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Lost To You

Chapter 20

~ Audrey's POV ~

"How did you get the door open? It was locked!" I said and hid my arm behind me the best I could, still wiping away my tears with the other.

"Audrey. We've had this condo for years....you don't think I know how to open locked doors?" He scoffed. "Are you okay...? I know you've been through a lot, but you don't need to hurt yourself..." Liam walked over and wrapped his arms around me.

"You don't understand...I'm making things worse for everyone. I'm making others miserable because I'm too selfish to let them go." I cried, as Liam hugged me closer.

"That's not true...Harry, Deborah, Zayn, Louis, Niall, Joseph we are all here for you. We know you've been through a load of crap, and we don't look at you any differently. It's okay, you will be okay." He assured. I pulled away and he grabbed my wrist, looking at it.

"Joseph doesn't care about me or Deborah. He's a bitch face." I muttered, causing Liam to frown.

"These are really deep, Aud...please don't do this again. It'll crush Harry, he's very sensitive about people he loves and if he found out...just promise me you won't touch that razor for anything other than shaving." He said, tears welling up.

"Don't cry. Please don't cry. If you cry then I'll only cry harder, and we'll be a big mess." He chuckled. "I promise, I will only use the razor for shaving my legs." I finished, causing him to smile.

"Pinky promise?" He held out his pinky finger, and I smiled hooking mine with his.

"Super pinky promise." I agreed.

"Trust me, Audrey. You're worth living okay? Don't think for a second that you're not. If you can't stop for yourself do it for Nova." He smiled setting his hand on my small baby bump.

"Nova? You are calling him Nova?" I asked with a smirk.

"Me and Zayn came up with it. Just while he's inside you, we're calling him Nova." Liam smiled. I chuckled, and grabbed my toiletries bag pulling out some band aids.

"Thank you, Liam. Sorry I woke you." I said and started bandaging my cuts.

"You're sobs were pretty violent, and you said lots of curse words out loud. I'm glad you woke me up, though." He smiled, and helped with the band aids.

"Oh...I better get back to Harry. It's late, and I have been up for hours. See you in the morning." I said while putting my things away, and leaving the bathroom. I walked down the hall and into Harry's bedroom, crawling into bed next to his sleeping figure.

"Aud..." He groaned, and wrapped his arms around me.

"Shhh, go to sleep." I pecked his nose, and he buried his head in the crook of my neck. Tears silently fell down my cheeks, as tonight replayed in my mind.

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"Wake up! Wake up!" My eyes opened quickly, and I looked at Niall who was jumping up and down on the bed, shaking Harry awake.

"What?" I asked getting out of bed, and looking at Zayn who was standing the doorway.

"He's hungry, and no one else will make him breakfast," Zayn chuckled, and I walked over to Niall.

"Niall, I'll make you break fast! Let Harry sleep!" I said pushing Niall off the bed. He smiled and skipped out of the room. Harry looked at me and frowned.

"I'll make it. You were up late last night.." He said. I shook my head.

"I just couldn't sleep, I'm fine." I kissed his lips, and walked out of the room, shutting the door behind me.

"I didn't know you were a morning person." Zayn chuckled.

"I'm not. Neither are you....what's up?" I asked suspiciously. He shrugged, and looked at me with sincerity,

"Were you the one in the bathroom last night?" He asked.

"W-what?" I gulped.

"Never mind. How's Nova?" He shrugged, and focused on my stomach.

"Nova....you guys are weird. He's alright this morning. I'm finally done with morning sickness!" I smiled and walked into the kitchen, where Niall was waiting patiently at the counter.

"What do you want?" I asked him.

"Pancakes. Chocolate chip pancakes." He smiled. I looked at Zayn.

"Can you help me find the stuff?" I asked Zayn, and he nodded in response.

After we pulled out all of the ingredients, I started putting the right amount into the bowls stirring them while Niall and Zayn kept up conversation about the baby.

"I like the name Kaiden....Nova is stupid." Niall said.

"Kaiden? No, Nova is the best baby name of all time." Zayn scoffed.

"Guys, she's naming the baby Louis." Louis came in, adding to the conversation. I rolled my eyes at all of them.

"Stop, don't be so sure of yourself, Tomlinson. I want to name him after my dad." I said. Everyone stopped talking, and looked at me.

"Your dad...that dick face that hit you?" Niall asked. I nodded.

"Why? Your dad is a very disrespectful person. I wouldn't want to name my child after him." Louis said.

"What is his name, anyway?" Zayn asked.

"Robert." I replied.

"What about Ashton?" Niall asked.

"Why are you guys so interested anyway?" I asked, while flipping the pancakes on the griddle.

"We've never had a friend that's pregnant before. It's exciting." Louis commented, making me laugh.

"Good morning." Deborah came in and gave me hug.

"How'd you sleep?" I asked her.

"Fine. There was a lot of noise coming from the bathroom though. Someone was cursing like no tomorrow." She said. I looked at the pancakes nervously.

"Who was it?" Niall asked. "I heard it too." Fuck.

"Breakfast is ready." I put the plate of pancakes in front of Niall, and I walked back down the hallway, into Harry's bedroom.

"I was just coming out there. What's wrong." He noticed my nervous state, and. I exhaled deeply.

"Last night, I couldn't sleep and I went into the bathroom. I ended up in tears, and apparently everyone heard me...I'm embarrassed." I said laying on my back on the bed.

"Babe, don't worry about it. They're easy going, why were you crying?" He asked laying back down next to me.

"I just....got to thinking. I don't know..." You cut yourself.

"Yes you do. What were you thinking about?" He asked brushing the hair out of my face.

"Everything. You, Deborah, Joseph, Zachary...Nova." He laughed.

"Nova. I can't believe they're calling Harry jr. Nova." He scoffed.

"We're not naming him Harry jr." I laughed, and he frowned.

"Fine."