Louis P.O.V

Fucking Harry. He's so over dramatic. He can make such a big deal out of everything. I'll just let him be mad and mybe he'll calm down in less than an hour. I don't care if it's his birthday.

It was beautiul outside but I didn't really feel like going out. I had plans to go over to Harry's but he's in a mood so maybe I can invite Niall over to watch movies or just hang out. Perhaps I'll invite Harry over hen he stop being a pain. I call up Niall to make sure he's not busy later.

"Hello? Louis! What's up?" He is so cheerful, it's quite adorable.
"Hey Niall, I was wonderin if you weren't busy later so we can hang out?" I know he'll say yes. He always does.
"Yeah, of course! I'll be there in a while!" He hung up and I thought about Harry. I feel so bad about the way I spoke to him. It was too harsh and I know how sensitive he can be. I should apologize. I was such a bitch to him. He'll get over it though. Whenever we get into arguements he alway calls to apologize and then he comes over and we cuddle. Then he'll tell me he loves me and he'll tell me one of his weird but funny stories. Then everything will be okay. Like it always is. But right now everything feels weird. I don't know what it is but I shake it off anyways. It's nothing.

It's been 20 minutes and Niall hasn't shown up. It's fine he's probably still getting ready. No he usually only takes 5 minutes to get here. He doesn't live far from my flat. I guess I'll watch a movie until he gets here. Maybe some popcorn will be nice. That's it I'm texting Harry to come over.
He only replies with "If I can." Hmm weird. He'll come anyway, I know he will.

I start my movie at 7:45 and Niall hasn't shown up yet. Is something wrong? Nah, he's taking his time. Maybe Harry will come over sooner. I feel lonely. I waste 20 minutes staring at the screen when there's a sudden knock at the door then it opens. Zayn and Niall walk in with Liam behind them. But where's Harry? The boys look upset. I wonder whats going on. Liam looks at me then turns to the boys.
"Should we tell him now? He looks startled."
"Tell me what? Liam what's happening? Is something wrong?" Zayn puts a hand on my shoulder to comfort me.
"Louis, we have to talk about something really serious. It's about Harry, sit down"
I dont want to sit down. I want to know what's going on and it's driving me crazy not knowing.

"Louis, Harry is well. Harry tried to- Harry's at the hospital. In a coma." I stare at them and force out a laugh.
"You guys are wrong! I was talking to him earlier. They've got it all wrong! Harry's fine." How could they even think of something that horrible?
"Louis, i'm sorry bu it's true. His parents found him. He tried. He tried to commit." Liam struggles holding back his tears.
I shake my head. They're wrong. Harry is probably sleeping in his room or out somewhere. He's totally fine.
""No you guys have it all wrong. You dont know what you're talking about." The boys look at each otherand their faces show worry. They actually believe this crap.
Niall looks at me and says, "Louis, I know this will be hard for you but do you want to see his family?"
Even Niall is fooled! This is ridiculous!
"How many times do I have to tell you. He's fine. The hospital is wrong. This whole thing is bullshit!" They look at me this time and their eyes start to tear up. I roll my eyes and take out my phone to text Harry this nonsense.
*"Hey Harry, can you believe this crap? They think you're in a coma. Bullshit."
*"Harry? Are you going to answer? Are you still mad."
*"Call me okay?"
*"Ok. Stay mad. See if I care."
*The boys only stare at me and it's creeping me out a bit. They havent said anything to me in a while. I guess they give up telling me lies.
*"Harry, are yo ok?"
*"Babe. Answer me back please."
*"Please. I want to know that I didnt mess up. Babe"
*"HARRY. Please no you cant be. No no no. You didnt did you."
*"You promised you wouldnt. They can be right. Are they? You cant break your promise. Harry i love you."
*"They say true love is a promise that can't be broken. In love you don't break promises but you broke the biggest one we had."
I stare at my phone until I can't take it anymore and I break down. I throw my phone and try to stop crying bu it's no use. They were right. I want this so badly to be a dream but it's not. This is reality. The boys only hug me since it's the only thing they can do right now. I would drow myself in tears if I could. I don't want to live thisday or the next if he doesnt wake up.
I cant describe this feeling inside me. Pain, hurt, betrayal, emptyness but also anger. The anger was directed towards myself. This was all my fault. For not being there. The arguement. Not keeping him strong. Not even helping him with his problems he told me about. I hate thisso much. I hate myself for this. None of this would have happened if I was just there.

I remember his sister telling me that there was a reason he used to wear so many braclets and long sleeves or jumpers. After that when I saw him, I ran to him and gave him the biggest hug.
"Promise me you'll never attempt. If you love me enough you wont do it." I told him crying.
"I promise." He said.

But he broke the promise and it broke my heart. Happy Birthday Harry.

Notes

Same Louis. Same feeling I get.

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Hii. The starred teext is Lou's messages to Harry if you didn't already know. How was the chapter? Sorry it took a while. But here it is yay!