Never In a Million Years (Zayn Malik)
chapter 40
i need to get away from him.
right now.
how can he think like that about me?
it's not his first time though.
maybe that's what every one else thinks too.
maybe to everyone else i'm a a slut.
then maybe i should become one.
i can't change what their thinking so maybe it'll hurt less when it's true.
but what they say it's not true.
at least not now.
then why am i crying?
i'm not weak!
but i don't think i'm crying because of what others think.
i'm crying because of what he thinks.
but he's not worth it anymore.
i looked at myself in the elevator's mirror.since i wasn't wearing any makeup my face wasn't really bad.but my eyes were puffy and red.
i wiped away my tears and told myself to calm down and stop crying.
and thankfully i stopped.
the elevator doors opened and i got out.i wanted to run out of the building or maybe call someone to pick me up but running out looking like this won't be a good idea.i looked around and spotted the building's Bathroom.i went in and it was surprisingly a clean one.
i washed my face again and dried my hands and face with some of the paper towels.after i was done i looked decent.i got out of the bathroom.the elevator was at the ninth floor and it was coming down.meaning zayn was coming down.
meaning i have to go.
i walked towards the door and jones opened it for me.i nodded my head in appreciation and he smiled at me.when i got out i figured i have no idea where i am.
i really need to pay attention to roads more.
i decided to go to the left since we came from that direction.
i started walking and then realization hit me.i don't have a phone.so how the hell am i gonna get out of here.
maybe i can get a cab or something.
it was really cold and since i was wearing a dress i was freezing.i hugged myself to get myself warmer but it was no use.
suddenly i saw this car slow down next to me.there was 2 guys in it.they honked their horn form me.i ignored them and kept on walking.
one of them said:
"oh come on,get in and we can have some fun babe!"
i flinched at the thought.i kept walking.the other one said:
"it's really cold you know,we can make you warm,really warm."
after that they both laughed.i was disgusted with them.but then i thought of something.
what if i do it with them.i mean i'm freakin 18.since everyone else seems to think i'm a slut,might as well be one.
i stopped and turned to look at them.
2 guys,around 25-27.one blonde the other one dark brown hair.
the brown hair guy smirked when i stopped and said:
"come on now,i promise we'll try to be good"
but then i was snapped back to reality,i felt disgusted with myself for even thinking like that.this was all because of him!i blame it all on him!
just as i was about to turn and walk away,i heard someone yell:
"get the fuck away from her!"
i turned to see zayn running towards here.i saw the blonde one saying something to the brown haired guy and they drove of.
how brave.
i turned around and kept on walking without even looking at zayn,but since he was running he caught up to me and grabbed my arm not so gently.
i yanked it out of his hand and i could see he was angry and was having a hard time controlling his rage,he said through greeted teeth:
"Annabelle,get back to my apartment right now"
"Leave me the fuck alone"
i tried walking away once again but he grabbed my arm once again and said:
"don't be so difficult!"
"i told you we're done!i don't want to see you ever again!leave me alone!"
i was using everyone i had in me to not cry in front of him.but i have to admit it was really hard.he said:
"i'm sorry ok!i shouldn't have thought like that now get the fuck back,it's not safe in here!"
"do you seriously expect me to forgive you just like that!after you called me all those things!after how you treated me!"
"no annabelle i don't expect you to!but i can't stand the idea of you being here at night all alone!so get back in!"
"oh please tell me why zayn?afraid i would go home with some one else like those guys you just yelled at!i mean you should since you think i'm a slut,i mean that's what sluts do don't they!?actually i was thinking about going home with them,maybe they would make me feel good,just like they were saying,after all i am a slut!!"
he was looking at me with so much anger i was scared he would hit me.but right now i decided i would keep my ground.i continued even though i knew it was a bad decision:
"i mean after all,that's what every one else it thinking right?and since i just broke up with my boyfriend,maybe i should find a random guy and let him do what ever he likes to me.you know what,that's exactly what i'm gonna do,i'll find a guy and just give it all to him."
i crossed the line.
maybe i should've taken him seriously when he said he doesn't like to share.
i will from now on after what he did.
just as i stopped talking,he grabbed me by my shoulders and slammed me in to the wall behind me.i grunted at the sudden impact.then he leaned down so his face was right in front of me,then he started saying with a low and rage filled voice:
"you will never do that,ever.if i ever hear you even went near anyone else i swear to god i will make you regret it.your mine now and it'll stay that way until i tell you so.did i make myself clear?"
i know i should tell him your not the boss of me and i'm not your property.but i couldn't.i was...actually scared from him.so i nodded my head slowly.i wasn't going to go near any one else anyway.it was all too make him angry and it worked.much more than i thought it would.
he said:
"good."
he grabbed my wrist and started walking back the way we came.i wanted to protest against it but i could tell he was angry,like really angry. so i didn't say anything to him.i still hadn't forgiven him though.it would cost him a lot of deal if he want's me to forgive him.but i know what ever i do, right now he would get what he want's.and right now that's getting me back in his apartment.so that means he would carry me if he has too.it's not like he hasn't done it before.
Jones opened the door for us one more time and was confused and looked cautious when he saw zayn,i guess he noticed zayn's anger too.but i guess it wasn't really hard to miss it since it was radiating from him.
jones looked at me with a worried look.i guess he was worried about me.how kind of him.
i just smiled at him reassuringly.zayn would never hurt me.
right?
would he?
i just hope he wouldn't.
right now.
how can he think like that about me?
it's not his first time though.
maybe that's what every one else thinks too.
maybe to everyone else i'm a a slut.
then maybe i should become one.
i can't change what their thinking so maybe it'll hurt less when it's true.
but what they say it's not true.
at least not now.
then why am i crying?
i'm not weak!
but i don't think i'm crying because of what others think.
i'm crying because of what he thinks.
but he's not worth it anymore.
i looked at myself in the elevator's mirror.since i wasn't wearing any makeup my face wasn't really bad.but my eyes were puffy and red.
i wiped away my tears and told myself to calm down and stop crying.
and thankfully i stopped.
the elevator doors opened and i got out.i wanted to run out of the building or maybe call someone to pick me up but running out looking like this won't be a good idea.i looked around and spotted the building's Bathroom.i went in and it was surprisingly a clean one.
i washed my face again and dried my hands and face with some of the paper towels.after i was done i looked decent.i got out of the bathroom.the elevator was at the ninth floor and it was coming down.meaning zayn was coming down.
meaning i have to go.
i walked towards the door and jones opened it for me.i nodded my head in appreciation and he smiled at me.when i got out i figured i have no idea where i am.
i really need to pay attention to roads more.
i decided to go to the left since we came from that direction.
i started walking and then realization hit me.i don't have a phone.so how the hell am i gonna get out of here.
maybe i can get a cab or something.
it was really cold and since i was wearing a dress i was freezing.i hugged myself to get myself warmer but it was no use.
suddenly i saw this car slow down next to me.there was 2 guys in it.they honked their horn form me.i ignored them and kept on walking.
one of them said:
"oh come on,get in and we can have some fun babe!"
i flinched at the thought.i kept walking.the other one said:
"it's really cold you know,we can make you warm,really warm."
after that they both laughed.i was disgusted with them.but then i thought of something.
what if i do it with them.i mean i'm freakin 18.since everyone else seems to think i'm a slut,might as well be one.
i stopped and turned to look at them.
2 guys,around 25-27.one blonde the other one dark brown hair.
the brown hair guy smirked when i stopped and said:
"come on now,i promise we'll try to be good"
but then i was snapped back to reality,i felt disgusted with myself for even thinking like that.this was all because of him!i blame it all on him!
just as i was about to turn and walk away,i heard someone yell:
"get the fuck away from her!"
i turned to see zayn running towards here.i saw the blonde one saying something to the brown haired guy and they drove of.
how brave.
i turned around and kept on walking without even looking at zayn,but since he was running he caught up to me and grabbed my arm not so gently.
i yanked it out of his hand and i could see he was angry and was having a hard time controlling his rage,he said through greeted teeth:
"Annabelle,get back to my apartment right now"
"Leave me the fuck alone"
i tried walking away once again but he grabbed my arm once again and said:
"don't be so difficult!"
"i told you we're done!i don't want to see you ever again!leave me alone!"
i was using everyone i had in me to not cry in front of him.but i have to admit it was really hard.he said:
"i'm sorry ok!i shouldn't have thought like that now get the fuck back,it's not safe in here!"
"do you seriously expect me to forgive you just like that!after you called me all those things!after how you treated me!"
"no annabelle i don't expect you to!but i can't stand the idea of you being here at night all alone!so get back in!"
"oh please tell me why zayn?afraid i would go home with some one else like those guys you just yelled at!i mean you should since you think i'm a slut,i mean that's what sluts do don't they!?actually i was thinking about going home with them,maybe they would make me feel good,just like they were saying,after all i am a slut!!"
he was looking at me with so much anger i was scared he would hit me.but right now i decided i would keep my ground.i continued even though i knew it was a bad decision:
"i mean after all,that's what every one else it thinking right?and since i just broke up with my boyfriend,maybe i should find a random guy and let him do what ever he likes to me.you know what,that's exactly what i'm gonna do,i'll find a guy and just give it all to him."
i crossed the line.
maybe i should've taken him seriously when he said he doesn't like to share.
i will from now on after what he did.
just as i stopped talking,he grabbed me by my shoulders and slammed me in to the wall behind me.i grunted at the sudden impact.then he leaned down so his face was right in front of me,then he started saying with a low and rage filled voice:
"you will never do that,ever.if i ever hear you even went near anyone else i swear to god i will make you regret it.your mine now and it'll stay that way until i tell you so.did i make myself clear?"
i know i should tell him your not the boss of me and i'm not your property.but i couldn't.i was...actually scared from him.so i nodded my head slowly.i wasn't going to go near any one else anyway.it was all too make him angry and it worked.much more than i thought it would.
he said:
"good."
he grabbed my wrist and started walking back the way we came.i wanted to protest against it but i could tell he was angry,like really angry. so i didn't say anything to him.i still hadn't forgiven him though.it would cost him a lot of deal if he want's me to forgive him.but i know what ever i do, right now he would get what he want's.and right now that's getting me back in his apartment.so that means he would carry me if he has too.it's not like he hasn't done it before.
Jones opened the door for us one more time and was confused and looked cautious when he saw zayn,i guess he noticed zayn's anger too.but i guess it wasn't really hard to miss it since it was radiating from him.
jones looked at me with a worried look.i guess he was worried about me.how kind of him.
i just smiled at him reassuringly.zayn would never hurt me.
right?
would he?
i just hope he wouldn't.
Notes
please don't kill me.because something tell's me some of you would since i'm leaving you with a lot of cliffhanger's.
theres a slight chance i'll update again in a few hours.if i finish my math homework soon.
but then again i have to make candles for one of my classes and i have to memorize a whole bunch of stuff because unfortunately i have to present something in english to some people.i also have other homework's too so....i guess i won't update tonight.
:( sorry,but i'll try.
tell me what you think :) i have to say i updated because of your comment's,so thank you people:
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this is such a good story ! :D i love itt! pls write the next kinda chapter soon! PLS PLS write a second one!! xxxx
4/19/14