My risky life

All at once I could hear "oh shit!" Being said by five different boys.
I hit my head against the counter and felt the knife being ripped from my hand. I could feel my arm was so cold, I saw blood everywhere. I close my eyes and smiled, I wanted this my brother was up there and I was coming to him. I soon felt darkness cover me.
I could feel my arm starting to sting a bit, I opened my eyes and saw I was on the couch with a towel taped my arm and Louis was on the ground on his phone. I looked around. This wasn't Louis place either, it was somehow different. I gasped as I saw pictures of harry and a girl and the guys, Louis looked up and the I saw tears instantly run over his eyes. Why would he be crying.
" your awake." He said.
" shit." I said laying deeper into the pillow.
" why in the duck would you ever say that." He said now next to me.
" I want to die that's why, I want to see my father and brother." I said now feeling depressed.
" your brother isn't dead." He said getting up..
" what did you just say?" I said sitting up.
" I said he isn't dead, yes he is hurt but. Jessie has him." He said blowing out air.
" I don't understand." I said looking at him.
" nobody dose, he seems to fancy you." He said wiping his face.
" why are you crying?" I said to him as he glared at me.
" because my best friend will absolutely will not come out of that bathroom, vows to kill himself if you were to die. I'm glad you fucking made it, cause he is all I got." He said walking away and then I heard a slam as I jumped.
I got up and slowly started to pulled the towel off, I had to peel the tape first. Once it was lose enough to pull off I did so and wished I hadn't. I saw a big long deep slice in my arm that had stitches and some weird cream on it. I could see my other scars and see the recent ones started to fade. I wanted to run to harry and tell him I loved him and that I didn't mean what I said but he would push me away.
" don't tell me, your going to rip the stitches out." I turned around and saw harry with his hair matted to his face and a red face, he was looking at me dead on.
" no, I was just looking." I said getting up to walk to him.
" don't." He said backing up, I stopped walking.
" but I uh just wanted to." I said looking down.
" think it would be best to call what it is." He said turning around and walking away.
" what." I said as I looked at his back. I wanted to so badly to run to him and pull him to me and just kiss him til he saw how sorry I was.
" I love you." I said in a silent whisper.
Harry's p.o.v
I walked back to my room and shut the door, I wished she would have protested and proclaimed how much she loved me. But she just stood there, looking lost. She doesn't love me she loves the thought of me. I laid down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling. Maybe we were moving to fast, I mean I see her for the first time and I have sex with her. Then she tells me she loves me and I do too. But was love or just lust?
" I love you." I whispered and then closed my eyes.
About some time later........
My phone started to play meeka number, I pulled it out and answered it.
" hello?" I said looking at my clock, it was about seven p.m
" hey baby, I was wondering you wanna fuck." She said giggling.
" I don't think that's a good idea right now." I said as I scratched my head.
" really, do you have a girlfriend?" She said sounding mad.
I hesitated for a moment, " no, I don't" I said retreating I said that.
" well then it's a good time, I'll be over in about five.' She said clicking off.
I put my phone down and got up, I walked over to my door and opened it. I looked down and saw something black on the floor.
I walked a little closer to realize it was skylar, she was in a ball and she was asleep. I squatted and picked her up, she had dried tears down her face. I fucking made her cry, I sniffled as I sat her down on the couch. I draped the blanket over her and kissed her head. I her a light knock, I groaned and walked over to the door. I opened it to find her standing there with a black robe on. She smiled as I hushed her, I told her my sister was asleep on the couch. She smiled and took my hand as she took my hand. I rolled my eyes and lead her to my room, she shut the door as I sat down on my bed and put my hand through my hair. She smiled as she flipped the lights on. I squinted my eyes and groaned. She smiled as she turned my stereo on. It was dive in by trey songs. I tried to smile as she started to move her hips in a circular motion. Nothing was happening for me, I was just smiling like a asshole. She then undid her robe to revel her wearing nothing. She was hot, but not like skylar. I blew out air as I saw it was my turn I grabbed her and threw her to the bed. I undid my pants and slid them to my ankles along with my boxers, I went to go inside her when I heard someone scream. I jumped up and pulled my pants and boxers up and ran out of the room. Skylar was on the floor. Crying. She was shaking, and sobbing. I knelt to her but she screamed louder, Louis came in and shook his head as he saw meeka. I looked away.
" get her out if here." He said I as I snapped my fingers to her.
She glared and ran out of my apartment and slammed the door.
" I want harry." She sobbed.
My heart literally broke as she sobbed louder and louder.
" he's right here." Louis said looking at me.
" I'm here love." I said going to her.
she shook her head, As she hit me.
I growled as I picked her up and took her over my shoulder.
" let me go!" She screamed.
I kicked my door shut as I threw her to my bed, she looked at me with such hate.
"What do you want." She said as she tried to get up.
" you " I said while I slammed into her and clashed my lips into hers. She bit my lip I groaned as she fisted my hair. But then she pulled on it hard.
" ow! Fuck." I growled.
" she was here." She said trying to get up.
" I don't care." I said laughing.
" you had sex with her." She said as fresh tears went down her face.
" I didn't, I mean I almost did but I couldn't." I said looking at her."
" no you wanted to, am I not good in bed or something." She said harshly.
" please, your great it's just." I couldn't find the words.
" you don't want to be in a relationship." She said crossing her arms.
" fuck you, look at you. You try to kill your self and your brother is with a freak and all you can think about is our relationship." I said looking away.
" fuck you, I can not believe you said something like that to me." She got up and went to walk out of the room.
" fuck it I'm done trying sky, just get out." I said opening my door.
" I regret having sex with a cold heartless asshole." She said taking the handle and slamming the door in my face.
I put my hand against the door frame and laid my head on the door. I'm such a screw up, I disappoint everyone. Including my father.

Notes

What do you think should they have a break?