The one nobody loved

Ever since I've gotten braces 132 people have asked me to sign stuff. I have a feeling they were liking the new me. And hey someone has to keep count right. I still dont have a lot like the other guys but I'm trying. I'm looking on twitter at things people say about me. Seeing if maybe they will say what I need to change about my self. I am seeing nothing but hate and now my eyes are watering. I don't think I will ever be able to please these fans. All they wanted was harry in bed. Zayn for fashion advice. Louis to pull pranks on people and Liam to stare at. But oh no Niall wasn't needed for anything. Damn I thought these braces would help. I stand up and go to the living room. I relize I'm crying when zayn looks at me funny. I quickly will away the tears.
" What's wrong mate?" Zayn says.
" Nothing I just.. I don't know." I say. He buys Into it and goes on twitter which was rare to see him do.
" Zayn?" I ask.
" What?" He looks away from his phone.
" How do you get so many fans." I know it probably sounds dumb but I want to feel wanted.
" I don't know Niall. Be yourself that's what I do." He smiles and looks back at his phone. Little does he know being my self wasn't helping at all. maybe... Maybe I needed to act like somebody else.. Be cool look fly. I turn on my phone and look up some clothes. I come across the word mofo on a shirt. I know it's stupid but I really like it. I put it in my cart for me.. For when I'm myself. I keep searching. I need up buying shit to of hats and shirts. I try to get stuff the other boys wear.
I just don't get it. I'm laying in my bed trying to sleep. I groan extremely loud and roll over. I hear someone sneak I to my room.
" What's up? Can't sleep." Liam sits on my bed.
" I think if I could sleep id be doing it." I remark.
" Well sorry grumpy." He stand up to leave.
" No.. I'm sorry it's just you know, the fan thing again." I sigh
" listen.. Niall you will have fans but you just need to wait okay. And having fans isn't all you live for I hope."
" Liam.. It's easier for you to say I mean look at you. He'll look at the four of you. Perfect and have fans. I am Niall and have nothing!" I say.
" That's not true! I see Niall girls everywhere. You are just blind to the ones who do care Niall. Your trying to get every body in the world to beca one a fan of you and I think that's your problem." Liam says.
" So your saying I'm vain? Hold up. I'm not vain and how do you see them everywhere Liam and I don't." I ask.
" Niall come on. You don't notice them because you so strongly believe you have none so you don't notice the ones who do care."
" I'm pretty sure I would notice if I had fans Liam."
" there you go again. Listen you want my help fine. But if I give it to you and you don't take it then don't ask for it." He has a point.
" Listen... I just feel so alone. And you right maybe it is just me." I say looking up to him.
" It's okay Niall.. I just don't want you to try to be a people pleaser. All you need to please is youself."
I can't help it I stand up and hug him. His body is so warm. Sometimes I feel like he truly cares about me. To be honest I sometimes wish the Niam bromance was a real romance. I pull away.
" Thanks." I say.
" Love you Niall." He walks out. It felt good to know someone cared but somethin in me is wanting me to gain more fans and I want to. But maybe Liam's right.. Maybe I'm ignoring the ones who do care.

Notes

Sorry for the long wait but hey at least I did update!;) stay cuteee.