FLASHBACK

Harry’s POV
“Where do you wanna go?” asks Diana. We’re walking along Hollywood boulevard just window shopping. I’m not bored at all, I’m actually thrilled to be here with her. Her being next to me is enough for my heart to be at out of pace.

“Hey you weren’t you the one who said we should go out?” I respond laughing.

“Well yeah but you’ve been here before haven’t you?” she asks. I swallow and nod. The last time I was here I was with Kendall. I don’t think I would ever tell Diana that though. I know she hates Kendall and I know Kendall hates her.

“Harry?” I hear Diana ask snapping me out of my thoughts.

“Y-yeah, sorry I was thinking.” I admit fiddling with my fingers.

“No problem, common lets go!” she says dragging into a random restaurant.

“So what’s wrong?” Diana asks as the waiter leaves our table.

“Nothing why?” I ask.

“You look sad.” She replies playing with her fork.

“I’m happy when I’m with you darling.” I reply shaking my head. I can see why she thinks I’m sad and it’s not the reason she thinks. When I was here the last time all I was thinking about was her.

Kendall and I had some pretty good times in L.A. but even when I was with Kendall I was thinking of Diana.


We finish at the restaurant and we head back to the hotel. We watch CSI until around 7pm.

“Get ready darling.” I say turning off the TV.

“OI! I was watching that Styles!” she jokes.

“Well we have plans.” I reply. She raises an eyebrow and slowly peels off the bed and walks to the closet.

“What are we doing?” she asks picking out clothes.

“Somewhere.” I reply standing up.

“Where exactly.” She questions turning around.

“Trust me.” I reply pecking her lips. She sighs and picks out some high wasted black jeans and a grey t-shirt. She runs into the bathroom and shortly after appears.

“You look wonderful.” I compliment walking over.

“Are you ready?” she asks. Okay… What the hell happened?

“Yeah.” I mumble grabbing my keys. I walk into the bathroom and quickly grab my phone off the charger.

We get to the carnival and Diana’s face lights up.

“I LOVE CARNIVALS!” She exclaims jumping up and down.

“Good because were here all night.” I reply smiling. She gives me a big kiss taking me by surprise and we climb out of the car.

The night has been amazing so far. We’ve been on some of the roller coasters and we’ve been on the spinning tea cups. Diana got a little sick but laughed it off.

“What do you want now my love?” I ask holding her hand as we walk side by side through the carnival.

“Funnel cake!” she replies instantly.

“Sure thing.” I walk over to the funnel cake stand and unfortunately a fan notices me.

“OH MY GOD! HARRY!” She exclaims. Shit. I look around and I’m swarmed with fans.

“Can I have a picture? Harry please?” she asks.

“Sure no problem.” I reply smiling. I take a few pictures until it’s my time to order.

“One funnel cake with everything.” I order smiling at the lady.

“That’s $15.” She replies smiling and biting her lip. I hand her $15 and turn away to take some more pictures with fans. I look over and Diana and she doesn’t seem phased. Thank god.

“Here ya go cuite.” The girl at the register says.

“Thanks.” I reply smiling. I have a girlfriend and am no way in hell going to cheat on my Diana. I say goodbye to the fans and I run over to Diana.

“Having fun!” she jokes poking my dimples.

“Not without you.” I reply derping.

“Did you just derp?” she asks laughing.

“I guess.” I reply.

“No you legit derped. Wholy shit that was scary!” she teases still laughing her ass off.

“Okay okay, common lets eat this.” I reply.

We finish eating the funnel cake and I instantly pull Diana onto the Ferris wheel. It’s always been my dream to have a proper kiss on top of a Ferris wheel. I don’t know why but it just has. I guess it’s just the romantic side of me.

Diana’s POV
Harry drags me on the Ferris wheel like a little kid running into a candy store. We stand in line and make stupid small talk for a while. During our conversation I can’t help but overhear girls talking about Harry and Kendall. The thought of them being together makes me hateful.

I hate the fact that Kendall got to kiss Harry’s perfect lips.

I hate the fact that Kendall got to hold his hand with the cross on it.

I hate the fact that Kendall got to look into his beautiful green eyes.

I hate the fact that Kendall might have fucked my boyfriend.

But most of all. I hate the fact that Harry was with Kendall when I needed him the most.

I should have been the one kissing Harry the night I woke up from my coma.

I should have been the one holding his hand at night.

I should have been the one looking into his loving green eyes.

I should have been the one making love with Harry.

But most of all. I should have woken up to my coma with Harry by my side.

I haven’t voiced all my hatred towards his actions and I don’t think I can. I understand why he left but… why Kendall? He always said he hated the Kardashians. So why the fuck did he date Kendall?

Before I know it I have millions of thoughts running through my head. I can’t focus on the ride because I’m so upset.

“Isn’t the view amazing?” he asks. I turn my head and he has a beautiful smile on his face. I want to smile back but I can’t. Harry turns his head and he notices my reaction.

“What’s wrong?” he replies worried. I debate on telling him but decide not to. I hear his phone ring and he takes it out of his pocket.

“One sec.” he says quickly answering it.

“Hello?” he asks not even checking the caller ID.

“Oh, hey…” he mumbles awkwardly. I listen to their conversation and I know it’s Kendall. I grab the phone and Harry looks shocked.

“So like maybe we could chill later just us?” I hear Kendall ask.

Without replying I grab Harry’s phone and I throw it off the Ferris wheel. I watch it hit the ground and it shatters. Damn right.

“What the fuck?” Harry replies shocked. “Honestly Diana what the fuck is wrong with you? You’re acting crazy.”

“Right.” I reply dryly.

“Why are you acting like this?” I turn my head towards Harry and he’s almost in tears. Usually by this point I would have just sighed and apologized, but I can’t. The words “I’m sorry” just won’t come out.

“Honestly. What’s wrong?” Harry asks. I sigh deeply and look out into the distance as the Ferris wheel spins.

“Why?” I ask bluntly.

“Why what darling?” he replies facing me. I look away and don’t bother making any eye contact. I just can’t look into his eyes the same anymore.

“Why did you leave me for Kendall? And Taylor? And all those other girls you fucked at X-Factor?” I reply dryly with almost no emotion.

“Diana, are you kidding me right now. You’re mad because I had a few relationships while you were in a coma. Look, I’m sorry but-“

“No you’re not. You’re really not!” I interrupt him. He’s just saying sorry. Those words are just being thrown around meaninglessly.

“I am!” he debates. I shake my head and the Ferris wheel stops at the top.

“Do you love me?” I ask him. I study his face and it’s in pure shock.

“Yes! I love you! Diana I really do!” he replies.

“What am I doing?” I ask myself out loud.

“Babe look-“ I hold up a hand signaling for him to stop speaking.

“Did you just call me babe?” I ask. He nods and I feel like I’m just another casualty. Another girl he’s going to fuck and leave. This isn’t 18 year old Harry, this isn’t the same Harry that loved me. This is someone completely different.

“Yeah?” he replies non challantly. Does he honestly not remember all the times I’ve ranted about how I hate being called babe?

“What’s my favorite place in the world?” I ask hoping he remembers.

“The Eiffel Tower?” he replies. And with that I know what I have to do.

“Remember how we did Romeo and Juliet in high school?” I ask.

The Ferris wheel spins and it’s our time to get off. I practically jump off my seat and run. I get to a bridge in the amusement park until Harry catches me and turns me to face him.

“What about Romeo and Juliet?” he asks. I take one last look at his face and I can feel my heart break into a million pieces.

“You can go be Kendall’s Romeo because I’m not your Juliet anymore.”

“What?” he asks. “Diana no, what are you saying?” Harry yells in shock.

“It’s over.” I whisper holding back my tears. I look at Harry and he’s practically bawling.

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT’S OVER? WHY? I CAN FIX IT!” he yells.

“It’s you Harry. You’re the problem.” I reply coldly.

“But I love you.” He cries.

“I bet you loved Kendall too.” I reply harshly. I can’t explain why I’m acting this way but it’s like a mini demon inside of me is coming out and the feeling of love is so gone.

“No Diana-“ I hold up a hand signaling for him to stop talking.

“Harry don’t.” I reply finally letting tears slide down my face. “It’s better this way.” I add.

Harry takes a moment before speaking again. His eyes are like waterfalls. I feel like a knife is being stabbed into my heart but I know that if I stay with him I’m going to go mad, and he’s going to loose it too.

“I don’t want to be her Romeo.” Harry sobs. It tears me apart to see him like this, but he’s changed. . . and I don’t know if I’m still in love with “New Harry”. I honestly miss the old one and I need time to see if this is going to ever work.

“This is just goodbye, it’s not the end.” With that. I leave.

Notes

Honestly didn't think I was going to update but then I was like "fuck it".

So If you read the last chapter it explains why I haven't been updating and I said I would go into further detail about what emotional events happened. So it kinda happened. I got over my ex. For good. I can finally walk by him and not feel a thing. It's so amazing and it's been a real eye opener to me. With that being said, it really effected my writing. While loosing my feelings for him, I also lost my inspiration for my writing. But... there's someone new. Who is actually kinda amazing. I've always known that I would get over my ex if I met someone better, and I finally did. Look, I don't know where him and I stand, but what I'm sure of is that I'm happier now and the last 3 years of missing my ex don't matter any more because I've found someone who actually cares (or I think he does).


So yeah :) Once again I'll try to update Saturday! I also have a new story coming out who I'm co-writing with Always-For-The-Curlss!

Thanks for being the most amazing fans ever <3 I love you guys loads <3

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