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Living in the clouds - Niall Horan love story.

Chapter 11♥

***Peach POV***
For the past two weeks i stayed at the boys house.
Liam decided he needs to keep an eye on me.
I think deep down he knows i self harm.
I just really dont want him to see it.

I hardly ever come out of the room.
This might sounds weird but im scared, everythign i do i just keep seing that scene over and over again.
I would never admit it to the guys, they just think i dont feel well.
Although Zayn has his susspisions, i heard him talk about it the other day.

I have my own room, i didnt bother to make it nice or anything.
I just dont see the point.
The boys try to get me to spend more time with them, but i try to get out of it.
I just sit by the window sill, look out at the world.

Everyone looks so peacefull. Like nothing changed.
I realised, the world dosnt stop for your problems, you have to move on.
But how do i move on from this?

Lately Niall showed me a recording of Megan paying some guy to rape me.
Niall didnt do it.
That means he does care about me.
But i am getting mixed feelings about this.
I dont know if i should go for it.

I do like him, well i more than like him.
Ive never felt this way about anyone before, i always want to spend time with him,
everything he does makes my heart veat fast, sometimes i fear it may rip out of my chest.
He makes me love myself.
My eating disorder, self harming, the bullying all my other problems dont matter when hes there.
I love the real him, not the famous side.

On the other hand im extremly scared.
What if i mess it up? Then he wont like me anymore.
Im scared to come clean about everything, what if he thinks im doing this for attention?

Sometimes i dont feel ready for a relationship. Other times i just want to jump on him and kiss him.
I know i cant keep hiding forever. But im gonna try.

"Peach, can i talk to you?" Niall comes into my room, his voice is low and serious, like his fecial ecpression.
I dont trust myself to talk, as i know im gonna start blurting this out.
So i simply nod.

He gives me a weak smile before walking over to my bed and stiiing down, patting the pot next to him signling me to sit down next to him.
"I know for the past couple months ive been horrible to you" When he says that, all the memories hit me hard like miley cyrus on a wrecking ball. I dont want to start crying, so i just nod and put my head down.
"I want you to know, when i first saw you, you were beautiful, you are beautiful. I was scared you wouldnt like me. I mean most girls dont." Wow self pity overload! although i have seen the hate he gets in twitter, and i makes me sick! Somehow him hurting makes me hurt.
"Well i know it sounds stupid, but i though by being an arse to you, youd be attracted to me more. You know the bad boy image and all that. It works for Zayn and Harry." Oh god, he could have just talked to me! i Felt, I feel the same!
"Niall I-" I started to say, while shaking my head but he cut me short.
"No let me finish, you need to hear this" I simply nooded and let him get on.
"By the time I realised i was hurting you, i was too far in, i couldnt stop. It was like a drug. I know its a lame excuse and it will take time to forgive me, but please give me a chance. I really like you. I promise to treat you like a princess." He looked deep into my eyes.

I started laughing and he gave me a weird look.
"Niall, for the past two weeks i tried to hate you, but then i realised im in love with you. Ive already forgiven you. Now you need to forgive yourself"
When he heard this, he quickly hugged me.

"Peach, will you do the honour of being my girlfriend" His blue eyes, once again sparkling.
I nooded, "Of corse i will" Thenj he kissed me. It was magical!

Outside we heard a chourous of claps and "Well done mate!" We laughed as Harry came in.
"You better not hurt her, or Ill hurt you" He said with a serious expression on his face.
"Dont worry i wont"