Those Blue Eyes
So I Hear You Like The Black Keys?
As I peeled my eyes open slowly, I couldn't help but groan and turn over lazily on my stomach shoving my head into a pillow. I truly didn't want to get up today..well..I rarely never want to get up. I'm just like that. A girl who wastes her time getting up early in the morning just so she can take around 30 minutes to just find what she wants to wear. 15 minutes to eat breakfast, around an hour to get her makeup done, and just about 20 minutes looking at herself in the mirror making sure she looks perfect. I'm definitely not that type of girl.
The only times it takes me that long is if it's a school dance, or going to a teen club, maybe even a date sometimes. Though who would like me, I'm no perfect brunette with all good grades or a smart brain, or even pretty. I actually get told a lot and get the looks of as if I should just die. Maybe someday I'll make it to where I can actually comprehend on killing myself and not have to catch my breath and say no. Truly the world would be much better without me. I have no special talents, no good grades, I get introuble mostly all the time, who want a crazy freak like me; no one.
Now again I have a hard time being school and just glaring at a couple and thinking how cute they are together. I linger for someone (mainly a boy with blonde shaggy hair, and bright blue eyes) to hold me in their strong arms, hold me till I fall asleep, kiss my forehead and cheek over and over. Probably sneek a light kiss to my lips. When I'm down and dont want anyone near me, they'd come over and hug me tight and say, "No, I know your not alright, thats why I've come to keep you company, maybe we can even talk about whats also bothering you." That kind of sweet centered guy.
Okay, okay, I'll shut up now. Its useless for me to just talk about that crap, when it'll never happen, but I do have a few tiny bit more things to talk about. So just grab a bowl of popcorna blanket, listen to what I have to indure everyday of my life. That makes me feel unintentionally angry, sad, depressed, stressed maybe even a little suicidal.
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"Freak, Slut, Self-Harmer, Emo girl, Just die already!!" I sighed as I read the new little post it note that was slipped into my locker by yet again, my main bully; Christa Evans. Christa Evans talks all this stupid crap about me all the time. How her and I "used" to be friends, but then one evening I somehow betrayed her by making out with her boyfriend. The funny thing is I dont even remember that bull, thats because we WERE never friends. She's bullied me her whole life and thinks the more she ruins my life, the better her life will get. Let the lord shine down and give her some great advise once in awhile, but the lord just seems as if he doesnt want to if Im still in this hell.
I'll have to kill myself before I get out of this hell. Literally!
I rolled my eyes and flopped myself down on a soft comfy seat flicking the power button on my Ipad. I logged into my only social networking site I'm allowed to have; Kidzworld. Now your probably thinking and laughing at me. Why the fluff are you going on a network for kids!!?? Darlings' 9-18 year olds sign up for this website, not just me. And I'm only 18-years-old about to turn 19.
I was a little migit for a kid when I was younger. Got into the same kind of trouble I still get into now. Except I dont do what I did back then to get into trouble. When I got angry I yanked my siblings hair and screeched in their faces. Or when I was sad I'd cry non-stop until someone gave me a lolipop! Lolipops...Lolipops...oh how I wish I had a lolipop right now.......SHIZ! IM GOING OFF SUBJECT NOW AINT I!!?? Anywho, where was I, oh yeah, me as a child. But my parents couldn't take of me all the time, I went over to my grandparents a lot. There was some...uhh....-cough cough- problems one of my siblings had...and It was so bad...thats why Im not supposed to talk about it...because I would get into trouble...
Umm alright I guess that's enough to tell you for now, but I do have this one question? When you get a friend request from a boy with blonde hair and blue eyes, and then they message you and see you like the Black Keys..is it possible to already be falling for him..??
The only times it takes me that long is if it's a school dance, or going to a teen club, maybe even a date sometimes. Though who would like me, I'm no perfect brunette with all good grades or a smart brain, or even pretty. I actually get told a lot and get the looks of as if I should just die. Maybe someday I'll make it to where I can actually comprehend on killing myself and not have to catch my breath and say no. Truly the world would be much better without me. I have no special talents, no good grades, I get introuble mostly all the time, who want a crazy freak like me; no one.
Now again I have a hard time being school and just glaring at a couple and thinking how cute they are together. I linger for someone (mainly a boy with blonde shaggy hair, and bright blue eyes) to hold me in their strong arms, hold me till I fall asleep, kiss my forehead and cheek over and over. Probably sneek a light kiss to my lips. When I'm down and dont want anyone near me, they'd come over and hug me tight and say, "No, I know your not alright, thats why I've come to keep you company, maybe we can even talk about whats also bothering you." That kind of sweet centered guy.
Okay, okay, I'll shut up now. Its useless for me to just talk about that crap, when it'll never happen, but I do have a few tiny bit more things to talk about. So just grab a bowl of popcorna blanket, listen to what I have to indure everyday of my life. That makes me feel unintentionally angry, sad, depressed, stressed maybe even a little suicidal.
~~~~~~~~~
"Freak, Slut, Self-Harmer, Emo girl, Just die already!!" I sighed as I read the new little post it note that was slipped into my locker by yet again, my main bully; Christa Evans. Christa Evans talks all this stupid crap about me all the time. How her and I "used" to be friends, but then one evening I somehow betrayed her by making out with her boyfriend. The funny thing is I dont even remember that bull, thats because we WERE never friends. She's bullied me her whole life and thinks the more she ruins my life, the better her life will get. Let the lord shine down and give her some great advise once in awhile, but the lord just seems as if he doesnt want to if Im still in this hell.
I'll have to kill myself before I get out of this hell. Literally!
I rolled my eyes and flopped myself down on a soft comfy seat flicking the power button on my Ipad. I logged into my only social networking site I'm allowed to have; Kidzworld. Now your probably thinking and laughing at me. Why the fluff are you going on a network for kids!!?? Darlings' 9-18 year olds sign up for this website, not just me. And I'm only 18-years-old about to turn 19.
I was a little migit for a kid when I was younger. Got into the same kind of trouble I still get into now. Except I dont do what I did back then to get into trouble. When I got angry I yanked my siblings hair and screeched in their faces. Or when I was sad I'd cry non-stop until someone gave me a lolipop! Lolipops...Lolipops...oh how I wish I had a lolipop right now.......SHIZ! IM GOING OFF SUBJECT NOW AINT I!!?? Anywho, where was I, oh yeah, me as a child. But my parents couldn't take of me all the time, I went over to my grandparents a lot. There was some...uhh....-cough cough- problems one of my siblings had...and It was so bad...thats why Im not supposed to talk about it...because I would get into trouble...
Umm alright I guess that's enough to tell you for now, but I do have this one question? When you get a friend request from a boy with blonde hair and blue eyes, and then they message you and see you like the Black Keys..is it possible to already be falling for him..??
Notes
HIYA!!! DID YOU SEE I KINDAA LEFT A CLIF HANGER!! BUT I DONT KNOW!!
ANYWHO I WANT 5 VOTES AND 5 SUBSCRIBERS BEFORE I GIVE THE NEXT CHAPTER!!! IF I DONT THEN IT'LL BE AWHILE BEFORE I WRITE THE SECOND CHAPTER AGAIN!!
I LOVE YOU, I HOPED YOU LIKED IT AND TOODDLESSSS!!! NOO PIZZA!!
@Makenzie Horan
THANK YOU
12/15/13