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IMPORTANT AUTHORS NOTE

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Diana’s POV
I wake up to the roaring engine of the bus and slowly roll out of my bunk bed being careful not to hit my head on the ceiling. I walk towards our mini kitchen and all the boys are sitting on the couches.

“Morning guys.” I chirp smiling.

They all reply with ‘good morning’, ‘hello’ or ‘hi’ and I notice that Harry isn’t there. Suddenly I feel two strong arms wrap around my waist and I smell Harry’s cologne.

“It’s not morning anymore love.” Harry whispers in my ear before kissing my cheek.

“Then good afternoon.” I reply smirking.

“Knock it off you two.” Louis says throwing a pillow at us.

“Jealous Tomlinson?” I tease.

“Yes because my baby isn’t here so knock it off you knobs.” He replies pouting.

“Call Eleanor for fucks sake if you miss her.” Harry suggests.

“Already did curly. Now make Diana some breakfast so she can get ready and so we can rehearse afterwards.” Louis reply shooing us away.

“Aie aie captain.” Harry jokes.

“What are you going to make me?” I ask grabbing a towel for my shower.

“I’ll surprise you.” Harry replies.

“Good luck” I say to him before closing the washroom door and climbing in the shower.

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Harry’s POV
I start to cook her pancakes with berries when the guys start to question me.

“So Styles, you and Diana. Is this a permanent thing or?” questions Liam

“Yeah, she’s the love of my life.” I reply kinda shocked that Liam would even as a question that’s so fucking stupid.

“Sorry mate just making sure she’s not the next Caroline, Taylor or Ken-”

“Shut up.” Louis interjects. Liam looks pissed but just pulls out his phone and listens to music.

“Mate, we just… we don’t want fame to fuck up your relationship. That’s all Liam means” Niall says in Liam’s defense.

“Yeah I know, but she’s not that so please never bring that up ever again.” I reply now angry.

I love Diana with all my heart and I would never let her go. I would never break her heart or do anything to cause her harm. I want to marry her one day and until the day I die I will love her and be right by her side through thick and thin.

I finish the pancakes and set it up with some warm black tea. Her favorite. It’s crazy how after three years I still remember everything about her. Finally Diana walks into the living area in the bus and her eyes light up.

“My favorite!” she exclaims

“I never forgot.” I whisper in her ear. She smiles and blushes but quickly sits down to nibble on the food.

“Where are we going again?” she asks.

“Colorado, Ohio and L.A. are the next three” I reply. Her face drops a little when I say L.A. but only for a second.

“Cool.” She replies.

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ONE MONTH LATER
Diana’s POV
Here I sit. At our spot. Alone. I thought we would be able to work it out, but something’s just can’t be worked out I guess. Damn, never thought It would end this way.

I feel my phone buzz and look down at it.

From Zach:
Hey babe you wanna come over? I’m shirtless ;)

Ignore.

I look out over Holmes Chapel and I feel sick. Not because I ate something dodgy or because I’m coming down with a cold. It’s because he’s not here with me. He’s miles and miles away and he doesn’t care. I know he doesn’t. If he cared he wouldn’t have done it.

I climb down from the hood of my car and hop inside. I drive and I can’t stop the tears that are falling down my face. I cry and cry and cry until I pull up to the drive thru of Mickey D’s. I wipe my eyes with some wipes and order a milkshake and some fries.

I get my order and drive to my house. My old house, the one that can make me keep my sanity and calm me of all my stress. I love New York but for now I can’t go there. There’s his face at every corner. At least in this town his face is everywhere but it’s the boy I remember, not the monster that he has become.

I sit on the island and start to eat my meal. I try to stop crying but I can’t. The last time I ordered fries and a milkshake I was with him. He called me crazy for liking these two unlikely foods together but he agreed with me after a while and now they’re his favorite treat.

I cry and eat the delicious food while my mind wonders. Does he know how much he’s breaking my heart? I thought he said it was over with her, so why did he go back? Management couldn’t have been the only thing that made him change his mind. Management didn’t stop us last time, so what did I do? Why did he leave me? I needed and need him now but he’s not here. He just doesn’t care.

I turn on the TV and of course the first thing on is all about him. Him and her together in L.A. I see pictures of them kissing and I angrily throw the remote at the TV and breakdown into more tears.

This pain is so unreal. I’ve never had my heart shattered quite like this before. I can’t explain why I think about him all the time and I can’t explain why my heart longs for him even though he’s clearly gone, and I can’t explain why everywhere I go I see his face, but that’s just the thing. The things I can’t explain are the things that keep me interested. I just need some answers and I know I can’t get them.

I go to my room’s bathroom and wash my face quickly. I pull on my pajamas and slowly crawl into bed. I remember when he was in this bed with me. When his strong muscular arms were wrapped around me, or when I traced his tattoo’s with my fingers. I close my eyes and let all the pain soak in.

I don’t want to dream about him tonight but I know that I will. I close my eyes and open them not surprised to find tears. Look what he’s done to me. I was broken, then he fixed me. Now I was happy and he broke me all over again.

“I hate you Harry Styles.” I whisper to myself before closing my eyes.

Notes

IMPORTANT NOTE PLEASE READ! BOLD = VERY IMPORTANT!

So I know everyone is super pissed off that I haven't been updating and I have a reason. I've had a shit load of homework and unfortunately, that's not stopping any time soon. I keep getting bombarded with projects, tests and homework so updating takes up time that I don't have. March break will be when I update the most. Hope fully I can try to fit in writing in my schedule but I can't do everything.

Also, I have also been working on my fitness and health. I've lost about 5 pounds and intend to keep this up for the rest of my life. Now this isn't just temporary for me this is permanent. I've completely changed my lifestyle and I feel a lot better. Also, I workout every day now not just 2-5 times a week, so that's been taking up a lot of my time.

Finally, I've just been busy with birthdays, events and other things that involve me having a social life. I love to write don't get me wrong, but balancing good grades, extra curricular activities and a social life is a pain in the ass.

So why did I decide to update when I have 4 projects and 4 tests? Because of my inspiration Always-For-The-Curls. She writes Cafe Girl with me and is one of my best friends on this website. She's been through so much recently and I really need you guys to go read her story Diana. I really think Diana is an amazing story and I'm so glad that she's back. She deserves so many votes and readers for this story because it's truly amazing. Please go read it and if it's not your cup of tea, please read Teenage Dirtbag because even though she's finished it, I love the story and still go back to read it. She's the reason I updated and I guess if you wanted to thank her then please check her out :) She's perfect.

One thing I really need your support for is something I think I might start...or try to start. I think lately there has been so much negativity on this website. It used to be nice and peaceful and a place where people can really express themselves through writing and not get hate for it. I posted a new story "Rule Breakers" and I've been writing for a while so I know it wasn't shit. Anyways it got a rating of 3.0. I then checked out some other new stories and they had low votes, or no votes at all. WHAT THE FUCK? Where is our directioner family? I find this disgusting and annoying that people are rating peoples stories down so their stories can look inferior. I was so angry that I spent 30 minutes at 1am (on a school night) going through the new stories and rating them all a 10.0. So I'm asking all my viewers to try a new story and rate it a 10.0. I'm not saying spend all your time rating them up like I did but at least try rating 1 new story and try making someone's day better :)

Sorry this was so long! I've missed you guys so much and your comments and support mean the world to me <3 I hope you all had a happy valentines day (even though valentines is shit) and I hope your all happy and loving life :)

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