Half A Heart

~ Capri's POV ~

My eyes opened, but I wasn't greeted with the usual morning light. I was greeted by darkness. Fucking pitch black. I rolled over on my side, and looked at the digital clock, on the nightstand. How did I wake up at 3:42?! I sighed, pulling the blanket off of my body, and walking out of the bedroom, and into the kitchen area of the suite. I cringed as I turned on the light, and I squinted my eyes in attempt to ease the brightness. Being annoyed by the light above, me I turned it back off, and sat on the stool in the kitchen. I couldn't get what Louis said out of my head.

Do you only think about yourself!?
You do whatever the fuck you want because, you don't care about other people's feelings!

Was he right? Did I only care about myself? I never thought I did.....until tonight. I just won't allow anyone else to hurt me like my father did. Even though people hurt me anyway. When I still had my family together, I was raised on doing the right thing. At school I was nice to everybody, at home I never got into arguments with my parents or brother, I would always spend my money on things for other people, I was just trying to live on what my parents taught me. Be nice. That's exactly what I did. I was girl that did other people's homework for them, I was always taking the blame for other people in class, and I would suffer the consequences...even though I never really did anything wrong. As I got older, I grew a mind of my own. I stopped taking the blame for other people's wrongs, and I only did my homework. But that was after my brother died, and my dad had been hurting me at home. Now....I mostly have to stand up for myself, and try my best not to do the wrong thing, and fuck everything up.

"Capri?" I jumped, and looked up. It was still dark but I could tell it was Harry....becasue he was the only boy in this hotel suite.

"You scared me." I whispered, and wiped the tears that I didn't even know had fallen.

"Why are you up so early?" He asked. I stood up from the stool, and walked passed him.

"I don't know. Let's go back to bed." I said nervously. I still couldn't see him, but I knew I was facing his direction.

"What's wrong?" Damn.

"Nothing." I muttered. I heard him near closer, and I turned back around, walking into the bedroom. I turned on the lamp to the side of my bed, and looked at Harry.

"Nothing? You're a terrible liar." He smiled. I shrugged, and flopped back into the bed. I pulled the blanket over my body, still watching Harry as he followed my actions.

"I woke up, and I was just thinking....I don't know." I said softly. He came closer and wrapped his arms around my rigged figure.

"What were you thinking about?" He asked as if he already knew the question.

"Things....that may or may not have occurred today..." He chuckled, making vibrations run through me inside, and out.

"Are you thinking about what Louis said? Because I can assure you, it's not true. He just said those things out of anger. He's just not thinking straight." I sighed.

"That's what they said about you."

"What do you mean?" He sounded sad.

"When you first left us, and you wanted me to sign the divorce papers...everyone was telling me that you were only being stupid, and that you weren't thinking correctly." I explained.

"I was both of those things. So is Louis....just give him time. He'll stop being a bitch face, and you guys will go back to being best friends." Awe. So cute.

"That's reassuring. But, Harry...I don't think I'm ready to be pregnant again. Not after what happened last time. Losing Alice, and Jordan was one of the hardest things I have ever been through. It ripped something in me, and I haven't been the same since. I haven't felt....happy since then, and I don't think getting pregnant again will help that at all." His lips connected to my head, and tears fell silently down my cheeks.

"You named them..?" He asked. I smiled.

"Yeah. Alice Carol, and Jordan John." More tears fell and I let out numerous shaky breaths.

"Is the possible baby, even mine?"

"That's another thing I'm worried about. It could be Louis' because tests are wrong all the time, and we only had sex like.....I forgot, but It wasn't more than a week ago. Plus, I kinda sorta had a feeling I was pregnant before I cheated on Louis, so it could seriously be anyone's at this point."

"Everything will work out...I promise. It always does." Yeah, totally.

Notes

Hi:) So, If I get one more comment telling me to update, I'm not going to update for three days! Yeah! That's what I'll do!

It just gets really annoying when I get comments telling me to update my book, It's like I'LL GET TO IT WHEN I CAN! Damn girls

So, please.....just comment how my book is, and give me suggestions or something! The more you tell me to update, the more I won't.

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