Louis

It has been approximately 2 weeks since I have been back and the bond that Harry and I managed to maintain was going pretty strong. He told me he would tell me everything and anything and he does. Same with myself. I told him stories from when I was gone and sometimes about how things were before. It was a feeling of nostalgia whenever I told him stories from the past. Although they weren't all that bad some were just emotional because I would think about how happy Harry would be whenever something good happened and how things have changed. Harry is the type who enjoys the little things that would bring some happiness. Forgetting his past didn't seem to make much of a difference because he explains to me that inside somethings stop him from achieving happiness. There was something that just held him back. He would tell me his thoughts sometimes. You'd think he would be such a happier person but it's like his thoughts are deep ocean and he can't swim.
"Would you like some tea Louis? You look zoned out. Are you alright?" Harry sounds quite worried about me but it's not me he should worry about. I just nod and smile at him assuring him that I'm fine. The boys texted me asking me if they could come over and of course, they can come over whenever they want.
"Louis!" Harry shouted from the kitchen," can you tell me another story? From the past that is. I know I keep asking but maybe just maybe there's that chance that something could trigger my memory and bring some things back."
Always asking for a story but to trigger memories? Is that even possible? Would it work? I guess there's a way to find out.
"Well one day, we were at a school football game and this was before I was on the team. Anyways we were on our way to get some food because we were starving and the game had not yet started. As we were getting our food you tripped and fell which had caused another boy to trip. But he fell in his nacho cheese and it was everywhere. He stood up and he was angry so he grabbed some of his cheese and threw it at your face. You were so shocked and you couldn't believe it and then you started to laugh. The other boy was then laughing too and so was I. When you asked his name the boys said Zayn. That was how you first met my best friend at the time, Zayn. Quite a first encounter. Unusual but it was great."
By then Harry was laughing until he got serious then said,"Nothing. I can't remember. Nothing is coming up."
I didn't expect him to but I was disappointed actually.
The door knocked and the boys came in all excited.
"Harry! Louis! Get ready!!" Niall was practically jumping everywhere.
"Where are we going?" Harry asked.
"To go and see that new movie I have been dying to see since the trailer came out! Then after that we just go wherever we want."
Then I remembered I have football practice. Plans are ruined and all because of me. I couldn't just say no to being put back on the team. I am one of the best players after all.
"Guys,I can't go sorry. I have football practice."
"That's okay. You go and we go to what we're doing. Right, Harry?" Harry nodded.
No, Harry is coming with me. I promised i'd be by his side and with him being in a sad mood lately I just can't let him go. He needs me.
"No. Harry is coming with me." I argue. They don't really need to take Harry anyway.
"Louis you hang out with Harry all the time and whenever you want. We can't. C'mon Harry. You're with us."Liam argues back.
Liam looks at the boys them to me.
"His is my best friend after all." I scoff. They have each other to support. I have Harry.
"Louis he isn't just you're friend. Let him have some freedom. He can't just hang around you all the time. Understand that he needs to be independent. Stop making him always depend on someone else. Do you not see what you're doing? You aren't making him stronger in fact you're doing the opposite. Let him leave with us."
Weaker? No. I'm only trying to help him. He needs my help.
"He needed me last time and i almost lost him. Do you think I want that again? I learned the first time. I can't let him leave again. I can't. I wont lose him." I start to freak out. There is no way. What if something happens? Harry can't leave again. I'll lose him again and I'm scared of losing what I love. And i'll so anything to save it.
"Louis, I won't leave you ever. I promise." Harry speaks up.
"Stop it!! Harry you have to learn to be independent. Be your own man. Louis grow up. Do you honestly believe that everything stays? Well it doesn't. Stop making him weak. It's for the better."
I am grown up. Hell, i'm the oldest but the very thought of losing him makes me panic.
"Louis, you're still caught up in the fact that he'll remember everything. That you guys were dating and he'll fall back in love with you but think about it. Be realistic. It doesn't seem like he's regaining his memory. Stop trying to make him love you still because he probably doesn't anymore." What surprised me the most was that this came from Zayn. The one who before Harry was my best friend. He always supported me. Now it seems like this whole world is against me. And it doesn't seem to stop fighting me and one day the world will win and I will lose. Everything.

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