Goodnight Moon.
He's dead.
Ashlynn's POV.
As soon as Kendall left the studio I packed all of my shit up and left the office with no word. I was done for today and I was pissed. Was Harry cheating on me with Kendall? God, I hope not. Did I think he was? No, of course not. Did I appreciate him trying to solve this problem that he caused? No, I wasn't. It made me look weak. And I was not weak.
I got to Harry's flat and ripped him a new one.
"Hey sweetheart? How was work?" he asked. Idiot.
"You just can't let me deal with my problems on my own, can you? You just had to but in. I was fine. It was fine. She was being nice. Then you made me all insecure in front of her. Why the hell were you even texting her Harry?" he looked scared. He should be. " Is there something else you need to tell me? No. Great. From now on let me deal with my shit. If I say 'it's all good' then it is all good." I yelled at him so much that I was out of breath when I was done yelling.
"I'm sorry. I was just trying to help." shut up.
"Well you made me look like I couldn't stand up for myself. And I fucking can Harry. I've been doing it for years!You don't see me getting into your business at work. Do you?" I threw my hands up at him.
"no..you're right. It was out of line." he quietly said.
"I know I'm right." I said as I dropped my bag on the floor and headed to the kitchen leaving him in his silence in the living room.
I was in the kitchen pouring myself some lemonade I made for myself earlier the day before when I heard the from door open.
"Where is she?" I heard Jayci ask Harry. Honestly I didn't even know she was still here.
"Is everything ok?" Harry asked her...she didn't reply. I heard her footsteps walk to where I was in the kitchen with Harry and Niall on her heels.
"Hey Jay. Want some lemonade?" I asked her.
She stood there staring at me as if she had seen a ghost. Something was wrong.
"Jayci...what's going on?" I asked her now scared. She looked at the ground before she looked back up at me.
"It's your dad..." her words cut. "He killed himself last night."
I laughed at her realzing she must have been majorly joking.
"No really..what's going on?" I asked her. There had to be something else.
"Ashlynn" she began as she grabbed my hands. "I'm not kidding. Your sister tried calling you..but couldn't get a hold of you...so she called me."
"Oh." is all I said before I fell to the floor and felt my eyes fill with tears. Harry was quick to my side and pulled me into his arms. I felt nothing.
Hearing about my Dad committing suicide sent me into an emotional roller coaster. I was relieved..for his sake. I was upset at his selfishness. I was mad, I was hurt...he was still my father no matter how much he despised me. The dark dark hole I was in 5 months ago..was now waiting for me to crawl back in it.
He was gone. He left me. Did he not love me enough to stay?
As soon as Kendall left the studio I packed all of my shit up and left the office with no word. I was done for today and I was pissed. Was Harry cheating on me with Kendall? God, I hope not. Did I think he was? No, of course not. Did I appreciate him trying to solve this problem that he caused? No, I wasn't. It made me look weak. And I was not weak.
I got to Harry's flat and ripped him a new one.
"Hey sweetheart? How was work?" he asked. Idiot.
"You just can't let me deal with my problems on my own, can you? You just had to but in. I was fine. It was fine. She was being nice. Then you made me all insecure in front of her. Why the hell were you even texting her Harry?" he looked scared. He should be. " Is there something else you need to tell me? No. Great. From now on let me deal with my shit. If I say 'it's all good' then it is all good." I yelled at him so much that I was out of breath when I was done yelling.
"I'm sorry. I was just trying to help." shut up.
"Well you made me look like I couldn't stand up for myself. And I fucking can Harry. I've been doing it for years!You don't see me getting into your business at work. Do you?" I threw my hands up at him.
"no..you're right. It was out of line." he quietly said.
"I know I'm right." I said as I dropped my bag on the floor and headed to the kitchen leaving him in his silence in the living room.
I was in the kitchen pouring myself some lemonade I made for myself earlier the day before when I heard the from door open.
"Where is she?" I heard Jayci ask Harry. Honestly I didn't even know she was still here.
"Is everything ok?" Harry asked her...she didn't reply. I heard her footsteps walk to where I was in the kitchen with Harry and Niall on her heels.
"Hey Jay. Want some lemonade?" I asked her.
She stood there staring at me as if she had seen a ghost. Something was wrong.
"Jayci...what's going on?" I asked her now scared. She looked at the ground before she looked back up at me.
"It's your dad..." her words cut. "He killed himself last night."
I laughed at her realzing she must have been majorly joking.
"No really..what's going on?" I asked her. There had to be something else.
"Ashlynn" she began as she grabbed my hands. "I'm not kidding. Your sister tried calling you..but couldn't get a hold of you...so she called me."
"Oh." is all I said before I fell to the floor and felt my eyes fill with tears. Harry was quick to my side and pulled me into his arms. I felt nothing.
Hearing about my Dad committing suicide sent me into an emotional roller coaster. I was relieved..for his sake. I was upset at his selfishness. I was mad, I was hurt...he was still my father no matter how much he despised me. The dark dark hole I was in 5 months ago..was now waiting for me to crawl back in it.
He was gone. He left me. Did he not love me enough to stay?
Notes
Short chapter before I go to bed. Happy New Year y'all! <3
Wow you are doing really good with the story! I love this story and hope you keep doing an awesome job of writing it!
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