Harrys P.O.V.

I look around me and everyone is doing their work like it's the easiest thing in the world. Everyone except me that is. The only thing on my mind was this girl I had just met. She had the most beautiful hazel eyes and a smile that could bring peace to the world. Meeting her at the library was the best thing to happen to me yet. Emilee, she said her name was. We have no classes together but she told me we had the same lunch time. I can't wait to be able to talk to her again because she was so lovely and kind. She has been the only person, other than the boys, to talk to me and be nice and It was wonderful. I don't have a crush on her it's just she's a genuine person.
Niall says that she's a babe and he wants to get to know her. Of course I only laughed but it would be a cute couple and I wouldn't mind having her around us.
The bell rings and it's lunch time, finally. Nick comes around and says his usual annoying things and I pretend to not care. The things he says to me are really stupid but I don't want to make things worse by trying to fight him.
"Harry! Hey mate over here!" Niall walks my way with Emilee behind him and she puts on that beautiful smile of hers.
"Let's get our lunch because i'm starving" Emilee is a very hungry person and has no patience when it comes to getting her lunch and It's kind of cute.

When we sit at our table Liam and Zayn were already there like usual. Niall told me that before I was in the hospital, Liam and Zayn rarely sat at our table but instead with Louis but now that he's gone the other people at their table got uninteresting and talked a lot about rumors. I also think that they're just here to protect me like they always do. It gets really annoying but they're not a bad as my mum. She barely lets me leave anywhere by myself and she worries too much about everything I do.
"So Harry, tell me about yourself" Emilee says followed by that smile.
I hesitate for a while. There's not much I can say because I don't have anything interesting about me. "Well I don't really know much really. You see I was sleeping nicely until I awoke. I looked around and saw people and I had no clue who they were. It was until they told me that they were my family and friends that the doctor told them I lost my memory. So I don't know much about myself either."
She stared at me,"Can I ask why you were in the hospital and how did you lose your memory?"
I don't even know the answer to that either. "I have no clue. Nobody ever wants to speak about it."
Emilee looked at the boys with a confused look. I was getting kind of embarassed not knowing things so I excused myself to the rest room.

Emilees P.O.V

None of this was making sense to me. He has no idea. I look at Niall and he quickly looked away. I'm sure he knows. I'm sure they were there. They had to be they were his only friends.
"Okay, someone please, tell me what's going on. This is bothering me." I need to know. I know I just met him but it makes me uncomfortable not knowing.
"Liam, can we?" Niall asks and Liam hesitated then nods his head.
"Fine. But Em, I know it's kind of fucked up but we don't want Harry to know because it's his past and he doesn't need to know."
I nod but why wouldn't they want him to know. It's HIS past and he has the right to know, right?
Niall speaks up first," Well Em you see, Harry wasn't a happy kid here. Since he moved here he wasn't happy before either. He self harmed a lot and his mum makes him wear jumpers now because she doesn't want people to see. Anyways, he decided he would tell everyone he was gay but since the people around here arent very nice it was a bad thing. His boyfriend did nothing to help I guess and things went bad between them. They were really close and Harry only told him everything and you could say Louis was his anchor. But without his anchor he drifted away to a dark place and on his birthday he didnt want to be here so he um tried to kill himself."
Oh my god. Sweet Harry attempted? I was in shock. It hurts to know that someone like Harry would even consider it. Why wasn't anyone there to stop him? Wait, but Louis was his boyfriend?
"Wait are you saying Louis was his boyfriend?" I was shocked still. I've never seen them interact at school and Louis doesn't seem like the type to talk to Harry. Sine how the way high school goes Louis is at the top and Harry was at the bottom of the chain.
"Yeah although nobody knows since he denied it and called it bullshit."
Crazy. "But why did Louis leave? Does he feel guilty or something? You know since he wasn't there? Wait! Harry doesn't know about Louis does he?"
Everything was just a bit overwhelming and my brain is filled with questions and possible answers.
"Calm down Emmy! Louis left because well we don't really know. But i'm guessing guilt was a reason. But when he got the new he wouldn't believe it. Until it hit him that he did. He was a mess. He wouldnt leave his room and it was terrible. The news hurt him the most and now he's gone. He was there when Harry woke up but left and we havent heard from him so no Harry has no clue how close they really were."
No something has to be done. He can't just disappear like some asshole! He hurt Harry so bad and he doesn't even do anything? Does this even bother him? I don't know but I do know that Harry cannot live in this confusion.
"Niall, give me your phone. Now." I was determined to do something. He tossed it over and I was surprised he didnt even ask until he saw that I was calling someone.
"Who are you calling?"
"Louis."
They all looked surprised and shook their heads to signal not to but I've made up my mind.
"Hii. I'm back." Just in time Harry came.
"Hello Niall?" He answered. Surprising.
"This isn't Niall. Hi, I'm Emilee. Listen, I know what happened with Harry. I kind of was hoping you'd come back please to settle somethings. Since you left unexpectedly and it was rude kind of."
He didn't respond for a while.
"Louis, I have someone her to talk to you." I pass the phone to Harry.

Harrys P.O.V

"Hello?"
"Harry." After weeks I can finally speak to him.
"Louis, I. Hi. I haven't spoke to you since the hospital. I can't believe you're actually talking to me. The last time you left without explain what you meant. I remember what you said. You were apologizing and I dont know why."
"Harry, listen I can't really talk to you right now."
I feel like crying. He doesn't want to talk I know it. I can't let him get away without an explanation. I need to know. Nothing has been bothering me more than this. Louis can n longer be a mystery that I just let slip by.
''Louis no. I need to know please." I can't let him disappear again.
"Harry, I promise one day I will tell you everything. Today is not that day. I have to go. Bye."
"Bye Louis. I know this may sound weird right now but, I miss you."

Louis P.O.V
As he hung up I softly whisper I love you.
He misses me but not as much as I miss him.

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