant or anything. When father found out I was pregnant he thought it wasn't his so he tried to stab me but my mom jumped in front of the knife. I was left crying and whimpering in the house while he dragged her dead body and berried her in our backyard. Pretty freaky, no? I know, I'm a really messed up person, but I'm willing to let go of my past and start over, even if it is with the title of a single mother.

Jake was lucky, he could've been born with some sort of problem and/or died, but he was born a healthy boy. I think God wanted this to happen, not the sad and horrid parts but the ones where I learned something and became stronger. This is all preparing me for something bigger to come, I just don't know what yet...

"Ah! How long have you been listening?" Harry shrieked once he saw me. He looked a bit frantic as he bit his lip and his eyes grew wide. Jake just face-palmed and shook his head sighing.

"I wasn't listening and I've been here for a few minutes, why?" I narrowed my eyes at him. Instantly, relief washed over his face. I didn't dare tell him that I knew he liked a girl a lot, much less that I was falling for him and I felt a bit hurt. It's for the best I guess.

"Oh, n-nothing" He stuttered. I gave him a suspicious look but dropped it anyway by shrugging.

"I think we should go now, by the way, you look cute" He complimented smiling sweetly. I blushed a bit and thanked him walking out. I signed some papers and the doctor had a nurse put me on a wheelchair and take me to the entrance. Halfway there, Jake got fed up with walking, stopped the nurse, jumped on my lap and waved her to continue. This kid....

Harry laughed next to me and shook his head, making me smile dreamily. The nurse saw and waggled her eyebrows at me, I gave her a sad smile and shook my head. She pouted and knitted her eyebrows in confusion.

"I'm going to call the boys" Harry said before getting his phone out of his pocket and dialing a number. After a few rings one of them picked up and Harry told them I was free and to come pick us up. He hung up and when we reached the front door I talked a bit with the nurse explaining that Harry and I weren't together and that Jake was in fact my brother and son because my dad was an evil soul and all that. She nodded and told me she went through the same thing, one of the reasons she wanted to become a nurse, to help other girls that came bruised and hurt to the hospital. Her son had problems when he was born but he was fine now and very healthy.

"Hey there, Angel" Liam beamed at me. I smiled back and got in the car with them. We were almost at the corner of the street that leads to their houses, when Louis got a call from Simon.

"HI, UNCLE SIMON!" He yelled in the phone, making Jake and I cover our ears. The rest of the boys didn't seem to be affected by Louis' outburst, I guess they're used to it by now... I'm never getting used to it anyway.

"Who? Oh, I see, sure" He handed me the phone. I gave him a questioning look but he just shrugged and I pressed the phone to my ear.

"Yes, Mr. Cowell?" I said into the phone.

"I've told you to call me Simon" He chuckled and I smiled laughing a bit.

"I know, but it sounds so casual, which I think is inappropriate being that you are my boss" I replied smartly. He chuckled.

"Very well, very well. Could you get the boys to come down to my house, I need to talk to them and you too" He said. I could tell he had a smile in his voice but I wasn't having a good feeling.

"Sure, um, now?" I questioned a bit unsure.

"Yes, now" He chuckled slightly. Louis was grinning from ear to ear, Harry had a huge dreamy smile, he's probably thinking of that girl he likes, Liam was smirking at me from rear view mirror, Zayn and Niall were smiling widely and they high-fived. I stared at them a bit scared. Jake seemed to know what was happening cause he was smiling too.

"Uh, okay then. I'll see you in a few sir" I said. He answered then hung up. I was still a bit worried about their psychopathic grins but I just decided they had shared a corny joke or something.

"Mr. Cowell wishes to see us all at his house, now" I said. Liam nodded, still smirking and drove off.



"Welcome, take a seat" Simon gestured to the couches. The boy ran for them and quickly sat down, and Jake sat on the last available seat. I groaned, picked Jake up and sat him down on my lap. He squirmed and pouted.

"Where am I going to sit, Jake?" I glared at him slightly. He stuck his tongue out at me and I raised one of my eyebrows as a warning.

"Sorry" He pouted then sat down. I smiled in victory and Simon sat down on his office chair facing us.

"Now, I don't know if the boys told you, but they filmed you while you were playing the piano and singing" Simon began. I immediately shot my head towards them and gave them wide questioning eyes, my eyebrows knitting slightly.

"No, they didn't tell me, sir" I said, still glaring at them. They all gulped and smiled nervously.

"That doesn't matter" Simon said making me look back at him and nod once.

"They showed me" I gulped and closed my eyes waiting for him to say something bad about my voice.

"I think you have potential" He said, making me open my eyes to see him smiling at me. My jaw dropped and I stared at him in shock, then I looked at the boys with the same expression.

"But, I... I wanted to go to University or something" I said a bit ashamed, lowering my head.

"I agreed to take the job so I could take care of Jake here" I said, the boys except for Harry and Simon looking confused.

"And because I wanted to save up for Uni" I said a bit quieter. Simon nodded and we talked about what I could do. I would no longer be their maid, or governess. Simon and I agreed I needed to go to University and do something, so he said I could try arts or music, which made me happy since I always wanted to do that. We decided we all needed a break to think, so next time we were going to talk to Simon was going to be on the second week of January, next year.

"Guys, the cab is here!" I yelled from the stairs at their house. We had gotten back a few hours ago from Simon's and the boys wanted to leave to see their families. I was staying in my little cottage until further notice. They had packed a few days ago and were ready to go. I smiled at them and we said our goodbyes.

"Now you be good boys, okay?" I said, tearing up a bit. I wasn't going to see them for a few weeks and I must say I grew very close to them. They all smiled cheekily and I knew they wouldn't, even though they nodded.

"I'm going to miss you all" I said hugging them all at once. We were in a group hug when someone cleared their throat behind us. We looked back and saw Jake with arms crossed and tapping his foot. I giggled and opened my arms. He jumped in them and we hugged again.

"We'll miss you too mommy" Niall kissed my cheek. I blushed and looked down. He laughed and they were off. I was walking towards my house when I heard the car stop someone running behind us.

"I forgot something" Harry said, a bit nervous. I nodded, waiting for him to go to the house. Instead, he walked closer to me. Jake was at the doorstep already, I was only halfway there. Harry wrapped his arms around my waist, making my heart beat faster and faster. Then, he kissed me. It took me some time to process what was happening, but in a matter of seconds I had my arms around his neck and I was kissing back. We stayed there for a few seconds before I broke the kiss.

"You should go" He nodded and ran back out. I walked inside the house, closed the door, leaned on it slightly and touched my lips. What just happened?

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