Goodnight Moon.
2AM snack.
Harry’s POV.
I lied in bed next to a sleeping Ashlynn thinking about why my Mother of all people would assume she was using me for my money. I stared at her and thought back to where we started. To when I hit on her at the grocery and she told me I wasn’t her type to the time that I found her bleeding on the London sidewalk and to when I sat hand in hand with her at her Father’s funeral. As a person she has been through way too much, as a couple we have been through a lot and stood by each other through it all. Through the rumors and tears, through the time I lost my temper and almost lost her. How was she not the one for me? How could anyone even question her intentions?
I got up from bed and threw on a shirt and went downstairs to make a bowl of cereal. I walked into the kitchen to find Jayci laying on the floor staring up at our studio lights that hung down from the ceiling.
‘What are you doing?” I asked her as I hovered over her side staring down at her.
“I’m just thinking.” She said.
“On my kitchen floor?” I asked.
A smile spread across her face now realizing how silly she probably looked to me. “What are you doing up?” she asked me as she sat up and against the counter top.
“Getting some cheerios. Want some?” I asked her as I gabbed the box out of the cupboard.
“No thanks, Harry…can I ask you something?” she asked seriously.
“Sure Jayci, what’s up?” I asked her as I sat across from her in the kitchen.
“You don’t think Ashlynn is using you, right?” she asked me seriously concerned.
“Of course not. I don’t know what pipe my Mum smoked. Why do you ask?” I looked back at her concerned now.
“Just making sure. She loves you, through hell and high water that girl loves and adores you.” Jayci reassured me.
“I love her too. But I know that’s not why you were laying on my kitchen floor pondering about. What’s going on?” I asked her.
“ Just me and Niall. He hasn’t told me he loves me yet and I’m just trying to figure out if going on tour with him is a good idea. I mean I know I’m on break…but I basically live here and he hasn’t said anything. I just don’t want to put myself in a bad place is all.” She explained to me while staring at her hands.
“You know…Niall may not have openly said it. But he loves you Cici. “ I told her.
“But how do you know that Harry?” she asked.
“Because he’s my best friend. I know he does.He looks at you the way I know I look at Ash. Also, his song writing skills have quite exceptional lately.” I explained to her. Niall loves Jayci, I know he does; he’s told me. “ Do you love him?” I asked her.
“Yeah, I really really do. “ she admitted blushingly.
“Then go wake him up and tell him.” I demanded of her.
“You’re right. Thanks Styles.” She said as she got up and want back to her room.
I sat there in the kitchen eating my cheerios when I heard the front door open to see my Mum walk in.
“What the hell are you doing? It’s 2 in the morn. “ I asked of her sternly.
“Why aren’t you asleep?” she asked me as she took her shoes off.
“Why aren’t you?!” I asked back.
“I was at the 24hr grocery. Couldn’t sleep.” She said showing me the bags in her hands.
“Oh, what did you get?” I asked her taking the bags from her.
“Pancake mix and bananas” she told me.
“Those are Ashlynn’s favorites.” I said.
“I know it’s my apology to her. “ she admitted now guilty.
“What happened Mom? You know she loves me.” I told her with along concerned face.
“I know I know. And I love her. I adore her. I just want her to be with you for the right reasons. I just couldn’t wrap my mind around the fact that even after you throw her against a wall drunk she still wants to be with you.” She explained.
“That makes 2 of us. But she loves me. She could decide tomorrow morning to move back to Texas and tell me she never wanted to see me again and I would still do anything to be with her. That’s what love is. At least that’s what ours is. I would do anything for that girl.” I told her.
“I know. I get that now and I was out of line. I’m sorry.” She said shamefully.
“It’s ok. But please talk to Ash in the morning she basically thinks that you want her to burn in hell. She was so upset when she got home. Basically told me that she would break up with me before she ‘took me away from you’.” I told my Mum causing her to tear up a bit.
“Well I admire her for that. I’ll talk to her in the morning.” She said.
“Thank you.” I said as washed my bowl out. I then gave her a kiss on the cheek and went back upstairs to my sleeping beauty.
I took my shirt back off and got back under the covers slowly hoping not to wake her.
“Harry…are you alright babe?” she asked me tiredly half sitting up.
“Yeah. Sorry I woke you! I was just eating some cereal and talking to my mum. “ I told her.
“Is she alright?” she asked. Leave it to Grace to ask if she was okay even with such circumstances.
“Yeah. She feels guilty though and she’s sorry.” I told her.
“Oh okay.” She said.
“Yeah. Are you okay?” I asked her.
“Yeah. Just missed you is all.” She told me as she laid her head on top of my chest like she did. I wrapped my arm around her hips and held her.
“Are you worried…about tour and stuff?” I asked her.
“Uhm. I mean kind of.” She admitted.
“What part are you nervous about babe?” I asked now ready to listen to her voice her concerns.
“What if being on the road isn’t my thing? What if we start having problems?What if I’m not cut out for ‘tour life’ or ‘your life’ “ she asked with her voice shaking.
“Ash, what’s the one thing you have always wanted to do?” I asked her knowing the answer would be travel.
“Travel.”
“The let’s travel babe. Look yeah, sometimes things are going to get hard. But those things happen anywhere. You know that. You are cut out for my life. You’re my life. You know that right?” I asked her.
“I know. I guess I just don’t want to lose you and what we have.” She admitted the main concern with tears running down her eyes and hitting my chest. I pulled her off of me and sat up and faced her.
“You’re not going to lose me. I swear. I don’t know where all of this insecurity on losing me is coming from but just get rid of it now, ok? I love you Ashlynn Grace and you’re stuck with me, okay? Does that work for you?” I asked her holding her hands.
“Absolutely” she nodded.
“Good. Now come on and lay next to me and let’s get some rest,” I told her as I laid down patting the bed next to me.
Asleep we went.
I lied in bed next to a sleeping Ashlynn thinking about why my Mother of all people would assume she was using me for my money. I stared at her and thought back to where we started. To when I hit on her at the grocery and she told me I wasn’t her type to the time that I found her bleeding on the London sidewalk and to when I sat hand in hand with her at her Father’s funeral. As a person she has been through way too much, as a couple we have been through a lot and stood by each other through it all. Through the rumors and tears, through the time I lost my temper and almost lost her. How was she not the one for me? How could anyone even question her intentions?
I got up from bed and threw on a shirt and went downstairs to make a bowl of cereal. I walked into the kitchen to find Jayci laying on the floor staring up at our studio lights that hung down from the ceiling.
‘What are you doing?” I asked her as I hovered over her side staring down at her.
“I’m just thinking.” She said.
“On my kitchen floor?” I asked.
A smile spread across her face now realizing how silly she probably looked to me. “What are you doing up?” she asked me as she sat up and against the counter top.
“Getting some cheerios. Want some?” I asked her as I gabbed the box out of the cupboard.
“No thanks, Harry…can I ask you something?” she asked seriously.
“Sure Jayci, what’s up?” I asked her as I sat across from her in the kitchen.
“You don’t think Ashlynn is using you, right?” she asked me seriously concerned.
“Of course not. I don’t know what pipe my Mum smoked. Why do you ask?” I looked back at her concerned now.
“Just making sure. She loves you, through hell and high water that girl loves and adores you.” Jayci reassured me.
“I love her too. But I know that’s not why you were laying on my kitchen floor pondering about. What’s going on?” I asked her.
“ Just me and Niall. He hasn’t told me he loves me yet and I’m just trying to figure out if going on tour with him is a good idea. I mean I know I’m on break…but I basically live here and he hasn’t said anything. I just don’t want to put myself in a bad place is all.” She explained to me while staring at her hands.
“You know…Niall may not have openly said it. But he loves you Cici. “ I told her.
“But how do you know that Harry?” she asked.
“Because he’s my best friend. I know he does.He looks at you the way I know I look at Ash. Also, his song writing skills have quite exceptional lately.” I explained to her. Niall loves Jayci, I know he does; he’s told me. “ Do you love him?” I asked her.
“Yeah, I really really do. “ she admitted blushingly.
“Then go wake him up and tell him.” I demanded of her.
“You’re right. Thanks Styles.” She said as she got up and want back to her room.
I sat there in the kitchen eating my cheerios when I heard the front door open to see my Mum walk in.
“What the hell are you doing? It’s 2 in the morn. “ I asked of her sternly.
“Why aren’t you asleep?” she asked me as she took her shoes off.
“Why aren’t you?!” I asked back.
“I was at the 24hr grocery. Couldn’t sleep.” She said showing me the bags in her hands.
“Oh, what did you get?” I asked her taking the bags from her.
“Pancake mix and bananas” she told me.
“Those are Ashlynn’s favorites.” I said.
“I know it’s my apology to her. “ she admitted now guilty.
“What happened Mom? You know she loves me.” I told her with along concerned face.
“I know I know. And I love her. I adore her. I just want her to be with you for the right reasons. I just couldn’t wrap my mind around the fact that even after you throw her against a wall drunk she still wants to be with you.” She explained.
“That makes 2 of us. But she loves me. She could decide tomorrow morning to move back to Texas and tell me she never wanted to see me again and I would still do anything to be with her. That’s what love is. At least that’s what ours is. I would do anything for that girl.” I told her.
“I know. I get that now and I was out of line. I’m sorry.” She said shamefully.
“It’s ok. But please talk to Ash in the morning she basically thinks that you want her to burn in hell. She was so upset when she got home. Basically told me that she would break up with me before she ‘took me away from you’.” I told my Mum causing her to tear up a bit.
“Well I admire her for that. I’ll talk to her in the morning.” She said.
“Thank you.” I said as washed my bowl out. I then gave her a kiss on the cheek and went back upstairs to my sleeping beauty.
I took my shirt back off and got back under the covers slowly hoping not to wake her.
“Harry…are you alright babe?” she asked me tiredly half sitting up.
“Yeah. Sorry I woke you! I was just eating some cereal and talking to my mum. “ I told her.
“Is she alright?” she asked. Leave it to Grace to ask if she was okay even with such circumstances.
“Yeah. She feels guilty though and she’s sorry.” I told her.
“Oh okay.” She said.
“Yeah. Are you okay?” I asked her.
“Yeah. Just missed you is all.” She told me as she laid her head on top of my chest like she did. I wrapped my arm around her hips and held her.
“Are you worried…about tour and stuff?” I asked her.
“Uhm. I mean kind of.” She admitted.
“What part are you nervous about babe?” I asked now ready to listen to her voice her concerns.
“What if being on the road isn’t my thing? What if we start having problems?What if I’m not cut out for ‘tour life’ or ‘your life’ “ she asked with her voice shaking.
“Ash, what’s the one thing you have always wanted to do?” I asked her knowing the answer would be travel.
“Travel.”
“The let’s travel babe. Look yeah, sometimes things are going to get hard. But those things happen anywhere. You know that. You are cut out for my life. You’re my life. You know that right?” I asked her.
“I know. I guess I just don’t want to lose you and what we have.” She admitted the main concern with tears running down her eyes and hitting my chest. I pulled her off of me and sat up and faced her.
“You’re not going to lose me. I swear. I don’t know where all of this insecurity on losing me is coming from but just get rid of it now, ok? I love you Ashlynn Grace and you’re stuck with me, okay? Does that work for you?” I asked her holding her hands.
“Absolutely” she nodded.
“Good. Now come on and lay next to me and let’s get some rest,” I told her as I laid down patting the bed next to me.
Asleep we went.
Notes
Quick chapter.
Now that semester is over I am going to be updating way more!
Wow you are doing really good with the story! I love this story and hope you keep doing an awesome job of writing it!
6/3/14