Private Dancer
~ Chapter 13 ~
Camilla's POV
I heard my alarm clock go off and I groaned. I fucking hated mornings. I had to drag myself out of bed and made my way to the washroom. I looked in the mirror and sighed. My hair was shit and I looked tired as fuck. I probably looked this way because I didn't get any sleep last night.
I washed my face with the cold water and shook off all my thoughts. I was thinking too much and it was stressing me out. I quickly brushed and tied up my hair before heading back into my room.
I put on my dance outfit and a pair of sweatpants over them and then headed for the dance studio. I was going to have breakfast but decided to pick it up on my way there.
I walked into the studio and I was the only one there. Rehearsal's for the girl's next performance didn't start until 9am but I wanted to get there early to work on my own choreography. I turned on the lights and put my Starbucks down. I took off my coat and sweatpants so I was only in my dance outfit. I put on Stay by Rihanna and let my feet take control.
I started to move and let my body dance. I slowly moved my head back when the song was at the bridge and just let the music sink in. I felt unstoppable when I danced. When I was away from the dance floor I felt empty. I was sad. Dance is my life and I never want to stop dancing. Ever.
"GET UP!" yelled Benni, he's the choreographer.
"Sorry." I mumbled getting up. I had fallen and now I was getting my ass handed to me.
"Don't fuck up then we won't have a problem." Benni said rolling his eyes.
"Gosh Camellia, you sure you should be here?" a bitchy girl asked.
"You sure those are your real boobs?" I said shrugging. She gave me the finger then turned to talk to the other dancers.
"FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT!" Benni yelled all of a sudden.
I started to do the moves he taught and then I felt someone kick me and I fell.
"WHAT DID I TELL YOU ABOUT FALLING!?!" he yelled.
"I-I didn't fall on purpose, she kicked me!" I replied. Oh god, not again.
"Get out. You're fired, I'll find a new dancer. Can't wait to text Perrie's manager!" he said pulling out his phone.
I rolled my eyes and without saying another word grabbed my things.
"Later Camilla, some of us just aren't meant to dance." the girl who tripped me said giggling with her friends. I can't believe I got fired! Why do people always try to sabotage me? I just want to dance! Is that so wrong?
I got home and Perrie was waiting for me.
"They can't fire you. Nope no way." Perrie said angrily
"It's fine Perrie, I'd rather not work with those bitches anyways." I replied trying to calm her down.
"He said you fell! But that's no reason to fire you!" she yelled
"Hey, Benni and I didn't get off to a good start. Don't sweat it Perrie, you got me a job and while it lasted I made $2000, so thank you." I said hugging her.
"So you don't want me to try to get your job back?" she asked.
"No it's fine." I replied smiling.
"Look, I hate to do this but I have to go, so food's in the fridge and yada yada yada." she replied smiling.
"Sounds good." I replied smiling.
I was on tumblr looking on my news feed and all these pictures of thigh gaps and dancers were appearing. One thing in particular caught my eye.
Eat Less
Get The Gap
Are girls really this stupid? Food is what you need to survive, a thigh gap isn't worth starving yourself. Some girls are born skinny and that's fine but if your not then don't starve yourself. I heard knocking at my door and went up to answer it.
I opened the door and was shocked to see who was there. Kendall?
"Caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiilaaaaaaa!" she sang clearly drunk.
"Hi Kendall, how can I help you?" I asked trying to tolerate her.
"Well I came to find Harry or Niall!" she replied taking a swig from the vodka in her hand.
"Why would they be here? Why Niall?" I asked confused.
"Niall and I haven't had sex in forever! I wanna ride his Irish dick some moooooorrre!" she slurred laughing.
"When did you and Niall last have sex?" I asked taking advantage of this situation.
"About 3 months ago" she replied nodding.
"You sure?" I asked really confused.
"Yup, 3 months ago!" she replied.
Harry and Kendall were dating 3 months ago. Kendall cheated... and Niall was apart of it. What a shit friend. I can't date a guy like that.
"CAMELLLLLLLLA!" she slurred.
"What?" I asked
"K DON'T BE RUDE! I'M DRIVING HOME, BY BITCH!" she said turning around.
Don't get me wrong, I hate Kendall, but I'm not going to let her drive home intoxicated!
"Stay here, Niall and Harry will be here soon." I replied dragging her in the apartment.
"Kk." she answered stumbling through the door.
I brought her to my room and put her down in the bed.
"They will be here in 100 seconds. Count to 100 and they will be here." I said talking to her like a kindergartner. I slowly made my way out of the room.
"1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 ...10...11.12..........14.....19." she slowly closed her eyes and finally her annoying voice stopped.
I made my way to the living room and shut my laptop. I was getting sick and tired of seeing these perfect girls and then comparing myself.
I turned on the TV and before I knew it I dosed off.
"HELLOOOOOOOOO!" someone's voice screamed waking me up. Perrie.
"Hey Perrie." I replied smiling.
"Why is she here?" asked Perrie motioning to Kendall who was now in our kitchen.
"She was drunk, I couldn't let her drive home like that." I whispered.
"You're too nice Camilla, I would have kicked her ass to the curb." Perrie replied making me laugh.
I quickly took a shower and got dressed. When I walked back into the living room Kendall was dressed and somehow looked okay. I couldn't help but notice that she was wearing my clothes.
"Um, like thanks Camilla. I'm gunna go now, I have like a lot of things to do today. Bye." Kendall said awkwardly putting on her shoes and leaving.
"BLESSSS!!!!!!" Perrie yelled once we saw her car leave.
"I actually gotta go too. I have lunch with Niall today." I replied dryly.
"Ohhhhh Niall, lunch! Romantic picnic?" she guessed.
"No, not quite." I replied
"Okay well tell me how it goes!" she replied smiling.
"Yeah, will do." I said before leaving too.
"Hey babe!" Niall greeted as I sat down at the table before he could get up and take out my chair.
"What's wrong?" he asked
"I-I t-th... I want a break up." I replied shaking my head in disappointment.
"What why?!?" he asked shocked.
"Honestly? Think, what have you done that was wrong?" I asked hoping he would confess.
"Nothing babe, nothing." he replied shaking his head, clearly lying
.
"Maybe Kendall can jog your memory." I said angrily before getting up and leaving.
"BABE!" I heard Niall yell. I just ignored him and kept walking. Looks like I'm back at square one.
I heard my alarm clock go off and I groaned. I fucking hated mornings. I had to drag myself out of bed and made my way to the washroom. I looked in the mirror and sighed. My hair was shit and I looked tired as fuck. I probably looked this way because I didn't get any sleep last night.
I washed my face with the cold water and shook off all my thoughts. I was thinking too much and it was stressing me out. I quickly brushed and tied up my hair before heading back into my room.
I put on my dance outfit and a pair of sweatpants over them and then headed for the dance studio. I was going to have breakfast but decided to pick it up on my way there.
I walked into the studio and I was the only one there. Rehearsal's for the girl's next performance didn't start until 9am but I wanted to get there early to work on my own choreography. I turned on the lights and put my Starbucks down. I took off my coat and sweatpants so I was only in my dance outfit. I put on Stay by Rihanna and let my feet take control.
I started to move and let my body dance. I slowly moved my head back when the song was at the bridge and just let the music sink in. I felt unstoppable when I danced. When I was away from the dance floor I felt empty. I was sad. Dance is my life and I never want to stop dancing. Ever.
"GET UP!" yelled Benni, he's the choreographer.
"Sorry." I mumbled getting up. I had fallen and now I was getting my ass handed to me.
"Don't fuck up then we won't have a problem." Benni said rolling his eyes.
"Gosh Camellia, you sure you should be here?" a bitchy girl asked.
"You sure those are your real boobs?" I said shrugging. She gave me the finger then turned to talk to the other dancers.
"FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT!" Benni yelled all of a sudden.
I started to do the moves he taught and then I felt someone kick me and I fell.
"WHAT DID I TELL YOU ABOUT FALLING!?!" he yelled.
"I-I didn't fall on purpose, she kicked me!" I replied. Oh god, not again.
"Get out. You're fired, I'll find a new dancer. Can't wait to text Perrie's manager!" he said pulling out his phone.
I rolled my eyes and without saying another word grabbed my things.
"Later Camilla, some of us just aren't meant to dance." the girl who tripped me said giggling with her friends. I can't believe I got fired! Why do people always try to sabotage me? I just want to dance! Is that so wrong?
I got home and Perrie was waiting for me.
"They can't fire you. Nope no way." Perrie said angrily
"It's fine Perrie, I'd rather not work with those bitches anyways." I replied trying to calm her down.
"He said you fell! But that's no reason to fire you!" she yelled
"Hey, Benni and I didn't get off to a good start. Don't sweat it Perrie, you got me a job and while it lasted I made $2000, so thank you." I said hugging her.
"So you don't want me to try to get your job back?" she asked.
"No it's fine." I replied smiling.
"Look, I hate to do this but I have to go, so food's in the fridge and yada yada yada." she replied smiling.
"Sounds good." I replied smiling.
I was on tumblr looking on my news feed and all these pictures of thigh gaps and dancers were appearing. One thing in particular caught my eye.
Eat Less
Get The Gap
Are girls really this stupid? Food is what you need to survive, a thigh gap isn't worth starving yourself. Some girls are born skinny and that's fine but if your not then don't starve yourself. I heard knocking at my door and went up to answer it.
I opened the door and was shocked to see who was there. Kendall?
"Caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiilaaaaaaa!" she sang clearly drunk.
"Hi Kendall, how can I help you?" I asked trying to tolerate her.
"Well I came to find Harry or Niall!" she replied taking a swig from the vodka in her hand.
"Why would they be here? Why Niall?" I asked confused.
"Niall and I haven't had sex in forever! I wanna ride his Irish dick some moooooorrre!" she slurred laughing.
"When did you and Niall last have sex?" I asked taking advantage of this situation.
"About 3 months ago" she replied nodding.
"You sure?" I asked really confused.
"Yup, 3 months ago!" she replied.
Harry and Kendall were dating 3 months ago. Kendall cheated... and Niall was apart of it. What a shit friend. I can't date a guy like that.
"CAMELLLLLLLLA!" she slurred.
"What?" I asked
"K DON'T BE RUDE! I'M DRIVING HOME, BY BITCH!" she said turning around.
Don't get me wrong, I hate Kendall, but I'm not going to let her drive home intoxicated!
"Stay here, Niall and Harry will be here soon." I replied dragging her in the apartment.
"Kk." she answered stumbling through the door.
I brought her to my room and put her down in the bed.
"They will be here in 100 seconds. Count to 100 and they will be here." I said talking to her like a kindergartner. I slowly made my way out of the room.
"1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 ...10...11.12..........14.....19." she slowly closed her eyes and finally her annoying voice stopped.
I made my way to the living room and shut my laptop. I was getting sick and tired of seeing these perfect girls and then comparing myself.
I turned on the TV and before I knew it I dosed off.
"HELLOOOOOOOOO!" someone's voice screamed waking me up. Perrie.
"Hey Perrie." I replied smiling.
"Why is she here?" asked Perrie motioning to Kendall who was now in our kitchen.
"She was drunk, I couldn't let her drive home like that." I whispered.
"You're too nice Camilla, I would have kicked her ass to the curb." Perrie replied making me laugh.
I quickly took a shower and got dressed. When I walked back into the living room Kendall was dressed and somehow looked okay. I couldn't help but notice that she was wearing my clothes.
"Um, like thanks Camilla. I'm gunna go now, I have like a lot of things to do today. Bye." Kendall said awkwardly putting on her shoes and leaving.
"BLESSSS!!!!!!" Perrie yelled once we saw her car leave.
"I actually gotta go too. I have lunch with Niall today." I replied dryly.
"Ohhhhh Niall, lunch! Romantic picnic?" she guessed.
"No, not quite." I replied
"Okay well tell me how it goes!" she replied smiling.
"Yeah, will do." I said before leaving too.
"Hey babe!" Niall greeted as I sat down at the table before he could get up and take out my chair.
"What's wrong?" he asked
"I-I t-th... I want a break up." I replied shaking my head in disappointment.
"What why?!?" he asked shocked.
"Honestly? Think, what have you done that was wrong?" I asked hoping he would confess.
"Nothing babe, nothing." he replied shaking his head, clearly lying
.
"Maybe Kendall can jog your memory." I said angrily before getting up and leaving.
"BABE!" I heard Niall yell. I just ignored him and kept walking. Looks like I'm back at square one.
Notes
Sorry for the short chappy, I have soo much HW STILL! I probably won't update until Monday, but MyLifeLine should :) so no worries!
Questions
Are You Sad That Camilla And Niall Are Over?
Do You Feel Bad That Camilla Got Fired?
How Often Do You Compare Yourself To Others?
ღ Alice Rose ღ
I love this so much! Hopefully Kendall backs off for good.
7/28/16