Never In a Million Years (Zayn Malik)

Everything was moving so fast,i may not have blew the candles but no one even noticed they all cheered and Matt hugged me again.but i couldn't understand what was going on around me,why did he look at me with so much hate.
only thinking about that look,it gives me this feeling,you know the one where you feel like theres something in your throat and you want to throw up but you cant,you feel like your heart is being squashed and your afraid of something even though you have no idea what it is.the feeling where you feel like you can faint any moment,where you can cry if someone even said your name,where you want to run in to a closed room with only yourself and sit in a small corner and just cry.what did i do to deserve that much hate.?!
i know your thinking,what a spoiled little girl.acting like the world is about to end when only her 1 week old boyfriend gave her a mean stare.
and i don't blame you,i probably would myself,but you weren't on the receiving end of the hateful disgusted look,i never knew even someone could look with all that....all that...Despise and venom.
i was standing there looking probably like a lunatic staring at that one spot on the door which about 10 seconds a go zayn walked out of,when i felt a hand grab my wrist and drag me somewhere.Half of me was yelling at me to Run,to chase after him and ask him what the matter,but the other half was still comprehending what the fuck just happened.
i could hear someone calling my name but it was so distant,i needed to find him,like right now.
i need to see zayn
with that it was just like everything clicked,i looked up to see Avin's and Liyha's worried gazes on me,i mumbled:
"i need to find him"
Avin asked:
"what?are you ok Anne,do you need to go home?"
i mumbled louder:
"i need to find him"
with that i ran.
i didn't care where i just needed to find him,i pushed whatever body would come in front of me but i couldn't care less,everyone here were drunk.
i ran to the door zayn disappeared from,i looked to my left which if i remember correctly was the way Zayn turned before leaving my sight,it was the door to outside,some people were congratulating me on my birthday,i excused myself and ran outside,i looked around i didn't see him anywhere.
i ran in to the street and looked to my left then to my right.if i wasn't paying attention i probably wouldn't have seen him,just as i looked to my right,i saw someone turn to the left at the end of the street.that was defiantly zayn.who else could it be?
i started running again,but i fell down due to my stupid shoes.i could feel both of my knees skin burning meaning i just either bruised them really bad or they were bleeding.i took off my shoes and stood up not giving up this soon.i ran again and finally reached where i saw him last.
my feet were burning now too.meaning i'm really lucky if my wound's won't get anything which i doubt because i'm still walking on them on the middle of the street.
i't was defiantly him.i could tell by the way he walked.his height and his hoody which i remember from the day i met him in the kitchen.
i yelled:
"Zayn!"
he didn't turn around.is he ignoring me?
i ran again but i couldn't catch up to him.my feet were killing me.i yelled again:
"Zayn!! Please!!!"
still nothing.there was this old lady coming from the opposite way.she looked at me and gasped while putting her hand on her mouth.i looked at myself and i gasped too.
My knees bleeding,my hair was a mess and i was panting really hard.i can only imagine how my face looked like because i was crying.my dress was torn in several places and i notices a scratch on my elbow.it wasn't much and i'm sure nothing serious but still it's not how a normal person would look.
it's nothing i can't handle.i ran again and yelled again :
"Zayn please!!! Stop!! Zayn I'm sorr..."
i never got to finish my sentence because just to my luck i tripped on my own feet and fell down again.god i'm such a klutz.
I heard The old lady say something loudly but i couldn't understand what,i just started crying worst.
what the hell is wrong with me?why am i doing this?i mean i just made my knee bleed for him and he wont even bother to answer me?
i looked up to only see the lady saying somethings and running towards me.only then Zayn turned around.i looked in to his face.when he saw me his eyes widened.and i noticed his earplugs,so thats why he wasn't answering me.the lady said:
"oh my dear,are you alright?do i need to call an ambulance?"
i shook my head.Zayn then ran towards me and kneeled next to me,he looked worried and angry.i couldn't answer them.my head hurt and my knees hurt really badly.
suddenly a voice in my head said. Look at you Annabelle,so pathetic.making a fool out of yourself for a boy!
i wanted to ignore it but it was there again. you just ran in the street barefoot,and your bleeding because of a boy!what has happened to you?!
then i figured the voice was right.zayn wan't worth my time!i can't believe i made myself look so weak for him!what is wrong with me?!
Zayn grabbed my face and made me look him he said rather harshly:
"what the hell is wrong with you Annabelle!?!look at you!are you ok!"
Peachy
i wanted to snap at him but the old lady said:
"you can solve your problems later right now just take her away,and take care of her!her wounds need to be cleaned!"
i couldn't say anything,but zayn said:
"can you stand up?"
i nodded my head and pushed him away,i'm not making a fool out of myself again.
he looked hurt but then angry at me pushing him away.he said:
"just let me fucking help you if you don't want to land on your face again!"
i grabbed the old lady's hand and ignored zayn,she looked at me with saddened eyes and she helped me she said:
"i'm sorry dear i would like to help you but i can't,i'm not strong enough"
i nodded my head but didn't even go near zayn,i mumbled:
"i-i'll d-do it my-myself"
but as soon as i let go of the old lady my knees became week and i made myself ready to hit the asphalt.but i never did.
i felt hands around my waist and i also heard zayn mumble:
"why do you have to be so fucking stubborn and difficult"
i ignored him again.the lady said:
"she's bleeding and she needs to rest,take her home,give her a bath and let her sleep.her wounds aren't serious but they defiantly need to be cleaned fast."
she continued:
"i know because i used to be a nurse,now hurry"
zayn said:
"thank you"
he then looked at me and said:
"can you walk?"
i gave him a look saying are-you-fucking-kidding-me?
the lady also said:
"what?!where you blind 10 seconds a go when she tried to stand by herself and nearly passed out and your asking her if she can walk?!!"
Zayn said:
"well i had to ask"
he then grabbed behind my knees with one hand and secured my back with the other and picked me up,i yelped clearly not expecting him to pick me up like this.the lady said:
"you better be careful with her young man!"
Zayn said:
"i'll try"
and started walking.he then looked at my face and scowled.i looked down.he said:
"where should i get you to?the party?your home?my home?"
i shook my head at all of them.
The party?DEFIANTLY NOT!!
My house NO WAY
His house NEVER
if anyone sees me like this,i'm screwed.but not only me,zayn too.he's a celebrity for god's sake do you know how will people react when they see him with a girl who's knees are bleeding and looks like she's about to pass out!
he said:
"well where do you expect me to take you too? "
i shrugged my shoulders.he stopped for a moment and then he said:
"i can take you somewhere else but i need to take my car,it's not close and i cant carry you there,not that i'm complaining but there is going to be people on the way,my car is back at the party,can you wait until i get it?"
i nodded my head and he went towards the bench next to us,he sat me down on the bench and said:
"i'll be back,you better not move"
i only nodded my head,i can't move even if i wanted too.
he then was gone.after what felt like forever which truly was about 5 minutes i saw his car coming up or should i say his fathers,well whatever.
he got out and picked me up again then he sat me down in the passenger seat.
he got in himself.the hurt in my knees were less but they still burned.
he started driving again.after a while i noticed him looking at me once in a while,finally i said:
"what?"
"nothing,only that you look like a fucking mess and your bleeding"
i rolled my eyes really not in the mood to say anything,clearly he didn't get the memo when he said:
"what the fuck were you thinking?"
wow someone is really using the F word a lot tonight.
i didn't answer him.because i knew we were going to fight.he snapped:
"answer me"
i didn't say anything.which only got him more irritated.he said:
"Are you kidding me!Don't you fucking ignore me!!"
"i'm not ignoring you"
"then answer me "
"about what?"
"i don't know?maybe you care to explain why were you running down the street with no shoes on and crying your eyes out?"
ok ,he did not just say that.
"why was I running down the street crying my eyes out?!! Let me see?"
i pretended to think and then i said:
"maybe because someone came in to my Birthday party on my birth day and Looked at me like i attempted Murder and then left looking at me with disgust!"
"maybe that someone wouldn't have done that if You wouldn't go around Fucking someone else behind their back!"

Notes

sorry if it's bad but you really have to wait to see what i have in store for you!!things are gonna be.....woooooo...
i have to say major fight coming up....
what the fuck is zayn talking about?
anyone else knows?
well i guess you have to wait till the next chappy!!and sorry if it's bad i wanted to update for my beloved reader fast!!!
Love
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Anoosha