
You & I
Chapter 19
Sammy p.o.v
I stayed like that.
My eyes closed and slightly parted lips.
My body not moving.
Why did I let him kiss me? Now I'm once again left alone craving for his kiss.
But I let him go.
Yes but....Argg. I don't know what's going on anymore.
It's so confusing.
But I can't blame Harry for any of it cause I'm the one who asked him to leave.
What's wrong with me.
I decided to brush those thoughts away and go back to walking. A couple of cars stopped by me as I was walking but I ignored them and kept on going. Met a couple perverts along the way but I just kept looking straight my feet only moving forward.
As I walked a bit further I noticed a car that been driving around me for a while. I started increasing my pace but stopped when I heard a voice I haven't heard in a long time call my name.
I turned around looking everywhere to see who that voice belonged to. Was that really him?
No it can't be. He left a long time ago. But people do come back.
But it can't be him. If it was him he wouldn't even acknowledge me. Not after what I said to him the last day we saw each other.
Then the guilt started to sink in. I put my head down and kept on walking ignoring his calls. I didn't want to face him looking like this and certainly not after what I said to him the last time we spoke. I mean sure there's the whole Sky thing but that didn't affect as much as it did Harry. After all...he could've been the father of that child.
" Hey Sammy wait up." He said as he tapped me on my shoulder.
I turned around to face a pair of beautiful blue eyes I haven't seen in just a little over 8 months.
" Hey." He said a bit shyly.
" Hey." I whispered my eyes never once leaving his.
We stood there our eyes on each other but our minds a thousand mile away. I wanted to apologize for what I'd said but I didn't know where to start.
Author p.o.v
Niall and Sammy stood there, no one saying a word. Each wanting to apologize for the way that they had acted when they last saw each other but neither one of them knowing where to start. Their heart's unknowingly beating at the same pace as they stared into each others eyes thinking back at their last interaction.
* Flashback*
"Hey," Niall said with a smile happy to see Sammy.
"What are you doing here Niall?" Sammy asked unfortunately not feeling the same feelings as Niall was, her face masked with an ugly frown.
Niall quickly dropped his smile as he saw the expression on her face and the lack of 'excitement', " I came to talk. Is that alright?" He carefully asked not wanting to upset her more than she already was.
"I guess. Come in," She invited him to sit on the couch with her. "What is it?" She asked sternly.
"I want to talk about us," Niall whispered so lightly as if not wanting to be heard but was heard. Sammy rage grew even more as the word 'us' escaped Niall thin pink lips.
"There is no us Niall! Harry cheated on me! I'm done with relationships!" She yelled still hurt by what she'd been told about Harry and Sky.
"Samantha, you cheated on him too!" Niall yelled right back shocked by her choice of words.
"Ya, you don't need to remind me of that mistake!" She yelled slowly pacing around the room as she ran her fingers through her hair.
"Mistake? You consider that a mistake?" He said to her but mostly to himself outraged by the fact that she felt no feelings what-so-ever for him when he felt the world for her.
Scared of the feeling that she had felt for Niall when they shared a bed together, she said the words she knew would push him away so she won't have to feel a certain emotion she only wanted to feel by someone who just broke her heart,
"It was! I wish we never had sex!" She yelled at him not really meaning every word she said. It feels like she just jammed a knife into my heart.
"You don't mean that," He whispered a part of him wishing that she didn't which she didn't in fact feel but had to say to mask the scared part of reliving that feeling.
"You're acting like a bitch! What's wrong Niall was I your first time? Probably because you're not even hot! You don't belong in the band!" It feels like she was turning the knife to make Niall suffer even more than he already was he believed that she didn't care for him.
"You don't deserve my love nor Harry's love. I can't believe Sky was actually friends with you!" He yelled before running out of her house. He get into his car and drove back home. As he pulled up in front of the house he saw Louis and some girl kissing right outside the house. Tears unknowingly started to fall as images of him and Sammy ran through his mind but the once memorable memory turned into passionate hate as her words ran through his head.
'There is no us' Her voice kept saying.
He pulled right back out of the drive way and drove to the nearest club.
* End Flashback*
( Still author p.o.v) " I'm sorry." Sammy said looking down at her shoes too ashamed to look Niall straight in the eye.
" For what?" He asked knowingly full well what she was talking about but wanted to hear the words come out her mouth.
" Everything I said to you...8 months ago." She answered her eyes still down on her shoes that covered her aching feet from all of the walking that she had been doing for the past hour or so.
" It's fine. I think we've both had our fair share of excuses. I got your best friend pregnant so, I think we're even now." Niall said with a smile hopeful to make it less tense and awkward then it already was. Sammy chuckled at his comment but agreed to let it go, not wanting to add to the stress and guilt than she was already feeling. But as she thought more about it she remembered Sky. If Niall was back that meant so was she. She quickly looked up as an all too familiar voice spoke in front of her. And to her surprise there she was.
" Hi" Sky spoke as she shifted uncomfortably rubbing her hands over her big belly.
Sammy wanted to scream and cry or even hit her but couldn't find the strength to do any of it when her eyes laid on Sky's stomach. All the hurt that she felt kept rising and yet seemed to never be there at the same time.She felt happy for Sky yet hated her for what she'd done. Not knowing how to approach the situation she said the only thing that she'd been feeling ever since she'd learned about Sky and Harry.
" I hate you." She said before turning back around and leaving. It was a simple as that.
She fought back the tears as she heard the please and apologetic cries of her best friend behind her. She placed one hand on the wall to steady herself as she walked. Her breath increased by the seconds, the palms of her hands were getting sweaty although there was no heat and the aching soreness of her feet were no match compared to the hurt that she felt in her heart.
She kept walking not really not noticing or paying attention to what was going on around her but stopped when she heard tired screech then a loud bang! She turned around to find Niall's car upside down while the other car was starting to burn in flames.
She quickly rushed to Niall car not knowing what to do. As people nearby started to call the police she hurried over to Sky seat and took a deep breath before punching the window glass. Ignoring the pain that she felt she quickly unlocked Sky's door and carefully yet firmly took Sky out the sit.She stared crying as she noticed the blood streaming down Sky legs.
The baby, she kept thinking.
She took a couple deep breaths before calling the one person she knew would help.
" Harry!" She yelled into the phone as soon as he answered.
" Yes. Sammy are you okay?" He managed to say before Sammy started to explain what happened in between breaths and tears.
" Okay I'll be right there." He answered as soon as she finished.
Sammy put her phone next to her on the floor as she slowly started to rock back and forth with tears in her eyes, Sky's bloody body in her arms.
" Please stay with me. Please stay with me. I didn't mean it please Sky stay with me. Your baby needs you. Niall needs you."
" I need you." Sammy kept saying as she slowly saw the life being sucked out of Sky's body.
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3/14/15