Harry’s POV.

Gemma and I walked around the market getting everything on the list that Mum had given us. Honestly I wondered what was going back on at the house. I knew by now Ashlynn had been awake and I’m sure knowing her and good ole Anne that they were probably sitting on the couch drinking wine or something.

“So, let’s be real right now. Just you and me. Mum isn’t here. Just us.” Gemma spoke. I had no idea where she was going with this and I was worried.

“Alright. What?” I asked.

“Ashlynn, what’s wrong with her?” she asked causing me to get a bit offended.

“What do you mean?” I wondered.

“What’s her flaw? I mean I like her Harry, it’s not that I don’t. She just seems so made for you that something must be wrong with her. Like what’s the thing you could live without?” I thought hard about her question before answering it. I didn’t have an answer.

“Nothing is wrong with her. She’s so good to me. She’s so patient with me. I wish she would feel things more and not blow them off as often and got really mad at me when I seriously deserve to be yelled at, but that’s Ashlynn.” Shit there was something that I wish she wasn’t….what did this mean?

“So she’s a push over?” I don’t even know.

“Well no. I mean she stands up for herself, but I don’t know Gemma…I don’t want to talk about it anymore.” I was now very frustrated.

“No! Edward, tell me. This is your chance. Let’s talk about it. “ she pushed.

“It’s like when I seriously fuck up which let’s be honest here, is quite often, she walks away and cools off and we talk about calmly when we are ready. I know that’s the mature adult way to do things. But I feel like there is still so much she doesn’t say because of it, like she holds back. “ I was letting all this anger that I had towards Ashlynn that I had no idea I had and it was scaring me.

“Whoa, I’m starting to regret asking.” Gemma said surprised with my reaction.

“THEN she pushes anything and anyone good away. It’s like she’s afraid to be happy…why can’t she just be happy? Ya know! She’s amazing but anytime I tell her, I know she doesn’t believe me. Like I wouldn’t waste my time telling you if I didn’t mean it.” I was now more upset than I had anticipated.

“So she’s insecure.That’s not good.” Gemma said.

“Why?” I needed to know my sisters opinion.

“Well then when you go on tour and all the hate she’s getting gets worst and the fans are all over you she’s going to be unhappy. I mean just think about it. It’s not like she’s famous, ya know? Like she chose this career…she didn’t. She takes photos...not getting photographed.She chose not to be in the spotlight for a reason, till she met you.” My sister said.

All these thoughts were going through my head. I loved Ashlynn with everything I had. I didn’t want to hurt her in the long run with the life that I live…I didn’t know what to think or what to do. Was this right?

Gem and I checked out from the market and the car ride home she knew she had upset me with the conversation she brought up.

“I didn’t mean to piss you off with the question. She’s a great girl. I love her. Don’t do anything stupid Harry. I know how you are. “ She told me…and she was right, I was stupid when things got this way in relationships.

We pulled up to the house and unloaded the groceries. Gemma walked into the house first and I waited outside and took a few minutes on the front steps to gather my thoughts. I felt a tear stroll down my cheek, the million things going through my mind killed me. The part where I was even considering breaking it off with Ashlynn at this point confused me, I could never do that. She was the one for me, wasn’t she?

“Hey baby! Your Mom sent me out here to check on you.” Her voice broke me from my thoughts.


Ashlynn’s POV.

Gemma and Harry pulled up and Anne and I could see them from the kitchen window. Harry got out of the car looking especially distraught and I was now worried.

“Mum, we’re back! Hope it’s alright I bought a whole huge box of gummy bears!” Gemma yelled to us causing us to break out in laughter as she walked into kitchen.“Hey! Don’t laugh, inside this body lives a fat girl who doesn’t give a damn!” she said causing us to laugh more.

“Oh Gem, my dear. Where’s Harry?” Anne asked her.

“Uh, well he was right behind me. He must still be outside.” She said.

“Ashlynn sweetheart will you go check on him?” she asked me motioning me to the front door to get down to the bottom of things.

I opened the front door to find Harry sitting on the front steps with his head in his hands. What was wrong with him?

“Hey baby! Your Mom sent me out here to check on you.” I told him causing him to pull his head from his hands and to rub his eyes.He sighed and said nothing to me. “Harry…what’s wrong?” I asked him as I sat down next to him on the steps. He turned his head away from me and refused to look at me in the eyes. “ Don’t be like that, talk to me.” I told him as I grabbed his hand.

“I don’t want to talk to you right now, take a hint!” He yelled at me as he pulled his hand away from mine and stood up and walked away from me.

“What the hell did I do?!” I asked him confused as I had ever been.

“Nothing! Just go back in the house. “ he demanded of me.

“Whatever Harry.” I said to him as I turned around and made my way back into the house. What the hell was wrong with him, I hated when he got like this. But this time he didn’t tell me why he was being this way. He told me to go back into the house because he was angry, I knew that. He hates when I see him angry because he is still learning how to control his anger.

I walked back into the kitchen where Anne and Gemma were setting the table for dinner.

“Where’s Harry babe?” Anne asked me.

“Uh, he’s outside. He’s angry about something and told me he didn’t want to talk to me right now and walked away. So I left him there.”I told them causing Anne to seem just as confused as I was.

“Gemma, what happened at the store?” Anne asked Gem.

“Nothing. We just got stuff.” She was lying I could tell.

“Hm well I’ll call him real quick. “ Anne said as she pulled out her phone and dialed Harry’s number. She was finishing the cupcakes and put it on speaker as it rang.

“What?” He answered. So disrespectful I swear.

“Sunshine, dinner is about to be ready. Come on in.” Anne told him.

“Mum, I’m not hungry. You all go ahead and eat. “ He told her with frustration obvious in his voice.

“Then don’t eat but you will come inside and sit at the table with us. Your beautiful girlfriend is here and Gemma came home for a few days to see you. Get your arse inside this house now Harry.” She laid down the law and I loved it. With her last words to him he hung up the phone and I knew this was going to be an interesting dinner. Interesting and long.

We heard the front door slam and heavy footsteps walk in the house. We watched Harry walk into the kitchen and I couldn’t even bare to look him in the eye. Honestly, he almost did scare me when he was angry. I knew I shouldn’t be scared of my boyfriend, but I was when he told me he even knew he had anger issues.

Dinner went by quicker than I expected and the only ones who spoke was Anne, Gemma, and I. Which was fine because I had lovely conversation getting to know them both better, which is really what I wanted to take away from the time I would be spending here over the next few days. Gemma and Harry did dishes as Anne and I packed leftovers and put them all in the fridge.

“Thank you so much for dinner Anne, it was lovely and very tasty.” I told her as I hugged her. “If y’all could excuse me, I’m going upstairs to call my Mom.” I told them as Anne smiled at me approving of my actions.

After a 20 minute conversation with my Mom about how Holmes Chapel was so far and Harry’s weird behavior we ended it and she went to sleep. Harry came into the room to see me sitting on his bed in front of my laptop. He grabbed a clean pair of briefs and made his way into the restroom. I heard the shower water turn on and considered going in there and hopping in with him but was afraid of total humiliation of him telling me to get out.

I put my PJs on and put my hair up in a messy bun, the way that Harry likes it. I walked into the restroom where he was still showering and began washing my face and thought maybe I could start some conversation.

“Hey baby, do you want to watch a movie in a bit?” I asked him. Please say something.

“No, I’m going to the bar.” The bar? Excuse me.

“Okay! Who are you going to the bar with?” I asked him. I feel like I had at least a right to know.

“Just some old friends.” He shortly said.

“Okay, well have fun!” I told him. Maybe what he needed was time away from me.

“I will.” Was all he said and it was like a dagger to my heart.

A part of me was upset for not being invited the other part of me was glad just because all I really wanted to do was go to sleep.

Harry walked out of the restroom and got dressed and ready for his night out with his “old friends” whoever the hell that was. He looked rather attractive and I had every intention of killing him with kindness and telling him.

“You look nice baby.” I told him.

“Thanks” he said shortly once again not making any eye contact with me. “Be back later” he said as he grabbed his wallet and phone from the table.

“Bye.” was all I said now upset with him.

With saying goodbye to him he left and all I wanted to do was close my eyes and go to sleep.


Harry’s POV.


Ashlynn was killing me with the kindness, she only did that when she was equally frustrated and she had every right to be. I’m not upset with her, I am but…I’m not. It’s complicated. I just didn’t want to be around her right now. It was quite sad. I made my way downstairs to see my Mum and Gemma sitting in the living room watching some girly show.

“Alright, bye.” Was all I said before I was cut off by my Mums words.

“Where do you think you’re going?” she stopped me.

‘To the bar.”

“With?” why did these women need to know everything.?

“Michael.” I told them causing Gemma to make a face.

“And Ashlynn?” Gemma asked.

“She’s going to sleep.” I told them not really knowing if that’s what she was doing or not.

“Be careful please. Call me if you need a ride.” My Mum said.

“Bye. Love you.” I told them and then left and headed to the car.

Michael was an old friend from Holmes Chapel who honestly wasn’t the best influence growing up. But hanging out with him was just what I needed, I knew when Michael was involved it was always a good time. I pulled up to the bar and walked in to see him already on his third beer flirting with anything that had boobs and a beating heart, so classy.

“STYLES! MY MAN!” he yelled at me as he noticed my presence. This was going to be a long night.

“Mike! Hey bro! How’s life?” I asked him.

“It’s almost as good as yours man! Got me a good-looking gal, a good job. Everything’s good dude!” he told me.

“What can I get you sweetheart?” Sydney the bartender who I knew very well asked me.

“ Yes Syd! You look lovely as always, will you get me 4 shots of whiskey please and 2 beers!” I told her.

“You got it babe!” she said to me giving me the smile that killed me. Sydney was 7 years older than I was but age was just a number. When I turned 18 I came to the bar with Mike and ended up having sex with Sydney that night. Granted nothing happened after that but she was something else.

“Here ya are love!” She placed the drinks in front of us.

“How’s your life Styles? That girlyfriend of yours is quite the dime.” Mike told me as if I didn’t already know.

“Yeah man, life’s good. She’s good. I’m a little upset with her right now though so doing my best not to think about it tonight.” I admitted to him.

“Well you came to the right guy then Harold. Cheers to a good night!” he said as we clinked our mugs together.

8 shots and 6 beers later my body knew it was time to stop drinking. I was so drunk at this point I couldn’t even control myself.

“So Sydney, remember that great night we had so many years ago?” I asked her reminding her how great the sex was.

“ How could I forget Harry?” she asked as she licked her lips, she was so hot. Even hotter that she would actually have sex with me, something Ashlynn wouldn’t do.

“SYD SYD SYD! I dare you to kiss Harry!” Mike shouted at us. I gave her the nod to do it and with that she came my way and we made out as Mike took a picture with my phone and setting it as my screensaver cause I knew I wouldn’t remember this night!

“Woooo! You haven’t changed Syd!” I said to her.

“And you will never change Styles, still cheating on all your girlfriends.” She said laughing at me.

Of course self consciously I felt guilty but I was way too drunk to give a fuck.

“Alright Mike, it’s been real but I’m going to go home and head to bed now! Try and get some from my girl now!” I told him as I grabbed my keys from the table.

I drunkenly drove home and stumbled into the house.


Ashlynn’s POV.

It was 2:45 in the morning and I had gotten up to use the restroom. Harry still wasn’t home and it was starting to stress me out a bit. I washed my hands and then rummaged through my suitcase to find a sweater because it was freezing in this house when I heard the front door slam open. He’s home now and he was wasted I could just hear it.

He barged into the room and was clearly shit faced.

“Did you have fun?” I asked him not even caring at his condition. I was sick and tired of his bullshit today.

“Youu didn’t neeeeed to wait upp for mee” he slurred rudely.

‘”I didn’t. I was using the restroom.” I told him as I rolled my eyes.

“Don’t roll your eyes at mee.” He yelled.

“Whatever Harry.” I told him as I climbed back into bed.

He threw his phone on the bed as before he went to the restroom when it rang when the name ‘Mike’ popped up on the screen with a photo that I had hoped I imagined.

A photo of Harry and an older woman making out with his middle finger in the air. I thought for a second it was from a long time ago till I realized he was in the same clothes as he was in now. My heart sunk into my chest and I wanted to throw up everywhere.

He walked out of the restroom seeming more sober then he was before.

“Nice screensaver. What’s her name?” was all I said.

“Whooo?” he asked confused and still drunk.

“The girl you’re making out with in your screensaver.” I told him as I threw the phone at him.

“Shit, Ashlynn…that’s Sydney. Mike daredd us. I don’t baaack down from daresss. You know meee.” He said still slurring.

“I thought I knew you.” I told him as I stood up from the bed and grabbed my phone.

“WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU GOING?” He yelled at me as he noticed I was gathering things to sleep in another room.

“I’m going to sleep somewhere else tonight. You’re drunk and I’m pissed. I can’t even look at you right now.” I told him as I made my way to the door.

“ NO! You’re STAYYYINGG!” He yelled demanding me as he grabbed my arms and threw me against the wall holding me there. Hand on each of my arms. For a second I was transported back to my relationship with Brendan.“Syd is a nice lady…she puts out.” He told me. Those words hurt me more then the hands he was squeezing me with which I knew would leave bruises tomorrow.

“HARRY LET ME GO!” I yelled at him hearing footsteps coming down the hall. Gemma and Anne busted through the door to witness something they both probably would of never expected to see.

“HARRY EDWARD STYLES! WHAT THE FUCK! LET HER GO!” Anne yelled at him causing him to sober up quicker now. Gemma came to my side as I sat on the floor in tears scared of my own love . When did we get to this point? She held me in her arms when she helped me up and led me out the door to the hallway away from Harry.

“Hang on.” I told her “I need to do something.” I said. I pulled away from her and wiped my tears. I walked back into Harry’s room where Anne was yelling at him telling him how much he fucked up and how disappointed she was in him. His eyes were on me and he was washed with guilt when he had realized what he had done.

“Ashlynn…” he began as I was grabbing my stuff from the floor. “I’m sorry…I’m so sorry. I love you so much.” He said causing a tear to stream down my face. I stood up and turned to face him and to see him crying. I hated him. In the very moment I hated him so much. I walked towards him when he put his hand out for mine when I looked at it and laughed and slapped him across the face harder than I had ever slapped anyone.

I walked out and broke down in the hallway where Gemma was waiting for me. She pulled me into her arms once again and whispered comforting words to me. Anne and Gemma led me to the guest room where I would stay tonight. After tonight I don’t know what was going to happen. I didn’t know where this left Harry and I. Tonight he turned into everything he said he would never be which scared the living shit out of me.


Harry’s POV.

I am such a fuck up.

Notes

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