‘’I-I’m sorry! I didn’t mean that, I just. Like I…’’ I tried to stutter out, pulling myself up.

He chuckled softly. ‘’Ah, don’t worry. It’s been a long time I’m dead. And I don’t really miss my living life.’’

What ‘long time’ meant to him? After two years cooperating with the other side, I’ve learn that the lost spirits can’t stay on Earth more than five months. If they do, they are automatically sent down in Had. That’s why I had a couple failures: they found me too late. I decided to ask.

‘’It’s maybe a personal question, but since when are you… dead?’’

He started counting on his fingers. When he raised his fourth finger, I hope he was counting days or weeks and not months. His respond sent a huge shiver running down my spine.

‘’Seven years ago.’’

‘’What? No, no. That... That’s not possible! Lost souls- I mean, dead ones can’t stay more than 5 months on Earth! You’re supposed to be burning in Had!’’ I said, really confused.

Again, he tensed up. He must know why he is still ‘living’ here. I hoped he would explain to me. My hope rose up when he sighed and open his mouth to speak. But two soft knocks interrupted him.

‘’Hon, it’s ready.’’ Granny informed me.

‘’I-I’m coming in a sec!’’ I replied.

I paid attention to every steps of her foot. When I heard she was going down the stairs, I broke the silence.

‘’I need to go. Uh… make yourself comfortable, I guess?’’ I said, wiping away some tears that had dried on my cheeks.

‘’Lucky you. It’s been ages since I taste food. I’m Niall, by the way.’’

I smiled and open the door.

‘’I’m Enda Tierney.’’

‘’Yeah, I know.’’

I stopped moving. How could he know my name? Do I have a reputation along the lost souls?

‘’I-I heard your uh… I think brother? He said your name. That’s why I uh… Know it.’’ He explained, starching the back of his neck.

Besides being full of inexplicable secrets, Niall was a terrible liar. I decided to drop the subject and go back downstairs.

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Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life to heal the broken heart with all that it could
Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

I listened to my alarm playing on shuffle music on my iPod. I always loved this one. It reminded me of my parents. When they died, music was like a savior to me. It was the only thing that wouldn’t judge me and that would kind of understand me, since they were singing my feelings and blah, blah, blah. This track was performed by ‘Avenged Sevenfold’. I entered one time Liam’s room and it was playing on and I just hook at the lyrics.

Thinking about my brother brought the memories of yesterday’s diner. It was bloody awful. Granny tried to ease up the mood, while Liam was really interested by his food and how he could manage to chew faster. I just felt like I was too much for this atmosphere, like the kitchen could easily function without me around.

I spent the rest of the evening locked in the bathroom in the bath. Long baths were moments to think deeply, even if I was always thinking. It just sort of lines up correctly my thoughts and putting sense in it. I mainly thought about Niall and the other lost spirits I encountered. It was the first time I was meeting one that wandered on Earth for seven years. Maybe he wasn’t the only one. When he said he already knew my name, it made sense at the end: the lost souls can maybe talk to each other and my name had probably dropped in a conversation or two. Or maybe I wasn’t the only one after all with that glitch of my mind. But I still got stuck on how he explained it: he was hiding something. I hadn’t saw Niall after diner, and I was glad to. Yesterday events hadn’t put me in a great mood.

…Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

I shut down my alarm when I heard the first notes of the guitar solo. Yes, even though we were starting winter break, I still had my alarm on. I’m not able to sleep past 7 am. I checked my phone if I had a text of someone. Well, the only contact I have is Zayn and Liam...

Don’t forget tomorrow it’s Saturday! I think we’re at the fifth episode or something. We’ll check that out, and it’s at mine now! :)

I smiled: Zayn and I, at every Saturday night, we listened together at TV series. We’ve passed through ‘Six Feet Underground’, ‘The X Field’, ‘Fireflies’ and we were now at ‘The Walking Dead’. Need to say it’s pretty gross. The zombies are… are too much zombies, if it’s possible. They really did a good job on that. I tapped an answer:

I’ll past earlier than usual: I’m avoiding Liam.

I locked my phone and stretched myself. I rubbed my eyes and got up.

‘’Good morning.’’

Notes

Ta daaaaa :D

Well well well, Niall was the name of this... special lost soul ;)

He's full of secrets. What kind of secrets? Weird, Enda said lost spirit can only stay of an amount of 5 months on Earth, or they are sent automatically to Had. Niall's been wandering on Earth for 7 years. And he was a bit nervous around Enda.

Why?

heheheheh you will know further in the story :3