New Life, New Love

Harry's mouth twitched, he didn't know how to respond. My heart was beating so fast I thought it was going to burst through my chest. I couldn't believe I just asked him that, but I needed to know. I secretly hoped he would say yes.


An unknown emotion flashed through his eyes. I couldn't decipher it, but Harry let out a forced, loud laugh that roared through the room. His laugh didn't meet his eyes. Rather, they held tinges of anger.

Immediately, I felt my face turn red. My whole face, not just my cheeks. I probably looked like a tomato.

"Why the hell would you even ask that?" Harry shook his head in disbelief, his brown curls following the motion. "This is why I don't become friends with girls. They always expect me to end up having feelings for them. Pathetic." He smirked as he studied my face. His ego took pride in the situation playing out.

Expect him to have feelings for me? I didn't expect him to have feelings for me, but I did hope he would. That's the difference between the truth of my motivation behind my words with the words that left his mouth. Yet, I was stupid for even hoping. Harry is a jerk, who only thinks of himself. I shouldn't have let his act of being sweet this past week change my mind.

Once a jerk, always a jerk. Especially in Harry's case....This is what I needed to remind myself of from now on. I needed to protect myself from further embarrassment and hurt.

The initial shock of his reaction began to wear off and I could feel my lips beginning to tremble. The smile Harry wore immediately left his face as he surveyed my impending distressed state.

I would not cry in front him, not this jerk. God, he could be cruel.

"Bella? I didn't mean to make you cry...." His false sweet nature began to take over, he stepped forward. I peered up at him, his eyebrows were furled. He looked confused, uncertain.

Anger quickly mixed in with my hurt.

"I'm not crying, but you can really be an ass, Harry." I shoved passed him, leaving him shocked behind me. As my hand reached for the doorknob, I felt his warm hand grip my arm. I hated and loved the electricity that proceeded to travel through my veins from his touch.

"Where the hell do you think you're going?" His green eyes narrowed into mine.

"Back to Toby. I want to have some fun tonight." I gave him my best seductive smile, but considering my anger and sadness, I probably looked like a lunatic. I shrugged off his grip from my arm, which was easy considering his shocked state.

I walked proudly out of the room, maneuvering my way around the house to find Toby. I wanted to get back at Harry and I knew this would anger him, but I don't know why it would.

After a few minutes of looking, I found Toby on the sofa with something tiny in his hand.

Weed?

I rolled my eyes. This was going to be more difficult than I imagined.

"Hey, sexy." His sultry voice invaded my ears. I approached and bravely sat on his lap. I looked around me and recognized the familiar faces that sat around the room. Niall, Louis, Zayn, Liam, Melody, Nicole, and a few of her friends looked at me questionably. I rolled my eyes at them, before turning my gaze to Toby.

I shuffled in his lap a bit, an attempt to get more comfortable. "So, what are you doing?" I tried to ignore the nauseating smell of Toby's blunt. His blue eyes gleamed mischievously at me, but glanced over my shoulder, a frown etching into his features. I turned around to see the object of his focus.

Harry.

He made his way over to us, and sat on the floor by Nicole. His harsh gaze flickered over to me, before his head snapped away from my direction.

Perfect.

"We were just about to play truth or dare." Nicole smiled at me, but it was far from friendly.

"Okay, I'm playing." I said with confidence, hoping to irritate the curly boy further.

"This isn't the kind of truth or dare you play at one of your girly sleepovers." Nicole's nasty grin grew wider. Geez, she was infuriating.

"I know, bitch." I said the last word a little quieter but a few gasps were let out, signaling everyone heard me. Nicole merely rolled her eyes. Everyone who was sitting on a chair or couch began to sit on the floor, making a circle. I took their queue and joined them, Toby following as well.

"Okay, Melody, truth or dare?" Louis asked once we were all situated on the floor. Melody looked slightly nervous, but Liam gave her hand a reassuring squeeze. They were so cute.

"Truth."

"How far have you and Liam gone?" Melody's face instantly brightened. Liam let out a sigh and rolled his eyes at the immature question. To my surprise, she answered.

"Oral, both ways." Louis grinned at her answer, nodding. My eyes widened at her. She met my face and simply shrugged, but her face still showed her embarrassment. I couldn't believe she had gone that far with him. Okay, technically, I've barely known her, but she didn't strike me as that kind of girl.
I guess everyone has a surprising side to them.

Melody looked over at Nicole. "Truth or dare?" Nicole thought for a moment.

"Truth." Melody's smile grew wicked, she flicked her flaming red hair off her shoulder before leaning forward a bit.

"Nicole, how many guys have you slept with? All the way?" I could hear the disdain in Melody's voice. I'm glad I'm not the only one who can't stand the whore.

"All the way? Can't say for sure. Definitely more than fifteen." Melody shook her head in disgust. Most people looked unfazed by her answer but I couldn't help but let out a gasp. I noticed a small smile play on Harry's lips.

A few more dares and truths were passed around. I found out that Melody has gone all the way with two guys, that Louis once peed on the street in front of his grandmother's friend, and Niall had a tattoo on his butt that said "Made in Ireland."

Finally, Niall asked me the question. I was a little nervous, unsure of what I was going to have to say or do.

"Truth."

"How was it giving head to Harry?" I couldn't quite process his words, maybe it was the last bit of alcohol coursing through my system. I wasn't sure if my senses were tricking me but Harry gave Niall a harsh glare. Niall let out a laugh, "Fine, fine, would you rather fuck Toby or Harry?"

Harry, my mind said.

"That's easy. Toby. I'm sure he's much bigger." Everyone let out a laugh, except Liam, Melody, and, of course, Harry. He simply scowled, a reaction I had hoped for. He deserved to feel like crap. Still, I felt a little guilty for my bold answer. Darn the alcohol. Toby ran his fingertips down my neck. I gave him a shy, uneasy smile. If I was sober, my judgement would have stopped his inappropriate actions. Harry intently observed our interaction.

Finally, it was Harry's turn.
"Dare." Harry stared at Zayn, waiting for his response. Zayn thought for a moment, his eyes glanced quickly to me, a smirk forming on his lips.

"I dare you to kiss Bella." My heart beat sped up. What the heck?

"No way!" My mouth immediately responded. Harry's shoulders slumped, slightly defeated, but he quickly recovered, straightening himself up.

"What? Are you too pussy?" Nicole taunted me.

"Fine." I huffed. I acted like I wasn't nervous, just irritated. But I could feel my hands starting to shake. This isn't how I wanted this to go. Not a dare.

Harry crawled over to me. He nervously searched my face. His eyes held concern. I gulped down as his face inched towards mine. He knew I didn't want this, I could tell by how hesitant he was and the way his green eyes looked at me.

He placed his hands on my cheeks, helping to block other's viewing our lips in action.


What he did next shocked me. He placed his thumb over my plump, trembling lips.

"It's okay." He quietly whispered, only loud enough for me to hear. His lips kissed his thumb, never touching my lips. He pulled away, leaving me in a daze of shock. People were cheering around us, believing that Harry had kissed me.


But him and I both knew that he didn't. I couldn't help but feel grateful for his actions. The hurt he had caused returned, slowly replacing my anger.

How could he be so startling rude and so incredibly sweet in one night?

Harry sat back down next to Nicole. She looked a little irritated but she gave him a small smile, which he returned before he met my eyes again, giving me an open wink. Everyone around us began laughing, I rolled my eyes, knowing he was just putting on a show for everyone. When everyone's attention turned towards Louis giving Niall a dare, I quickly looked back at Harry. I jumped when I realized his green eyes were already on me. I mouthed a quick "Thanks." He simply nodded before giving me a small, genuine smile.

A few more truths were given, more dares to kiss people and take shots were encouraged.
Toby's turn. He looked around the circle for his victim.

"Harry, truth or dare?" He asked slowly.

"Dare." Harry's reply was low. I found myself hoping he would be dared to kiss me again. I quietly scolded myself for such thoughts.

"I dare you to make out with Nicole, tongues and all, for a minute. Oh, and don't forget to palm her through her underwear." My head snapped towards Toby in disbelief. He shrugged at me, not knowing the ridiculousness of his request.

My throat began to dry when Harry raised an eyebrow at Toby. Please, don't accept, don't accept this Harry. I silently pleaded.

To my horror, Harry shrugged. Harry and Nicole made their way inside the circle, giving everyone a better viewing access. Harry's hands guided Nicole to lay on her back. His body hovered over her. He looked at me quickly, his face held no emotion until he saw my clear distress and discomfort. He grinned wickedly. I gulped again.

Was he glad that he was hurting me? Clearly, he knew what he was doing.

I was given a clear view of everything, as I was seated to the left of their sides. Every dip of the tongue, every pull of a lip, I could see.

"Palm her." Someone coaxed. I felt my hands tremble. No, no, no. Harry's hand moved down Nicole's skimpy dress, hitching it up to her waist, her hot pink thong coming into view. Guys began howling, Toby bit down on his lip, Liam looked away.
Harry's hand made his way to Nicole's center, on top of her underwear, adding pressure in circles. He began rubbing furiously as Nicole's hips bucked up to meet his hand. Nicole began moaning. Harry let out a few cuss words. Her mouth formed an "o" as she stared at Harry, but he refused to meet her eyes. Instead, his head dipped down, as his teeth bit down slightly on Nicole's red, swollen bottom lip. His lips let go as his tongue swiped across hers. He broke away from the kiss, his hand continuing its motions, and looked up at me. He gave me an evil smile and went back to work on Nicole's lips.

Nicole looked completely at ease being pleasured in front of a crowd. She had no shame. She had no dignity nor self-respect. I sadly thought how Harry was doing the same. How could people be so vile? I groaned in disgust.

Finally, the minute was up and a flustered-looking Nicole and Harry moved back to their previous positions in the circle. I stared down at my lap, not wanting to make eye contact with Harry, but I could feel his green eyes staring at me. I couldn't get rid of the putrid taste that had risen in my mouth upon seeing Harry touch Nicole so intimately.

"Belle, truth or dare?" Louis asked eventually.

"Dare." I said, still looking at my lap even though Harry and Nicole's interaction happened fifteen minutes ago.

"I dare you to make out with Toby." I sighed, annoyed with these stupid kissing dares. I didn't have it in me to protest, the alcohol was leaving my system but I felt like getting back at Harry.

I turned my face towards Toby as his lips came crashing into mine. The adrenaline of kissing this stranger ran through my body, giving me a surge of energy. I allowed his tongue to push through my lips. We proceeded as we got up to our knees, my arms finding their way around Toby's neck. I could taste all the alcohol and smoke he had consumed that day, but I didn't care. I just needed Harry to feel the way he made me feel. Toby's left arm wrapped around my waist, slamming my hips to his. I felt my hands tremble in response. I hated this. I felt disgusting, and I didn't like guys touching me so inappropriately. Nicole let out a laugh at my expense. It was obvious I wasn't used to this kind of behavior to everyone. Toby's right arm skimmed the hem of my shirt before it ducked underneath the material. I jumped slightly at the cool touch. I stopped my lips from moving, thinking whether I should stop Toby or let him keep going. His hand began to work its way up my skin slowly. I really wish I was completely sober right now.

Before Toby could reach my bra, I felt his presence torn away from me.
"That's enough! Fuck." Harry voice was low and rough. He had pulled Toby away from me, before he grabbed my wrist and pulled me up to my feet.

"We're leaving. Now." Harry commanded.

"No." I glared at him. His anger rose as I firmly held my ground, but not for long.

He ignored my protests as he pulled me out of the house and towards his car. I was able to pull out of his harsh grip, I rubbed my reddened wrist as Harry spun on his heels to meet my gaze.

"What the actual hell, Harry?!!" I yelled at him, hoping to cover up the hurt he had made me feel at this party.

"Bella, not now." He gritted through his teeth.

"What is wrong with you!?" I screamed, hoping to cover up the tears that were evidently forming in my eyes. "You can't control me! I was having fun!"

"No, you weren't!" He stepped forward, pointing out my obvious lie, his chest was began to rise up and down as it grazed my body.

"I really hate you." I said quietly, but loud enough for him to hear. I could feel his hot breath on my face as his mouth fell open.

"The feeling's mutual." He said coldly. My eyes shot up to his as my mouth fell agape. I was stunned, I hadn't expected him to be so harsh even though I said it first.

"W-what?" I said, clearly shocked. He rolled his eyes and grabbed my arm roughly as he towed me behind. He opened the passenger door, nodding for me to get in, his eyes refusing to meet mine. I was in such a state of horror that I complied, unable to fight back.

I sat in his car as he drove, shaking. A tear slid down my cheek, Harry glanced over and saw my hurt running from eyes. He let out a sigh of defeat.


I waited for him to taunt me, to push me further, but instead we sat in agonizing silence until he pulled up to my driveway.

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