Lost To You

~ Audrey's POV ~
*One Week Later*

I watched Harry from the bed as he fixed his hair in the mirror. His bare back muscles flexing whenever he extended his arms in some way, how he would become really focused on one specific part of his hair, and make sure to make it perfect although he has no idea how perfect he already is.

"Harry. Stop, please." I said, and he turned around looking at me in confusion.

"Why?" He asked, with a smirk tugging at is lips.

"Because you don't need to fix your hair! It look great, please come and lay down with me." I pouted, and he smiled running over and jumping on the bed, taking up the space next to me.

"You're cute when you pout." He commented, and I giggled. He inched closer to me, and wrapped his long arms around me waist pulling me close to his body.

"You're always cute, I love that about you." I said, and rested mt chin on top of his head, while he nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck.

"You smell good." He said breathlessly and I laughed.

"Well, thank you. So do you." I complimented, and he pecked my neck in response. The sound of my phone ringing cut through the comfortable silence of the room, and we groaned simultaneously. Harry reached over and handed my phone to me, never breaking our cuddle.

"Hello?" I answered carelessly.
"Audrey?! Thank god you answered." Zachary said, and I rolled my eyes.
"Give me a good reason you're calling or else I'm hanging up." I snapped.
"Joseph was in a taxi cab, and they crashed. Joseph's in the hospital." My breathing caught and I felt water immediately prick my eyes.
"Oh my god...O-okay thanks I'll get Deborah and we'll meet you there." I quickly hung up, and looked to Harry who was instantly concerned.

"Was that Zachary?" He asked and I nodded my head.

"Joseph's in the hospital...he was in a crash." I whispered, and Harry kissed my forehead. "I have to go...oh my god." I let out a shaky breath, trying to hold back my tears. Maybe he's not that hurt, but what if he like broke his neck...i don't even know.

"Are you okay? Do you want me to drive you?" Harry asked letting me out of his grip as I stand from the bed.

"I want you to come, Zachary's going to be there, and I don't want to have to face him alone." I said, and he followed my actions.

"You'll have Deborah." He said, and I looked at him.

"Do you really think that she'll be up for his bullshit while her boyfriends in the hospital? Never mind....you don't have to go." I said and kissed his cheek after slipping my Uggs on my feet.

"No I didn't say that-" I cut him off.

"It's okay! I'll go get Deborah." I forced out a smile, and walked out of the room. Tears slid down my cheeks as I saw Deborah attempt to beat Niall at FIFA, that smile will be gone in thirty seconds.

"Audrey? What's wrong?" Zayn asked, and I looked at him.

"Deborah..uhhh." I wiped away my tears and walked to her, everything went silent.

"Aud...what's wrong? Is everything okay?" She asked, standing up from the couch.

"It's Joseph." She stiffened at the mention of him.

"I don't want to hear it. I'm over that dick face, he is not the person I thought he was." She seethed, and I let our more shaky breaths.

"He's in the hospital." I said, and her eyes watered.

"I don't care! Stop! I don't want to be guilted into seeing him!" She yelled, and I stepped back.

"Calm down, no one is guilting you, okay? I thought you may want to go see him considering he was in a car crash!" I said, now raising my voice.

"Why do you care?! Joseph is the one that invited Zachary here, and forced us out of the hotel we were staying at! He hasn't only hurt me!" What the hell?

"I know! And i don't forgive him all of the sudden, but if you were hurt, and in the hospital he would come see you in a heartbeat! He is your best friend, why won't you go see him?" I asked, getting angry.

"Because I don't want to see him, and fall for him all over again! He hurt me, and he doesn't even know it! I love him so much, but he doesn't notice! You love Zachary, you don't admit it, and you don't want to see him! Why do I have to see Joseph?!" My face went pale.

"I don't love Zachary anymore, you know that...You fucking know what he did to me, and you know how I feel about him! You have no right to say those things!" More tears slid down my reddened cheeks, and I wiped them away quickly. "Why am I crying? I'm so tired of crying!" I looked at Deborah, and she sighed.

"It's probably because you're pregnant." She responded, and I nodded.

"Yeah, that's it." I said, and looked at the ground.

"Oh my god." She said, and reached for my hand. I tried to jerk away but her grip was too tight, she pushed my sleeves up and gasped at the exposed cuts.

"I knew it! Fuck, why?" She asked, looking up at me.

"You promised! Why do you have more, after everything we talked about?" Liam asked, and I felt more tears fall down my cheeks.

"More what?" I turned around, and looked at Harry, who froze completely.

"Oh my god..." I whispered.

"You knew about this?" Deborah asked Liam, and I yanked my arm away from her.

"Stop! Please! Audrey, come here." Harry said, and I choked on the tears that I tried to hold back and walked over to him, feeling everyone's eyes on me. Harry immediately pulled my into his arms, and I relaxed.

"This is fucking ridiculous, Audrey! You have so much explaining to do." Deborah yelled from the other side of the room.

"No, I don't. That was private for me! You just showed everyone, something I'm most embarrassed about, and you still demand an explanation?" I asked, and her expression softened.

"I'm sorry, Auds....I didn't see it like that, I'm just worried...you know how I get when I'm worried." she apologized, and I sighed.

"I know...Liam, I'm sorry, I-I don't even know what happened, I just always ended up with more...and I don't know what to do anymore." I wiped more tears with the back of my hand, and looked at Zayn, Niall, and Louis who were sad, and probably confused beyond hell. "I'm sorry, you guys had to see all of this...I'm so so sorry." I apologized, and they all laughed.

"Why are you apologizing? You haven't done anything wrong, Audrey. Nobody did, we just get angry sometimes. I get it." Zayn said, and I smiled.

"Yeah, I get angry all the time, but I eat instead of yell. I eat the pain away." Niall shrugged, and I kept my smile plastered on my face.

"I'm sorry, Audrey." Deborah said, and now I started laughing.

"Oh my god, look at us! We're pathetic, I'm sorry too. I love you." I said, and she laughed as I walked over to hug her.

"Please go talk to Harry, and make everything alright. I wouldn't want to see you guys apart." She whispered in my ear before, I completely pulled away from her embrace. I turned back around and noticed Harry was gone.

"Where'd he go?" I asked, and Louis spoke up.

"Into the bedroom." I nodded, and made my way to his room. He sat at the edge of his bed with his hands running through his hair, over and over again.

"Harry..." I trailed off and sat next to him.

"Why?" He immediately asked me with his eyes watering, and I let more tears fall freely.

"Because It's really hard to pretend everything is okay." I said, and he looked at my covered wrists.

"Can I see them?" He asked, and I nodded, reluctantly pulling my sleeves up. He looked at them, and let the tears spill over his cheeks.

"Harry, please....I-I did it once, and Liam came into the bathroom, and and he saw me. I promised I would stop, but whenever I over thought things, I would find myself in the bathroom with a razor in my hand." I explained, and he looked back at me.

"Looking at those, makes me sick, because you are so valuable. I don't understand...you are amazing, why would you do something like this to yourself? You...you really don't deserve the life that has been given to you, Audrey. You were born into a greedy family, and you were raised on selfishness, and money. The one boyfriend you had been with for three years, is a disgusting idiot, who got you pregnant and left you. But, Aud....you are beautiful, inside and out, and I don't understand what would possess you to do such a...horrible thing to your body. I love you so much, Audrey. You have so much to live for, and you will never do these things to yourself again as long as I'm around." I sat, frozen at all of his words, and let them sink in.

"Harry, I-I love you too."

Notes

HE'S 21!! WHY? HE CAN'T JUST GROW UP LIKE THIS! OMG I'M EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE AT THE MOMENT! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMG OMG OMG OMG HE'S...21...HE'S 2O FREAKING 1!!!!1!!!!!11\



I feel like a proud parent bcuz like..they have grown so much, and i love them to death! seeing them grow up makes me emotional bcuz one day they'll move on and start a family in a big, upperclass mansion with their plants, and dogs, maybe even a pet lemur or something idk. No matter how old they get they will always be out boyz no matter who we marry, or who they marry! ILY ZAYN, AND I HOPE YOU HAVE THE ABSOLUTE BESTEST BIRTHDAY IN THE HISTORY OF EVER! MUAH!

btw i already kno i'm marrying Harry so shut up.

Okay, omg idk...wow.....

enjoy this:)




What a freaking beautiful man...I can't even....wow.

PERRIE YOU ARE THe LUCKIEST GIRL ON THE PLANET!

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