Lost To You

~ Audrey's POV ~

It's been three days since I left his condo. I'm too upset to see him. Harry would try to call me all the time but I just declined whenever his name popped up on my screen. Zachary left the hotel after Deborah went all bitch on his ass and I couldn't be more relived. These past couple days I have been in deep deep thought. What am I going to do? I have no home beyond this point, no family, no future...I only have this baby and the friends I have.

"Audrey." Deborah softly said as she walked into the bedroom I was currently staying in.

"Hmm?" I looked up to her and she gave me a small smile.

"You have a visitor." She informed and I stood from the bed. I looked awful. Hair in a knotted mess, eyes red and puffy from the crying I have been doing, the clothes I wore were lent to me by Deborah which only consisted of a pair of pajama's.

"Who?" I whispered and she sighed.

"Louis." She answered and I let out a groan as I followed her out of the bedroom and into the corridor where Harry's best friend stood.

"I'll leave you two alone." Deborah announced nervously as she left the two of us staring at eachother.

"Are you okay?" He asked me with sincerity laced into his meaningful words.

"Nothing about me is okay. Look at me, I'm a fucking mess." I responded as I looked at the regretful boy in front of me.

"I know your mad at us...and you have every right to be. But, Harry's barely hanging in there. He feels absolutely awful about it and he is still pissed about Zachary. Please come back with me...you both clearly need eachother." I stared at him as I soaked up his words.

"Okay." I whispered and stepped into my some slippers that were already sitting buy the door. He smiled as I walked out with him.

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He opened up the door to his condo and I felt my heart thump against my chest wildly. He let me in and I walked awkwardly behind him into the living room where Niall, Liam, and Zayn sat on the couch. Liam was the first one to notice me, and he froze.

"Wha-you did it? You got her to come?!" Liam exclaimed and all of the boys turned to look at me with looks of shock on their faces.

"She just agreed." Louis shrugged and I kept my eyes on my slippers.

"I'm sorry f-for yelling at all of you...." I whispered and they all frowned at my apology.

"We deserved it." Niall said and I squeezed my eyes briefly.

"And I'm sorry for dropping that whole thing with Zachary on you...When I'm angry I can never seem to shut up." I said and the frowns remained on their faces.

"Stop apologizing, Audrey! We were assholes! Don't blame yourself for anything that happened the other day." Zayn said and I let out a shaky breath.

"Where's Harry?" I mumbled and Niall pointed down the hall, indicating that Harry was in his bedroom. I nodded slightly before walking to his room and knocking lightly on his door. He groaned on the other side.

"Go away!" He yelled, but it was muffled.

"H-Harry?" I stuttered. I heard shuffling movements cross the room and unlock his bedroom door in order for him to open it up. He stood there with a gray pair of sweat tugged low in his hips, giving everyone around him a nice view of his prominent v-line and bare chest.

"Audrey..." He whispered at he took in my figure. I stayed silent as I just looked at him...the boy I loved...the boy that hurt me...the boy that I will soon hurt.

"I'm so sorry, Audrey....I never meant to hurt you. I never thought the conversation would take that turn! I was just letting the boys know how I felt about you and how I was totally cool with waiting for sex, until I realized how hard that actually will be! You are the sexiest and most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on and I want so badly to able to show you how much I love you in a physical way. But I totally understand and respect that you want to wait, especially after what Zachary did to you." It fell silent after his long explanation.

"H-Harry....you-you talked about how I would be in bed. Not only is that embarrassing, but it's extremely hurtful." I kept in my tears as I slowly eased him into what I was about to do.

"I know how disrespectful that was, and I am so sorry!" He reached from my hand but I pulled it from his grasp.

"Harry, look at us. This is absolutely ridiculous! I'm not capable of giving you the things you deserve...." I trailed off and he looked but me pleadingly.

"I don't care! I love you!" His words sent the tears flowing down my cheeks.

"I love you too....but I can't do this. You don't deserve this." I whispered and then my teary eyes met his.

"You're just giving up?" He asked in a hurt tone.

"I'm letting you go....you need to find someone who can reciprocate with you in a relationship." Tears slid down his face as he looked at me.

"Don't do this....please please please." He begged as I backed away from him and walked down the hall again.

"After everything, you're just ending it?!" He called after me, and I stopped. "You're just....stoping it because your scared?!" His words cause my body to flinch. I turned around to face Harry as the boys intently watched our conversation.

"I'm not scared! Harry don't you see how bad I am for you?! The moment we decided we were together was the moment I realized I will only hurt you and everyone else around you. I'm not doing this because of the conversation you had about me, I'm doing this because you need a relationship where you can actually be happy, and not have to worry about a pregnancy or and ex-boyfriend." The boys sat with their mouths on the floor as they stared at us in complete shock.

"I don't care about any of that! I just love you."

~ Harry's POV ~

I watched as her hand ran through her knotted hair in a nervous and angry attempt to calm her down.

"Harry." She pleaded and more tears fell down her red cheeks.

"No. I'm not letting you give up what we have...no way." I let out a shaky breath as I tried to calm my increasing heart rate.

"You are going to move on! I'm going to disappear from your life, and you will find a girl that is emotionally stable, and drama free okay?" I shook my head in disagreement as she said those things.

"It's not over...you're not ending things with us right now." I said in denial.

"Yes I am...and despite the fact that I can hear my own heart breaking...I know this is the right thing to do. For you." She let me wipe away her tears before I pulled her into my arms, nuzzling my face in the crook of her neck as I we sobbed together.

"I love you." She said. Her words were filled with sincerity and complete heartbreak.

"I love you too...and I will never ever stop." I said and she pulled away from me. Everything about her appearance made me want to punch a wall....she really looks like her heart is broken into millions of pieces and that crushes me even more. She turned on her heel to walk out the door but I grabbed her hand, spinning her around to face me as I connected our lips. She let our lips move together in a perfect sync before she pulled away and ran out of the condo door.

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