It's hard to love you

I havnt talked to harry ever since we went for a ride in the car and it turned into a sex in the car kind of thing. I wanted to puke thinking of it honestly. I told Louis today and he seems really mad. I still had feeling for Louis and the more I was with him the more stronger they became. Today it's just me and Louis at my house. He invited the other boys but they went out of town for " gang " business.
" Hey I'm glad you told me about harry." Louis says sitting down on the couch next to me.
" Yeah.. I just don't understand." I say.
" He is like that. He told me he liked you but I didn't think he really ment it because he says that about a lot of girls.. I should have known with you he ment it though." Louis sets his water down and faces me.
" Why?" I ask looking into his eyes then sat his lips. he doesn't say another word he just gives me a kiss. It was warm and sweet.
" what was that for." I ask.
" I don't know it just felt right." He says.
" It just felt right.. Well okay." I retort.
" No.. Brandy no you are beautiful okay.. I've just never have felt this way.. You know." I'm a little confused by what he means. I think he liked me. I just nod my head and cuddle closer to him.
" do you like me." Louis says pulling out his phone. That was a random question.
" Yes." Is all I say afraid of what he will say next.
" I think I like you too." My heart races a little. Things were going how I wanted them to. He puts his phone back down.
" Can I kiss you again?" He says. With all honesty I never really had another guy like me before so I was a little shocked.
" Hmm hmm." I what I say. Well hum. He leans in for another kiss and I take him in. I loved this feeling.
his lips were warm and plump. I just couldn't get enough. Then I feel his hands travel up my shirt. My face turns red, and my heart races. I've never had a guy touch me... Well except for harry but that was different. I've never had sex before is what I mean. His hands are still going up and I stop him.
" Wait.. I like you okay but.. I just can't."I say.
" Please it will be fine." He says nudging closer to me.
" No. Okay I ca-" I'm interrupted by a knock on my door. I am about to get it but Louis stands up and walks over. He opens it up and steps outside. I look out the window but I can't make out who it is. I hear them talking.
" Did you close it?" I hear a voice say.
" So you thought you would walk In on us doing it!" Louis laughs out.
" Come on man it's not going to happen! I'm not paying you fifty dollars for so e stupid shit bet.. I mean I think I really like her.. Like foreal." The voice says. I think it's harry. And what bet?
" If it her saying she liked me so I hope you get your fifty bucks ready. But hey I got to go make my money." I hear Louis say. What the fuck! They made a bet on who could pop my cherry first! And I thought I loved Louis. I am just a stupid girl is what. God I'm so dumb. I feel tears being brought to my eyes. Louis walks back In.
" What's-"
" get out! Your going to have to make you money elsewhere you dick! I'm not sleeping with either of you!" I shout.
" No it's..." He stops knowing there is no way to change this one up.
" I trusted you Louis.. I actually liked you and I thought.. I thought we could've be something but now this." I scream. " just get out." I stand up and hold the door open. He walks out and I slam it shut. I should have saw this coming they were both in a gang and they both are fuckheads! I regret ever feeling anything for Louis.

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