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Hello my beautiful, amazing, readers :) how are you? Sorry it's been taking me soooo long to update but I think I should update you guys on why I haven't updated.

Once Mother's Day came, it reminded me of my grandmothers passing which was just not too long ago before I came onto this website which was around late august of 2013. I haven't gotten over her passing at all so I was out of it. My mom wasn't here with me. I was having family & friend drama & my grandma who was the glue to my life was no longer here to help pick up my pieces. So I relapsed. I began to cut deeper than I did just to feel the pain go away. Just for a little. See, cutting use to numb my pain for a few moments. But that time when I cut, it didn't. The pain was still there. With every cut that got deeper, it didn't help at all. So I did it again. I swallowed some sleeping pills. I just wanted the pain to end. I didn't want to leave, I wanted to end the pain. That's all. Yes, I locked the door that time but idk.. But somehow my father got in when he said he was going to be gone for hours to take his girlfriend out to dinner. Maybe it was a coincidence? Idk. I'm just trying to get mentally & physically stable & back on my feet. I'm scared that this time their going to send me to a mental institution (which look very bad from the movies I've seen) but idk. Maybe they'll give me another warning like last time. I'm still very sad but when I get on this website, I smile just seeing all the love I get from all of you beautiful people:)

I have not forgotten about you guys & I'm so sorry leaving you guys for 25 days without any updates to the story or about me. I hope you guys forgive me :) I'll hopefully update this weekend because I'm beginning to the write the chapter now.

Notes

Depression & self harm isn't a joke. If anyone of you feel tyhe need to vent, I'm always here. No judging :) don't be shy because it always helps letting your problems out. But thefunny thing is that I was reading a qoute & it said "you are always the one to give advice & help other people but no one is there to help you" & "you tell people not to kill themselves but your debating on weather you should take your own life" those weren't the exact but something like it.

I hope everyone is doing well & message me. Even if you just want to talk about your favorite color. Lol :)