Harry's Point of View

"I'll drive her jeep and you drive Harry's car." I could hear Louis and Niall speaking quietly.

Zayn, I think it is, began carrying Alyssa to her jeep and Liam walked me to Jack's car. I don't know exactly what happened but I know Niall, Louis, Zayn, and Liam were helping Alyssa.

Why is she here anyway?

"Alright man, where's the house key?"

"Uh, on the car keys." Liam helped me out and Louis got out of her jeep, getting into another car. I'm guessing one of the guys. Why haven't I seen these mates before? They probably just stay away from trouble. I could see Zayn still carrying Alyssa but she's crying worse than I've ever seen before. Zayn shooshed her. We have to be quiet when we go inside.

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"Alyssa! Get up!" I heard Lucas yelling through her door. My clock says, damn, it says 1:30.

I stood up and walked to the bathroom, holding onto the walls. This is the worst hangover I've ever had. I'm not much of a drinker but I was a little mad at Alyssa last night so I decided to go all out.

"Can I try to get her up?" Lucas turned around.

"Dude, you look like shit. What the hell did you do last night?" He laughed, "Have fun trying to get in. It's locked and I'm pretty sure she's shit faced too. I didn't know you guys went together."

He walked away. She didn't drink anything; I think she came to pick me up.

When he was out of sight I reached for her key and opened the door, closing it quietly. She wasn't on her bed or on her balcony. Shit, where the fuck is she.

Her closet.

I began freaking out. "Alyssa! Alyssa where are you?" I barged inside, freaking out. Please be okay.

Her wrists were bleeding. The blood was spilling like crazy.

"Alyssa." Tears slid down my face. I grabbed the closest black shirt and wrapped them around her wrists. I felt her pulse; she's okay, still breathing. "Alyssa, Alyssa, wake up."

I picked some strands of hair out of her tears and shook her head. "Alyssa?"

"Get out of my room Harry." I took a deep breath; she's okay. Well, not really but she's alive.

"Don't scare me like that ever again." I pressed hard on her wounds. The blood needs to stop.

"Get out, I'm fine. I know where I cut and I'll be okay."

"No! You're not alright! Why are you doing this? What happened so bad that you felt the need to do this?"

She opened her eyes slightly and laughed as another tear dropped.

"What happened? You want to know what happened?" She tried to sit up but she's just so weak.

I nodded. Did I do something?

"Amber's brother was about to rape me in front of at least twenty people including you. Everyone was laughing. You tried to help but you were just to fucking drunk." She closed her eyes again. "I've only let one person get that close to me and that's you. Yet, you're the one who almost got me raped.

I felt multiple tears streaming. I almost got her raped. Alyssa was almost raped right in front of me but I was too drunk to do anything about it.

"Please just leave Harry. I'm okay, really."

"I'm not leaving Alyssa." She laughed.

"I think you'd done enough damage for now." I won't move. I don't care what she says this time--I'm not going anywhere. When I didn't leave she cried. She continued to cry and I sat next to her, still holding her wrists. She leaned against me and just cried. The worst part is, no one in her family came to check on her. She hasn't been out of her room all day and Luke is the only one who tried.

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"Hello family." Alyssa walked into the living room where everyone sat playing Monopoly. When she seemed almost okay I went ahead and let her have some time to herself. How does she change her mood so easily? "What's everyone up to?"

"Playing Monopoly obviously." Megan said.

"Can you not see the board?" Erin rolled her eyes. "You're so dumb." I picked my head up, please be okay.

"You're right Erin. I can be pretty dumb sometimes." She laughed and sat on the couch to watch us. My eyebrows furrowed while I looked at her.

Her eyes were no longer puffy and she looked like nothing happened the night before. She wasn't wearing her bracelets but she has a long-sleeve shirt on. It's getting a little cooler out so it isn't so strange. Jack and Lily wouldn't question it anyways.

"Do you want to play Lys?" Luke asked her while taking his turn.

"No thanks, I'm going to hang out with Marilyn." I wonder if she's going to tell Marilyn. Probably.

"I don't want you going over there Alyssa. She's trouble."

"Excuse me?" Yup, here comes the wrath. "Marilyn is practically my sister. You've never had a problem with her before."

Jack sighed, not taking his turn. "It's late Alyssa."

"Bullshit, it's four!"

"And we're eating dinner at six so you can stay home."

"Fuck this." She mumbled.

"What did you say?" Lily stood up and followed Alyssa out of the room. Erin and Megan laughed. I wanted to chase after her but it's really not my place. Not when Lily's already going.

Thankfully my phone began to ring. "Sorry."

I walked out of the room and answered .

"Hello?" I really hope this isn't one of Amber's friends.

"Hey, it's Niall." Thank god. "What are you doing tonight?"

"Nothing. I think I screwed up enough last night." Niall breathe into the phone; a small laugh.

"Yeah, pretty much. I think you should come hang out with us guys though. The one's you've been hanging out with are trouble and we should've said something from the beginning."

He's right. I wish he would've said this a month ago though. I rarely knew they existed.

"Okay, I'll ask Jack and Lily. They don't want Alyssa going out tonight so they might not let me."

"Alright, just text me. I'm pretty sure Alyssa is supposed to be coming over anyways." That's weird, I didn't think they are friends.

"Oh, okay. Yeah, I'll let you know."

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"Just to let you know, I don't want to be here with you." Alyssa sat in the passenger seat holding on to her wrists. I know she's trying to act like they don't hurt.

"I think you should thank me actually. If it weren't for me you wouldn't be going."

"I don't need to thank you for anything." She's right. I fucked up big time last night.

"Why are you all cheery now? You should be pissed and upset."

"Oh, I am. Do you think I should show that in front of my family though? In front of anyone? I really don't want them sending me to some stupid therapist."

I think she needs to see a therapist but she'll kill me if I say that. "You show it in front of me."

"You're different." I smiled,

"You think I'm different." She laughed and looked at me.

"Don't let it get to your head. You're an asshole who happens to live in my house. I've never met someone who's so two faced. I thought Amber was bad."

"What did I do last night Alyssa? I know I almost....you know. But what else?"

"I'm pretty sure you slept with a few girls. It doesn't matter though. I have no reason to be upset--you're just a tool."

"Woah, I didn't sleep with anyone." It does make me kinda happy she's upset about that. I didn't sleep with anyone but knowing she cares makes me feel better.

We pulled into Niall's driveway and there were a few cars parked. I saw Marilyn's and the one from last night but I didn't recognize the rest. Hopefully this will be fun. I thought Alyssa said she doesn't have any friends. Maybe they're all Marilyn's friends.

"Does Marilyn know?"

"No. And you're not going to say anything. You're going to keep your mouth shut and act like--"

I covered her mouth with my hand. "I'm not going to say anything." I leaned in closer until our noses were touching. "I'm sorry for last night. I don't know everything that happened but I want you to tell me later. I know I messed up and I'm sorry." I softly kissed her lips and then pulled away, looking at her lips. She's so sexy when she bites her lip.

Alyssa kissed me one more time and then stepped out of the car. Maybe she's not mad at me. That's funny--of course she's mad at me.

Notes

Thank you all for hoping I feel better!
I'm still sick but it makes me happy when you all are so sweet on all of my stories!

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