Back Again

Hayden's POV

Harry ran his hands up and down my body before wrapping his arms around my chest and pulling me in tight, kissing me fiercely. He pulled the top of my dress down to my hips, freeing my breasts. His hand slid up my torso and began to massage them. I grasped the hem of his shirt and pulled it up over his head. We broke apart for moments to pull off the rest of our clothes and I watched as he rolled on a condom. “Fuck. I love you.” He said as he rolled on top of me. He pushed himself up above me before immediately thrusting into me.

“Fuck.” I gasped, shifting to adjust to him. He picked me up into a standing position and forced me against the door, thrusting in and out getting increasingly faster

“Shit, Hayden, I’m close. Fuck.” He said through pants. I could feel myself tighten around him, closer to my climax. He quickly turned around and threw us back on the bed. He moved even faster than before.

“Harry, I- I’m about to-” I tried to get out when my orgasm took over. He pumped in and out and moments later slumped against me in a sweaty mess.

“Give me a few… then round two.” He said smiling down at me. I was in a moment of bliss before reality hit me square in the face and I shot up and off the bed.

“No I’m sorry Harry. I have to leave. I can’t believe I did this. I’m awful.” I scrambled as I pulled my dress on. I grabbed my heels in my hands and flung the bedroom door open trying to reach the door to the hotel room.

“Hayden? Where are you going? What do you mean.” Harry called after me rushing after me, hastily pulling on sweatpants.

“Harry, don’t you get it. A) I’m still with Austin, technically. More or less.” I added when he raised his eyebrows. “And B) I’m not better than him. Technically I’m worse because he says he was like drugged or something… I knew I was cheating and I, God, I am absolutely awf-” Harry cut me off by gently kissing me.

“If what you say is true and you love me that you were drugged too, love is a drug. I know when I say it I mean it. And it’s because I love you that I am going to leave you alone until you figure out what you are going to do with Austin and whatever you decide I will accept your decision gracefully. Alright?” He said pressing another light kiss to my lips.

“Alright. Okay. Alright.” I said repeating myself as reassurance. “I’m gonna go.” I said jutting my thumb to the door. See you tomorrow.” With a small smile.

“See you tomorrow Hayden.” He said as I closed the door. “I love you.” Barely audible but I heard it. And I knew he meant it.

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I walked into my room and turned the shower on before pulling off my dress yet again and leaving it on the floor. I took a glance at the clock, 12:34 am. I knew I didn’t have any obligations until 4 pm today and I was planning on using all of that free time to figure something out. I stepped into the shower and let the scalding water beat on my back for a solid half an hour. Only when it started to feel icy did I begin to wash myself. Slowly I squeezed the shampoo and lathered it into my hair, taking the time to completely massage it into my scalp and wash it out. I washed my face and body, rubbing the wash into my skin with slow circles, squeezed the conditioner into my hands and working it into my hair before rinsing it out. The water felt like small icy arrows pricking my back then falling to the tiled floor. I shut the water off and pulled a towel through the curtain, wrapping it around me. I wrung my hair out before brushing it and putting it up in a braided bun. I pulled on a loose tank top and sweatpants and looked at the clock again. 1:47 am. I grabbed my phone and turned off the multiple alarms I had set, leaving only the one for 12 to wake me up. I placed it on the bedside table and switched off the lamp before letting a terrible, restless sleep wash over me.

Too soon I woke up to the familiar beeping of my alarm and 4 new text message notifications.

*10 am*
Lara: Hey hon, want to meet up for some lunch, 1:30?
Me: Sure where should I meet you?
I replied quickly and moved on. The next was from Harry

*9:26 am*
Harry: Good Morning, don’t forget we have a fitting at 4… ;)
The last two were from Austin

*10:02 am CA time/7:02 am FL time*
Austin: Hey babe, how r u?

*11:37 am CA time/8:37 am FL time*
Austin: Assuming you either sleeping or busy, just text me to make sure ur all good. Love you. <3

I was debating on replying to Austin when my phone binged again,

Lara: I’ll come pick you up at ur hotel in 1 hr.. ok?

I replied with a quick okay and smiley face before jumping up to pick out something to wear.
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“Aunt Lara!! Hey!” I said beaming as she pulled up to the corner in front of our hotel. I reached and pulled open the passenger door. “How are you? Sorry I had bail on our plans Sunday, I was just so beat.”

“Of course.” She said with a smile. “I hope you like Thai food.” She said as we pulled into the LA traffic. We conversed with small talk until we arrived at the restaurant and were seated almost immediately. “Now that we’ve gotten all of that boring normal people talk out of the way.. spill. What’s up with you and Harry, what about Austin?” She pressed.

“Woah slow down.” I said raising my hands in surrender. I told her everything, from Austin coming to visit at the hospital to me and Harry last night. “I just don’t know what to do. I still don’t trust Austin, and I don’t feel like we belong together anymore, that it was a thing of the past, but at the same time I got pissed at him and then basically did the same thing back… you know?” I finished telling her everything.

“Hayden, you want my advice. Follow your heart. You’re young and beautiful and now is the time to make mistakes, before you’re 40 and getting a divorce.” She chuckled lightly. “And what you did with Harry is completely different from what Austin did to you. Alright?”

“That’s what he said. So I guess I’ll call Austin tonight or something.” I smiled.

“Good. Now… where do you need to be?” She smiled.

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I told her the directions to the tailor where I would be meeting the boys. I texted Harry explaining that I would be a few minutes late, that I was with my aunt. I was supposed to be there at 4 and it was already 4:10. He replied quickly saying don’t rush but to get there as soon as I could. Finally at 4:25 we pulled up in front of the tailor shop, I could see the boys towards the back and I could see my tailor bustling around them. “Thanks Aunt Lara! Hopefully we can meet up again.” I said waving goodbye. Right before I opened the shop door she shouted out of the car window.

“Hayden! Just remember my advice, okay?” I nodded before flinging the door open and rushing back to where they were.

“Hi, hi… sorry I’m late, traffic.” I said with a shrug.

“Nevermind hon. Nothing you can do about that. But come, follow me we have lots to do and not much time.” Gretta said pulling me to the other side of the room. “So I know I told you to pick out seven dresses but now that we have determined what Harry will be wearing I think I have a couple options, tell me what you think…

Dresses

“Wow. They are all gorgeous. Wow.” I said, almost speechless.

Gretta squealed. “I know, you are going to be the center of attention at the red carpet.. not those dirty boys. So as you know we have three more fittings so at the next one we are going to cross a dress off the list, the fourth one we will narrow it down to one dress and make it perfect and then by the time of the final fitting everything will be perfect. Now, put this dress on first. We only have,” She glanced at her watch. “Ahh, only 75 minutes?! When did that happen. Alright go, go, go!” She said as she ushered me into the dressing room.

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