Ashlynn's POV.

Not 3 hours after I had fallen asleep Harry had woken me up from a nightmare. I haven't had a nightmare since that first night I stayed at his house after my attack. But this time, it was a different nightmare. It felt more real than anything I had ever felt before.

"Are you alright?" He asked me. I just nodded my head.

"Want to talk about it?" I then shook my head no.

"I think I'm just going to go sit outside for a bit." I told him as I got out of bed.

"Do you want me to go with you?" He asked me. After the dream I just had. He was honestly the last person I wanted to see.

"No. Just go back to bed. I'm fine." I said to him as I put his sweatshirt and my socks on.

"Ohkay..if you need me come get me though. I want you to be ohkay." He told me as he sat up and leaned in kissing my forehead causing me to warm up. I nodded my head as I walked out of the door grabbing my phone and walking downstairs to the porch that looked out to the lake.

I sat down in the swing on the porch and sat there and thought about the thoughts I had in my head at this point. I heard footsteps and the door open when I saw Sophia walk outside and sit with me.

"Hey, can't sleep either?" she asked me as she had a hot tea in each hand.

"Nope. Bad dream." I told her as she handed me a tea.

"Want to talk about it?" she asked me. At first I was hesitant to the thought but maybe I did need to talk about it with someone.

"When Harry and I layed down tonight he told me about this PR stunt that management had him pull..he apparently had to take Kendall Jenner out to lunch and walk back with her to the studio..he told me it's all work. And I believe him. I trust him. Ya know? But I don't trust her. And I feel like there's something he isn't telling me. But he says he's told me everything. Then he told me that we had to stay private..which basically implies that I can never leave my house ever again. " I told her as she began to laugh at my last words.

"So what was the dream about?" she asked now pushing me forward.

"It was that he left me for Kendall...that I wasn't good enough for him. That our lifestyles didn't match up and there's did. I know that might be silly. But I didn't realize how much self doubt I had in my relationship with Harry till I woke up and actually started believing that it might be true? Is that wrong?" I asked her now teary eyed.

"I don't think so...that's how I was when I first started dating Liam. People were constantly comparing me to his ex, Danielle and since I don't take the best candid shots..I look mean in all the pictures that were released to the public. I mean I understand it ya know? Like why they wanted her to be with him instead of me. But what they don't realize is that we are all friends. Danielle and Liam just didn't work, they both know that. I respect her and love her. I've been friends with her for years but at first I was so insecure in our relationship. Eventually Liam had to tell me to stop listening to everyone else, and to listen to him. Yeah I worry...I worry that some other girl is going to come around and throw herself at him and he will get caught up in it. But I don't worry about him going out and intentionally cheating on me, ya know? He loves me. He wouldn't do that. You have to remember that most everything you see on the tabloids are never 100% true. But people would kill to see Harry break your heart. That's the truth. But if he really care's about you. He will make it work." she told me. She was so right in every way. I needed to trust Harry till he gave me a reason not to.

"Yeah..you're right. I just don't want to be his dirty secret ya know?" I told her now confessing my true fear.

"I understand..Liam wanted to keep us private at first to protect me but I eventually told him "Uh no. I want to be able to go out to the grocery store with you and to the movies with you. I'm not doing that." and we went public.I mean he didn't announce it to the world but he stopped hiding me away. I also had to remind him that I could take care of myself. I'm a big girl. Don't get me wrong I still have my weak moments of self pity when I check Twitter and read all the hate but I do my best to avoid it. You should to. " she was now telling me. Twitter. I didn't even think about that. Twitter knew everything.

" I wonder what they're saying about me." I told her totally curious.

"Check, just stay strong." she said as I pulled my phone out.

At first I went to my mentions and there were only a few. People didn't realize who I was yet. Then I went and searched Harry and pictures of El, Lou, him , and I showed up from the other night. I kept scrolling when I saw a picture of just me from the grocery store that said "Mystery Girl?!" on it. I just never understood why people cared so much. I kept scrolling up when I saw a photo that stopped me in my tracks and almost made me sick to my stomach. A picture of Harry and Kendall leaving the hotel in New York with his arm wrapped around her back and her head leaned into his chest..I knew it was all fake..but it looked so real.

"Find anything?" Sophia asked me as I was looking at the picture. I showed her which led her to laugh and say.." I hate that girl."

"Why do you hate her?" I asked now all my attention brought to her.

"She's so full of it. She seems so nice and kind and caring and don't get me wrong, you will totally fall for it..THEN BOOM! SNAP, she pounces. You can even ask El, she will say something. You just can't trust her. If she sees something that she wants she will go after it and won't stop till she gets it. That's just Kendall. I mean yeah...she's beautiful and is a great model and her sisters are fantastic but not her...she's just kind of mean. It's quite immature actually." she told me. All I know is she better stay away from Harry.

I refocused my attention on my phone and kept scrolling through more pictures when I saw another photo that made me want to throw up. A photo of her and Harry holding hands. She was smiling up at him and he was looking back down at her. A part of my heart broke.When a single tear ran down my cheek.

"Remember Ash, it isn't real." Sophia said as she put her hand on my shoulder.

"I know..but he didn't even do that with me when we left the office the other day..he left me there to fend for myself. He didn't even try protecting me and we are real..." I told her now with my head in my hands.

"I'm sorry. Maybe you should talk to him about it?" she suggested. A part of me wanted to go upstairs right now and throw my phone at him but I couldn't do that. It would just upset him.

"oh my god, I'm going to look like such a home wrecker. When this whole thing blows over. Mystery girl comes out of the shadows and says surprise it was me all along. Everyone is going to hate me." I now said to her in realization.

"Probably..but don't forget that your true friends know the truth and that's all that matters." she told me and she was right. But it was going to be hard.

"I know..thanks." I told her as I looked back out to the water.

"You're welcome love. I'm going to go back to bed. You ok out here? Need anything?" she asked me being the good friend she was.

"No, I'm ohkay thanks." I told her as she nodded and walked back inside leaving me with my thoughts about Harry.

I was scared. Kendall didn't scare me. Harry getting caught up in a moment with Kendall scared me.

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