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Chapter 49: Life as we know it
A Week Later
Liam and I crawled into the tent no one spoke a word. We just lay there. He and I hadn’t spoken since she died… we were both in our own fucked up private hell, terrified that one of us would set the other off by speaking.
The silence was deafening not a single sound, no crickets no cheerful birds nothing.
Only the one single Lark singing it’s off key song of death.
Of all things I never thought it would happen to me. My baby. I was so numb inside… so-so numb.
“Scarlett?” He whispered
“Liam?” I tested,
We stayed quiet for what felt like ages.
“How are we ever going to be okay?” I whispered
He pulled me into his arms. “ I don’t know”
“I should have taken better care of myself” I whispered
“You took very good care of yourself and of “ Liam took a breath
“Taylor” I whispered carefully
“And of Taylor, we could do nothing to control it, you know that perfectly well Scarlett. I know it, you know it, She knows it, we ALL know it”
“I can feel myself falling deeper into this thing I can only describe as a dark hole, unfathomable, dark, limitless, horrifying hole. Every corner I turn I face a new monster something that I can’t win against no matter how hard I try- you blind it, it grows a new eye, you cut off its head 8 grow in its place, just over and over, I’m scared to even close my eyes. I petrified Liam I don’t know what to do. I’m lost, I can’t get out, no matter how hard I try, I just can’t like breathing underwater, Impossible”
“Don’t be afraid, I know I haven’t been a good husband recently, we’ve barely spoken” He said
“No Liam you haven’t been a good husband” I replied feeling him stiffen behind me, I stopped taking a breath “You’ve been an impeccable husband”
He sighed thankfully. “My cousin had a miscarriage once, the doctor told her that another baby would help, pull her out of that hole.”
I froze “ I’m scared”
“I know” He kissed my neck
“I want a baby” I said
“I do too” he replied
“But its too soon” we both said together.
“But we can try” I said
He was quiet.
“We can try but not now, I need time Liam”
“You won’t get pregnant if you’re scared the stress will stop anything”
“I know” I breathed “That’s why I don’t want to start again, I want to be happy”
After what felt like years of silence…
“I miss her” He said
“I miss her more, she was in my tummy for 7 and a half months you idiot” I nudged him playfully with my elbow
He nuzzled me and grinned “My Scarlett’s back”
“I never left” I replied
Liam and I crawled into the tent no one spoke a word. We just lay there. He and I hadn’t spoken since she died… we were both in our own fucked up private hell, terrified that one of us would set the other off by speaking.
The silence was deafening not a single sound, no crickets no cheerful birds nothing.
Only the one single Lark singing it’s off key song of death.
Of all things I never thought it would happen to me. My baby. I was so numb inside… so-so numb.
“Scarlett?” He whispered
“Liam?” I tested,
We stayed quiet for what felt like ages.
“How are we ever going to be okay?” I whispered
He pulled me into his arms. “ I don’t know”
“I should have taken better care of myself” I whispered
“You took very good care of yourself and of “ Liam took a breath
“Taylor” I whispered carefully
“And of Taylor, we could do nothing to control it, you know that perfectly well Scarlett. I know it, you know it, She knows it, we ALL know it”
“I can feel myself falling deeper into this thing I can only describe as a dark hole, unfathomable, dark, limitless, horrifying hole. Every corner I turn I face a new monster something that I can’t win against no matter how hard I try- you blind it, it grows a new eye, you cut off its head 8 grow in its place, just over and over, I’m scared to even close my eyes. I petrified Liam I don’t know what to do. I’m lost, I can’t get out, no matter how hard I try, I just can’t like breathing underwater, Impossible”
“Don’t be afraid, I know I haven’t been a good husband recently, we’ve barely spoken” He said
“No Liam you haven’t been a good husband” I replied feeling him stiffen behind me, I stopped taking a breath “You’ve been an impeccable husband”
He sighed thankfully. “My cousin had a miscarriage once, the doctor told her that another baby would help, pull her out of that hole.”
I froze “ I’m scared”
“I know” He kissed my neck
“I want a baby” I said
“I do too” he replied
“But its too soon” we both said together.
“But we can try” I said
He was quiet.
“We can try but not now, I need time Liam”
“You won’t get pregnant if you’re scared the stress will stop anything”
“I know” I breathed “That’s why I don’t want to start again, I want to be happy”
After what felt like years of silence…
“I miss her” He said
“I miss her more, she was in my tummy for 7 and a half months you idiot” I nudged him playfully with my elbow
He nuzzled me and grinned “My Scarlett’s back”
“I never left” I replied
Notes
I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED IT!!!!
ONE CHAPTER LEFT! WHO'S EXCITED!!?!?
So what do you guys think i should do:
A) Take a break to write more chapters, and update it on THIS page( AKA a continuation of book 1)
OR
B) Take a break to write more chapters and update it on a NEW page (AKA Hide2<- haven't thought of a name yet)
So, tell me what you think i should do in the comments!
Lots of Love,
Kisses,
Scarlett Kat <3
CLIMB ISN A TREE CLIMB FOR UR LIIIIIIIIIFE!!!! DONT LET ENYONE GET BIT NOOOOOO !!! MAYBE HARRY WILL COME BACK WITH A POSSY AND SAVE THEM AGGGHHHH UPDATE SOON SO GOOOOD!!!
2/10/14