Alyssa's Point of View

The dinner table. That's where nothing important ever happens. I eat my food while the twins bicker and my parents pry information from our daily lives, "how's school?" and "what are your plans for the weekend?" not that they really care. In my opinion, the only thing my mother cares about is movie night to keep us a 'normal' family. Dad, he sits in his mind, thinking about work--but when something does happen at the table, it's always dramatic.

"How was school today Alyssa?" I stabbed at another green bean, trying to think of something to spice this dinner up. It's always so boring and I'm in a good mood.

"It was okay. The drugs didn't come in on time but I'll just charge Razor an extra ten tomorrow."

I continued eating with a small smirk on my face just waiting for my mother or father to have something to say.

"Yeah, he gypped me too!" Luke said slamming down his fork. We both giggled before the wrath of my mother.

"You are not doing drugs! Alyssa White! Tell me you aren't doing drugs!"

Yes, I do drugs sometimes but obviously Razor is a figment of my imagination. I rolled my eyes and kept eating as my dad tried to calm her down.

Harry's being very quiet like always but I don't feel bad. I really can't believe he would kiss Maddie, or anyone for that matter. He was wrong and he knows it. Tonight I'm hanging out with Liam, Zayn, and Perrie which sounds like a double date but it's not. I think Louis and Niall will be showing up a little later. It's been three days and I know Harry is leaving in two weeks for break but maybe that's what we need. A break from each other.

"What are your plans for tonight?" my dad asked, still patting my mother's hand.

"I'm hanging out with Liam," I could see Harry slouching further into his chair. Don't you dare start feeling bad now Alyssa, I told myself.

"That's nice sweety. Is he your boyfriend? I really like--"

"He's not her boyfriend and they aren't hanging out tonight," all eyes went to Harry as he sat up almost in shock at his own words. He sipped, more like chugged, his water, thinking about what he could say to save himself.

"He's right, I forgot Perrie asked me to hang out. I'm hanging out with Perrie," that's partially true. Harry better thank me for saving his ass.

"What are you doing tonight Harry?" he finally set his cup down and looked to my mother. I pinned my eyes to his and then to hers. My eyes darted back and forth, waiting for what he'd say. As far as I know he has no plans and I don't want him with me.

"I think I'm going to my friends house, Maddie? I think I mentioned her," he didn't just say that.

"Well I'm going to go get ready. I'll let you know where I'm going mom, I just remembered Perrie will be with Zayn tonight so I'll have to hang out with Liam. I know how much you like him," I smiled, shifting my eyes towards Harry. His face scrunched, challenging me even more than we already have.

"Why don't you invite him over? You can watch movies or play games."

"I think that's a great idea," my dad poured gravy over his second piece of turkey while finishing his proposal, "Harry, bring Maddie here. You can all hang out together," no. That's not happening. I looked to Harry and he was red, I'm sure my face matched perfectly.

"I think that's the best idea you guys have ever had!" Luke said, laughing hysterically. Harry kicked him under the table shutting him up. This is going to be so awkward.

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"Thanks for coming over," I gave Liam a hug and we walked to my room. Maddie should be here any minute but I need to talk to Liam before this crazy night begins; we're friends but I know he has slight feelings for me. Honestly, I have slight feelings for him that are genuine but I know it could never happen. I'm not sure that I'd want it to and Liam is too loyal to Harry.

"It's no problem, I was excited when you said you wanted to hang out. I don't think I can take another night watching Zayn and Perrie making out," we both laughed, Liam sitting in my desk chair, me sitting on my bed--crossing my legs. I stared at him smiling, waiting for him to say something to break this silence.

"What?" he asked, chuckling to himself.

"I don't know, you're just so nice to me."

"I haven't always been," he looked away, frowning.

"Liam, I told you how unapproachable I used to be and it isn't a big deal. We're hanging out now so let's just forget about the past, yeah?"

"Sure, okay," he stood, stretching high showing a bit of skin. I've only even seen Harry's skin that way and I don't want to see his, I might want it if I see it, "you look nice by the way."

I looked down, "it isn't anything special, just a t-shirt and khaki's." I do love my t-shirt though; an ice cream cone? Hell yes.

"But you always wear the coolest t-shirts," he emphasized 'coolest' and named a few off, using his fingers to count, "your 'fuck off' t-shirt, batman, geek, and your many band t-shirts."

How does he remember all of those? I suppose I wear them multiple times but still; that's impressive.

"Well you look nice too," my thoughts were limited because of his presence. He makes me nervous, he really does. Though Harry gives me large butterflies, Liam gives me light flutters.

"Especially your hat," I quickly stole it from his head and topped it on mine. He gasped before standing up and reaching for it, "come on, let me wear it!"

"Fine!" Liam surrendered but stayed next to me. It felt odd for a moment until he moved my braid to the side, making sure it wouldn't fumble under the hat.

"Good?"

"Perfect," another smile before Harry peeked his head in. We both looked at him and saw his face boiling with rage. I heard him mumble to someone in the hall, most likely Maddie and he came in closing the door quietly.

"What the hell are you doing?" I looked at Liam and saw the distance we had between our bodies.

"Fixing Liam's hat. I wanted to wear it," I think this is the longest conversation we've had all week. Of course it'll be an argument.

"You don't need to wear his hat, you're doing it to make me mad!" Harry walked closer to me but I stood, holding my ground.

"Oh yeah? Well what was inviting Maddie over about? Do you actually want to hang out with her or did you do it to make me mad?" Harry's eyes softened and he took a step back. Yes, you fucked up again. "I told my parents I was hanging out with Liam because we had plans to hang out! I wasn't doing it in spite of you and you should know that by now! Why can't you trust your friend? Or me?! What have I done to lose your trust Harry?"

He has nothing to say, absolutely nothing. All I could see was guilt and sadness in his beautiful eyes. Right now I want those beautiful curls and beautiful lips and beautiful tattoos and beautiful everything to stop being so damn beautiful.

"You take a girl out and then kiss her while I'm gone? I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who is allowed to lose trust in this relationship or lack there of!" my words fell off my tongue as if they've been wanting to escape all week--which they have. He looked even more distraught but my heart feels nothing. I've always been used to disappointment but Harry has always been the exception, he's always proved my world wrong. But he finally stooped down to their level; he finally turned into just another being in my sad life.

"Alyssa, I tried to tell you. I wanted to tell you right after it happened," his voice sounded like his morning raspy tone which always made me feel a strange excitement.

"How does that make a difference? Hmm? You still did it!" my fists clenched and I could barely feel my short nails digging into my skin. I've never had such a strong desire to hit someone until this very moment.

"I think I'm going to wait downstairs..." Liam tried to pass but I grabbed his arm.

"No, it's okay, I'm coming with you."

I followed Liam out and down the stairs to the basement where Maddie was sitting, texting whoever seemed to be more important than right now. After picking out a movie Harry found his way down the stairs and stopped when he saw Liam and I sharing the smaller couch. We still have a distance but to Harry the distance wasn't far enough. He sat down by Maddie and instead of just crossing his arms and thinking about the pain he's caused me, he put his arm around her. I felt Liam's gaze turn towards me as he noticed Harry.

How could he? It's like I never mattered to him.

Harry's Point of View

She's being fucking ridiculous. Wearing his hat, sitting on her bed with him, telling him he looks nice, and now sitting extremely close to him? That's some bullshit and she knows it's getting under my skin. My arm around Maddie should set her over the edge but she didn't move. Her stare was on me for a few moments but it quickly turned to the tv where Buttercup was talking to the farmer boy. Why the hell are we watching this anyway? This is our movie.

I expected her to lean into Liam or try to cuddle with him but she didn't budge. She didn't even mumble Inigo's part like she usually does, "my name is Inigo Montoya, you killed my father! Prepare to die!"

Watching her so miserable on the couch hurt. Maybe she does like Liam, maybe she's falling for him. Why shouldn't she? He's nice, caring, and he respects her. Of course I feel those things too but I'm being a dick, wrapping my arm around the wrong girl tonight.

Eventually Alyssa's eyes became heavy and she began falling into Liam without realizing what she was doing. He gently propped her up and slid a pillow under her head so she wasn't touching him, just the pillow against his shoulder. Fucking Liam is such a good person and I'm a screw up. She's right, she's done nothing wrong.

"We should play a game," Maddie stood and walked towards the closet which was filled with games and movies and plenty of other activities. I took the disc out carefully and slid it into it's case, still thinking about what an ass I am. I have never felt so terrible about myself, about how I've treated someone I care about.

"Twister!" she shouted, holding it up in the air.

"Okay," Alyssa said trying her best to smile. I hurt her and it was cruel.

The game started, girls against boys. Maddie and I battled first, Maddie winning the first round. Then Liam and Alyssa started.

Maddie flicked the arrow and landed, "right foot on red," after that she continued until both were twisted all over the place. I leaned against the couch and watched as they laughed. Liam was hovering over Alyssa with his cheek almost touching hers. I could tell he was whispering something while she continued to laugh. The worst part is that laugh is true; she's not trying to make me jealous. She's being Alyssa.

"Left hand on green," Liam easily moved and whispered one more thing making Alyssa fall on her back laughing more than I've ever heard before. It was like she was being tickled to death even though she's not even ticklish. When she fell Liam's legs were swept from hers and he landed on top of her like in some stupid romance movie. I waited patiently for him to move but he continued talking to her, inches from her face.

"Okay, next game," I announced grabbing what I could for the game and putting it away. This time it won't be so touchy-feely.

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Alyssa's Point of View

"Thanks for coming over Liam," the December air nipped at my nose while I walked him back to his car, with only a pair of socks on my feet.

"Yeah, it was fun. And I'm sorry about Harry, he was a real dick in there."

I turned away, wishing he didn't bring up Harry. I have fun with Liam; a different kind of fun but fun nonetheless.

"It's fine, he's obviously moving on."

"He's not though," Liam traced my jaw line with his thumb before moving his hand away and shoving it into his pocket. He didn't mean to but he wanted to.

"Harry cares for you so much and he's trying everything he can to get you back. Apparently he was going for jealousy for tonight. And you know Alyssa, I respect that you didn't pull any of that shit on me. I would've been upset if you wanted to cuddle with me to make him jealous."

"I couldn't do that Liam, I wouldn't. And even if I did cuddle, it wouldn't have been to make him jealous," the moon wasn't visible and I praised whatever god above that he couldn't see the rosiness in my cheeks. I meant what I said, but I don't know if it was a good idea to say it aloud.

"Really? You wouldn't have minded my company a little closer?" we both laughed as the mood died down. Enough of this seriousness.

"You're a great friend Liam, I mean that."

"As are you miss Alyssa," he bopped me on the nose with his index finger and turned to step in his car. My brain and heart started speaking at the same time but my heart overpowered it. I took a hold of Liam's wrist and pulled him into a hug, a hug you give to someone you care about. Liam won't be with me because of Harry but if I can have moments like these I'll be happy. He held onto me tight, rubbing my back. I felt his heart beat against my head but it stayed steady. His deep breath told me he felt guilty just by this hug but it's what I need; I need a hug.

"I'll see you Monday Liam," my grip released and we exchanged smiles before he left.

I don't want to go back inside, I know Maddie is still here and I have no idea the extent Harry will take this with her. My room was calling my name and I found it quickly. I changed into some pajamas; a long, what looked like baseball shirt which reached the skin right above my knees, top and only a pair of underwear underneath. I pulled my comforter off my bed and walked outside onto my balcony to stare at my new stars at my new house. I like these stars, they're pretty and unique.

"I don't know what to do," a voice, a distinct British voice came from below. Harry sat on a chair by the pool with his phone held to his ear. I took a few steps back so I could still hear but he wouldn't see me, "I feel like I basically ripped her heart out tonight and I could have easily prevented it but I didn't."

Harry didn't move, he just listened to the other line for a minute before speaking again, "she's falling for him Ed. I can see it in her eyes, she likes him."

Another long pause took place before Harry choked out the last few words that really broke my heart, "I don't think she loves me anymore."

Notes

I promised a double update but I didn't :(
I'm so sorry! I ended up going to the emergency room because I'm stupid so I promise, right when I wake up to update! I will also update tomorrow night if I get to 215 subscribers! And woah, over 200 subscribers is amazing in itself! That you all so much for reading and enjoying my story! I love, love, love your comments and I hope you keep laying them on me :)
I have a few questions for you though....
Did Harry make a huge mistake tonight?
Do you think Alyssa is really falling for Liam?
Should Alyssa take him back or should she move on?
Harry's last comment, do you think she still loves him?
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