Sweet like sugar

We are sitting cross legged across from eachother on her bed. No one has said anything so I decide to. "Can I please explain myself." "Please do." She replies. "I left in the morning because I was scared. I didn't know what I was feeling. I felt it too. What we did, what we felt, it was the most amazing thing and I have never felt like that before and it scared me. The thought of committing to someone scares me but the thought of wanting to, I guess that scared me more." I started to explain when she interrupts. "Well then why didn't you call, text, anything?"
"Let me finish." I stubbornly say, it suprised her. "I didn't text or anything because I was confused. The same reasons I left. All I did was stay home and watch movies. I had no energy to move. I felt like something was missing, so then one night, the night I saw you, I said to myself; Go out and have fun! You are just over thinking. So I did, I went to the club. I had girls dirty dancing with me and it was just annoying. Usually I would hook right in but to be honest, all I could think of is you. Not any of those girls compared to you." I wanted her to get it threw her head that she is perfect and I never meant to hurt her. "And Sarah...?" She asks. "Sarah came up to me out of no where, grabbed my face and made out with me! It was grosse, I am not going to lie... and that is when you came over. Fuck that took me by suprise, seeing you angry like that kind of turned me on" I giggled but then got back to it. "When you slapped her it was kind of like an instant reaction to see if she was okay, as soon as I looked up you were running off with that seedy guy. It made me panick. I instantly went looking for you both." "Caitlin told me what happened after that." She cut me off. "I care about you more then myself." I said with a tear. It was embaressing but I didn't mind anymore. She made me so emotional.

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