( Listen to say something by Christina Aguilera & a great big world.*repeat)

Samy p.o.v

"Harry you were my first love and still are." I said with crying even more than I was before.

"WELL IF YOU NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME THEN WHY DID YOU LEAVE WHEN I BEGGED YOU TO STAY?" He said yelling in face.

"Harry I--"

"IF YOU REALLY LOVED ME, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE LEFT ME." He yelled again cutting me off.

I can't believe this. Is he really blaming me for what he did? Yes I left him but he looked for it. He slept with my best friend for God's sake. And now his trying to blame me for leaving him?

"YOU SLEPT WITH MY BEST FRIEND YOU DOUCH OF COURSE I LEFT YOU." I yelled back at him as I watched him get up and put his clothes back on.

"YOU CAN'T BLAME ME FOR SOMETHING YOU DID." I kept yelling at him.

"Well I apologized didn't I ?!" He said a bit more softly as he put his shirt on.

"JUST BECAUSE YOU APOLOGIZED DOESN'T MEAN I FORGIVE YOU HARRY. I...I." I started saying but was out of loss of words due to my heaving breathing and my tears just kept me from getting anything out at all.

"You you what? You love me? IS THAT WHAT YOU WERE GOING TO SAY?THAT YOU LOVE ME? CAUSE SLEEPING WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE WHEN YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND IS NOT LOVE IS CALLED CHEATING." He said yelling in my face as he knelt down in front of me on the floor.

"And you are a little slut if you knew you had a boyfriend when you threw yourself at me." He whispered to me. His voice was soft but his words...

I slapped him as soon as those words left his mouth.

He didn't even acknowledge the fact that I just slapped him. He gave me a smile before he got up and put on his shoes.

"Don't you ever say that to me again." I said with tears in face.

"Why? Is the truth too painful to hear?" He said with a smile on his face, not seeming to feel the effect of my hand on his cheek.

"You know Harry, is funny you say that when you did the exact to me. Sleeping with Sky when you had me." I said as he reached the door.

At this point I was sitting on the edge of the bed and Harry was at my bedroom door with our back's faced to each other. We stayed like this for quite some time before he finally spoke.

"And you had me when you slept with Niall." He finally said.

"I didn't. I had nothing when I slept with him." I said truthfully to him.

And is true. I had nothing when I slept with Niall. My boyfriend was already lost in the arms of another girl so I had nothing.

We stayed like this for what seemed like forever, neither of us saying anything. Not that we didn't have anything to say, cause trust me we had plenty to say. We just couldn't find the courage nor did we had the energy to say what needed to be said.

It was as if I could hear the world laugh and play around us but we weren't part of it. Is like we were doomed to our pain and sadness and no one could save us. Like we were chained to be miserable and feel the hurt of our past that we've left in our past but had come back to haunt us in our dreams. Like we were animals fighting to be free to gain the love we knew we couldn't have.

More tears streamed down my face as the events of our past & recent encountering that Harry & I have shared over the past year.

How coukd this happen? How did we go from being the two most happiest people on the world to the most hurt and broken. They say stick and stones hurt less than a broken but don't anyone dare say that a broken heart hurt less than a broken bone cause it's not true.

A broken bone can heal but not a broken heart. You can fix it but...it'll never be the same. You will never love the same way that you did before because you wouldn't want the same things to happen again.

The silence was thick and laid very heavy in the air. And neither of us dare to break it. We could hear the children laughing outside as they ran back home from somewhere they weren't supposed to be. You could hear the orchestra of honks and tires of cars resonating through the traffic that performed outside my apartment.

As annoying as those sounds usually were, today they were different. Today they seemed to play the chorus of love. The chorus of broken hearts & unforgiving minds. Today they played the bells of hate, confusion and passion all mixed in one. Today they played the bells of a sad song.

And that song was Harry's & I song.

It was our song.

"I'm sorry." He said to me with tears in his eyes and pain in his voice.

I wanted him to leave yet I longed for him to stay. I wanted to scream and hit his chest yet I wanted him to hold me in his arms and sing to me like he used to.

But nothing came.

I just sat there and kept looking at visuals of us in my head.

"Please...say something" He said this time with more pain.

But I just couldn't.

Even if I did say something, what would/should I say? We were too broken for me to say anything that might bring us back together. So I sat there and did nothing to help us.

Just like he had done with our relationship.

Notes

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Aaliyah (Harryfanficlovehazza)