Ashlynn’s POV.

The door was wide open and all I could do was stare at him. I walked away from the front door leaving it open for him to come in at his own comfort. I walked to the kitchen and opened up the fridge to grab 2 water bottles. I heard the front door shut and his heavy footsteps walk to the kitchen. I jumped up to sit on the counter putting pressure on my arms and wrists forgetting the previous injuries.

I handed Harry the water bottle as he leaned against the same counter top I was sitting on.
He was staring down just crying, he hadn’t stopped since I opened the door.

“You woke me up from my nap.” Was all I said to him. I was mad at him, very mad but I didn’t want it to get to the point where he was afraid to talk to me. I never wanted it to be like that no matter the circumstance.

“I’m sorry.” He said. Yeah right.

“Doubtful.” I said as I rolled my eyes at him.

“Ashlynn...I’m serious. I fucked up. I don’t even know where to start.” He complained. Funny. Cause I knew exactly where we were starting.

“Let’s start with why you were being so rude to me yesterday afternoon, ya know before you threw me up against a wall and cheated on me.” I calmly reminded him.

“It’s stupid.” He stated.

“HA! Then you can let yourself out.” I laughed at him as I jumped off my counter and walked away from him towards the hallway.

“DON’T WALK AWAY FROM ME. I LOVE YOU. DON’T YOU GET THAT?!” he was now yelling.

“NOW YOU WANT TO YELL? GUESS WHAT I CAN YELL LOUDER HARRY! AND I CAN
WALK AWAY, WANNA KNOW WHY? BECAUSE YOU WALKED AWAY FROM US LAST NIGHT WHEN YOU KISSED THAT SLUTTY BAR TENDER.” I yelled back at him.He stood there and stared at me in awe of me standing up for myself this go around, something I rarely did because I hated wasting my breath.

“I WAS DRUNK!” he re stated. God. Be quiet.

“SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU DON’T LOVE ME! JUST LEAVE!”I yelled back at him and turned away from him holding my tears in.The tense silence surrounded us and I had definitely made this argument into something else.

“Why would you think that even for a second?” He asked my back calmly and quietly now thinking harder than before.

“BECAUSE YOU DON’T DO THIS TO PEOPLE YOU LOVE.” I yelled as I pointed at the bruises that he had left me causing my tears to burst out. “You don’t hurt the people you love…I would never cheat on you. I would never say any of the things you said to me last night and I would have never ever broken your trust.” I was in tears telling him these things as I was now sitting on the floor crying into my hands against the walls.

He sat down next to me as he wrapped his warm body into mine. I wasn’t scared of him. I just wanted him near me, I missed him.

“Are you scared of me?” he asked.

“Should I be?” I asked back when I looked towards him.

“No. I swear to God I will never hurt you like that again.” He confessed and promised.

“I’m more scared of who I am without you. I’m scared of not having you in my life. “ I now admitted to him.“But I can’t trust you. And that kills me.”

“I know I have to earn it back, I know that. Just…let me. PLEASE.” He begged of me.

“You ruined us Harry. We’re broken. You can’t fix that.” I told him.

“I know I can’t. Let’s rebuild. Let’s just do it all over again.” He cried into me.

“What happened to you? What started it all?” I asked him. “I need answers I need to know what went through your mind. Talk to me.” I begged of him as he held my hands and stared at my pathetic bandaging job I did on my wrist.

“Did you do this today?” He asked referring to my cut.

“Yeah. In the shower.” I told him staring at the hurt on his face.

“You promised you never would again. “ He complained again.

“Well sometimes people make promises they can’t keep.” I said to him reminding him of our current situation.

“I hurt you enough to cause you to do that?” He asked in awe of the love I had for him.

“Yeah…I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you for doing it. I’m just so confused as to why everything happened and I don’t feel good enough for you anymore. I don’t put out and I’m not as pretty as all the other girls. I can’t be what you want me to be.” I told him afraid of what he would say as I was totally ashamed of my actions.

“Well I forgive you. But I am so so so so so sorry for causing you that much pain. Ashlynn, if something ever happened to you, my life would be over. In a heartbeat. I’m nothing without you. I’m an idiot, ok? This has nothing to do with you. You’re too good for me and I don’t deserve someone as perfect as you. I don’t want you to be anyone else but yourself. Because I’m in love with the girl who has her own rules and does things for others. You have a selfless heart and I absolutely adore that.I never meant to cause you so much pain. I should have never left those marks on you.” He cried into me more as I was still holding his hands. I loved him so much. It’s hard to not be with him.

“I’m so tired Harry.” I complained. I really was exhausted. I couldn’t even form a proper thought.

“ Do you want to go take a nap?” He asked me.

“Will you stay? I keep having nightmares when I close my eyes and no one is there when I wake up.” I needed him next to me. I needed to feel safe.

“Of course I will baby.” He told me as he stood up and then gently grabbed my hips to help me up.

We walked to my bedroom where my bed was screaming my name. Fighting and intensely talking with Harry was exhausting not to mention I lost a good amount of blood form earlier.
I lay on my side away from him when he pulled me into his body behind me. I felt warm and loved even with all of this shit going on.
“Are we ok?” he asked as my eyes started shutting.

“No where near it. But we can’t attempt to fix this till we sleep. So please can we just sleep. I just need rest Harry.” I told him as I yawned hoping he would understand.

“Ok Grace. I love you. I’m sorry.” He told me AGAIN.

“I know, I love you too.” And I really did.

“Goodnight Moon.”

“Goodnight Harry.”

Notes

Transitioning Chapter!