In the darkness ***ON HOLD***

As i walked into nandos i couldnt see anyone but zayn.
"Hello Zayneeeeeee" I hugged him.
Hes like the brother i never had.
"Hey Lilly. The guys went to pick up the girls while Harry had to talk to Niall about something." He winked and i laughed.
"So why didnt you go pick up Perrie?" I asked confused. Last week Zayn proposed to Perrie, it was so cute!
"Shes with Danielle so she told me to just meet her here." The the waiter borought us food...um i didnt order?
"Hope you dont mind i orderd, afterall you are practically my sister i know you well"
"Thankyou."

Zayn got a text from the lads saying that they will be at least 20 minoutes.

The sleves from my jumper kept falling upwards as i lifter my arm.
At one point i lifted my arm and my sleeves fell down revealing my cuts, just as zayn looked over me. Even if he did see something he didnt say a word.
I dont think i can eat anymore, the butterflies in my stomache kept appearing, i felt nauseus. I was scared, what if Zayn tells Niall and he will leave me? I cant live with out him, i love him.

As soon as everyone else came and sat down the waiter came over and they orderd.
Niall was the first, so when he finished Zayn spoke to him.
"Mate can we talk for a second? alone?
"course" he pecked my lip and went over to Zayn.
I know what this is about.

Nialls POV.

"Mate,i need to tell you something bad about Lilly." I started to panic , is my princess cheating on me? at that thought my heart was ripped out of my chest, no she wouldnt do that, she know i love her, and she loves me, theirs no need to doubt her.
"When we were eating, Lillt lifted her arm and her sleves fell down, Her whole arm up to her elbows was coverd in cuts, they were really deep and fresh."
I felt like my whole world fell apart, how could she do this to herself? is it my fault? How could i not notice she was hurting? its all my fault!
"Thanks for telling me mate" I couldnt even smile.
"Its alright"
Then we went back to the tsble and our food was there.

Lillys POV.

When he came back he was so distant. He ate his food in silent, not even one small sound.
When he was done he turned to me,
"Can we go, im not feeling well?" I nooded and we went. I know what will happend at home. I know he knows.

The entire 10 minoute walk was silent. Supprisingly no fans or paparazzi came up to us.

As soon as we enterd the house he threw his keys onto the sofa, came up to me and pulled my sleve up
"Whats this?"

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