The beeping of Harry’s machine echoed in my mind. I couldn’t help but wonder how I could have helped him and how I could have stopped this.

“Lucy” I heard him call my name, obviously conscious.

I couldn’t help but smile at him but then I remembered what had happened and how he had ended up in a hospital bed and I looked away so I couldn’t see his eyes staring back at me. I had no tolerance for drug use, and I had a feeling he wasn’t a first time user.

“What happened?” he said confused as he looked at his surroundings, obviously dazed.
A sudden surge of anger washed over me.

“I think I should ask the same thing, Harry. I came into your room and you were high as fuck, and surrounded by syringes. What is this?” I asked, disappointment and obvious anger showing in my tone.

I always found swearing to be foreign and taboo, so I never did it but it had become habit and an all too common part of my vocabulary every since I met Harry.

“Oh god” Harry cursed to himself. “I’m sorry, Lucy, it’s just something that is a part of my history. I never meant for you to see that.” He looked down.

“Tell me the truth, Harry. Tell me what happened after your parents died. There is so much you aren’t telling me!” I broke down.

“Look, when my parents died, I got really addicted, and I started doing a whole lot of stuff that I can’t explain. I got help. It was just, yesterday was the anniversary of my paren’s death and I guess nothing made sense for a while so I turned to something familiar. It won’t happen again, I promise.” He said sincerely.

“How can I trust you, Harry? How can I know that you won’t get like that again? How can you know?” I asked hurt.

“Can you just trust that I stick to my promises?” he told me, sternly.

“Fine, but I want you to tell me everything, about your past, I can’t have you hiding stuff like this from me.” He looked at me warily, processing my words and thinking of a response.

“I just...It’s really complicated... It’s too messy Lucy” he mumbled.

“Harry, fucking tell me” I cried.

“Okay, okay just not now. When we get home.” he said trying to comfort me.

Notes

I know I have uploaded lots of chapters today but there is still a lot more to come. This is the last one I will be posting tonight. Sorry that it was so short. I will upload more tomorrow. I hope you enjoy, let me know what you think xo

Warning- the next chapters may contain sexually explicit scenes.