Starting Fresh

"Why?" Niall asked looking scared.
"she called me an emo kid.And said i probably get abused for being so ugly" i shouted, making louis look scared.
"Ashley. That was out of order." Zayn said firmly. He knew....
"And breaking my beautiful nose wasnt?" She screeched.
"Go get plastic surgery, i'm sure you can ask whoever gave you breast implants to do it for you." I sneered
"Oh sweetie, go cut yourself and let us grown ups watch our film" That. Bitch.
Everyone in the room was silent, Ashley still smirking.
"You know something? Maybe i will. But first, i'm going to do this." I reached over and pulled her hair extensions out, hard.
"You didnt. No..." She ran out of the room crying. I walked into my room, and took my leggings off, changing them for long shorts.
Then i did it. Something i vowed i would never do again. I reached over for my razor blade, and ran it over my thighs.
One cut for being ugly. Two for being fat. Three for failing at life. Seven for letting your dad rape you. Ten for letting him beat you. Twenty for... for doing this. I put the razor back after an hour, the tops of my legs were covered in blood. You want to know how j went so long with no one seeing them? Dont do it on your wrists. Wear shorts when you do it, do NOT let them move past the line of your shorts.
Easy... I limped to the bathroom and cleaned myself up, then decided to go to sleep.
---In the lounge---
*Perries POV*
"Wow. I didnt know Alexi was that... wow." Sophia said quietly.
"Zayn, why did you tell her she was out of order? Ashley, i mean" Niall asked curiously.
"You all want to know?" He asked, we nodded.
"When Lex was little, her mum got ill. She lived in hospital until Lex was ten, but for eight years, she lived with her dad. A two year old kid. Beat up by her daddy, because he blamed her for her mummy getting ill. Two years old. Raped almost daily until she was thirteen. Then her mum came home, and her dad moved to canada. I'm the only one she told... Then my mum moved us to london, manchester to london was a long drive, too long for a ten year old. Then i dont know much, but when she was thirteen her mum found her smoking drugs with some lads twice her age, shortly after she was kicked out. Moved from family to family member, sixteen years old she was sent to her dad, in Canada. Only I knew about what he'd done, but he kept doing it. She lived in his basement for a year, got an eating disorder, everyday, he or his mates would rape her. The canadian goverment found out, she was sent home, her mum. Her mum to my mum, to five boarding schools so i never saw her, she was expelled from everyone. "

"Wow..." Perrie said quietly, everyone was crying, even Lou.
*Louis POV*
I'm going to talk to her..." I said getting up. No one needs that sit in life, no one...
I knocked on the door, no answer so i opened it, and walked in, there she was, asleep on her bed.
"Lex..." I whispered poking her.
"What." She whispered, half asleep.
"You alright" I asked.
"Can you stay here tonight?" She asked me quietly.
"Yeah, just going to get changed, okay?"

I walked over to El back in the lounge, "El, Lexi wants me to stay with her tonight, just saying that i love you, and nothing is going to happen,okay baby?" I said
"Okay..." She kissed me gently, and then rolled over back to sleep on the sofa.

When i got back into Lexi's room, she was fast asleep, so i crawled into bed, and pulledthe covers up- wait.
I looked at her thigh, her shorts had ridden up. Millions of lines, all over her thighs. Scars, old cuts, newish cuts... Fresh cuts. I stroked them, trying not to hurt her.
"What the fuck." She sat up, looked down. Tears started rolling down her cheeks, unstoppable tears.
"Lexi..." I whispered, my voice hoarse.
"You dont understand... Just dont tell anyone, okay?" She pleaded.
"Okay."







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