I Understand. An AU/punk story.
Cheers To That
I lay there for a while listening to him breathe. I was upset that Harry was so disappointed and mad. but every time I tried to explain myself he would just ignore me. It hurt....
But as much as Harry's emotions conflicted me, his words did ten times more.... Party girl? Drugs? He doesn't know me? Well I guess that made two of us because I didn't know myself either...
"Harry?"
Silence.
"Please don't ignore me." I sniffled, not finding the courage to look at him.
Silence.
"I'm sorry..."
And then I fell asleep waiting for him to break the silence...
-
"Lilian, wake up." I groaned but kept my eyes shut. I knew opening them would give em an instant headache. I was in hang over town again. "I mean it, five more minutes, lets go." Harry said monotone. I listened to his feet pad the floor as he left to the kitchen; where I heard Perri and Rae talking. They let out little screams and dropped something as he appeared from my bedroom. Apologies were exchanged, they must not of known he was here. Not long after, their voices grew to whispers.
I groaned and got out of bed, being quick to get dressed.
http://www.polyvore.com/lillian/set?id=106054123
When I was ready I as quietly as I could peeked my head through my door and made my way to the corner of the wall that stood between my hallway and the open kitchen.
"Well what do you expect us to do about it! She wont listen she never does!" Rae whispers harshly.
"You're her best friends, it's your job to figure it out." Harry hisses in reply.
"Oh, now that you don't know what to do shes our problem?!" Perri adds. Her problem?
"She isn't my responsibility anymore and I'm sick of pretending that she is! I don't want the rest of my life to involve saving her ass!" He retorts.
So that's how they felt about me? I was their problem. Their chore. Well I was done with that. I flew out from behind the corner and past the kitchen, their heads flew up and they sat there in horror as I zipped to the front door.
"Lily, wait!" Harry yelled after me, but he wasn't convincing me. I had enough problems in my life and now I find out my best friends and the first love of my life practically hate me. Like I was going to listen to his bullshit apologies. Hell, to the no!
As soon as I got in the elevator and pressed ground he was coming from the apartment door. I didn't look at him but he missed the close of the metal doors by a literal mili second.
When the button chimed I jogged through the lobby and out the double doors and out on the sidewalk. I stopped and took a deep breath. If he caught me he I would have to face him. I needed to take a break, I needed to get away.
I shot my head left and then right, contemplating which route to take. My eyes fell on the alley to the right of the building, I turned and ran, just as I was going around the corner I heard the thud of the building doors open in front of Harry. When I got to the alley I realized how long it was, and he still had his car...
My mind went to instinct and I ran to the large green garbage cube can and kneeled behind it, hiding myself from his view. He came around the corner not three seconds later. When he didn't see me ahead he slips the F bomb and turns on his heels, heading towards his car.
After his black car speeds off I get up and start walking. Now where the fuck was I gonna go? After my feet carried me quite some blocks,I plopped down on to the curb, slumping my head in my hands. Where to now?
I didn't want to call any of my friends for help, I wasn't in the mood for the lectures. Pulling out my cell I dialed the number I was looking for.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Jess, It's Lily. Are you hitting up any parties tonight?"
Jess was a girl I had been partying with for a few weeks, she was an animal and way to obnoxious for my liking but I couldn't just sit here. After making our plans and waiting about another
twenty minutes she pulled up next to me in her little pick up truck.
"Get in, bitch!" She laughed.
Hopefully I could just have fun tonight. I hadn't in way to long.
-
"AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE, NO NO NO LISTEN, YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE, JESSICA?" I shouted over our insane laughing. "HARRY IS SO FUNNY!"
"You're funny to, babe!" She snickered.
"He's funnier, and he's much more beautiful then me!" I started drunk sobbing, making her crawl over to me and give me a hug.
"I'm sure Harry is ugly. Now stop crying, lets PAR TAY!" She shouted in my face. I whooped back and we continued our drinking.
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Holy shiiiiiiiit. Everything is white and floaty. Floaty? Yeah, fucking floaty! Every where I look the walls spin and flip, my hair is trashed on my face. Fucking floaty.
It's a huge struggle to even lift my head, so I drop it down and count to about one hundred, after that I slowly lift it and look around. The fuck?
There are people every where. Like every where. On the couch, the floor, the table, the counter top. I don't know who's house I'm in or when I fell asleep. I'm laying on a pop out window bench, face down, sleepy winkers and crud on my eyes and face. After slowly urging myself up, and tip toe around the sleeping strangers i wander the house until I find a bathroom.
Taking a deep swallow I look at my reflection. I have huge bags under my eyes, a few hickeys on my neck and my face is as white as a ghost. My phone starts buzzing and I pull it form my shorts pocket.
Incoming Call: Niall!!!!(:
I press the green phone and take a seat on the edge of the bath tub.
"Hello?" My voice is low and it cracks. I even sound like shit.
"Oh my god, where the fuck are you?" Niall whispered in to the phone.
"Umm, thats a good question." I trail off.
"Is that here?" I hear in the back ground of Niall's call. Uh oh, Harold. "Shut up, Harry, Lily where are you?" Niall snaps I panic for a second.
"Why?" I mumble.
"So we can come get you!!" He says in disbelief. "Way to fucking go! Give it to me!" Harry shouts i the background. I hang up right away and let out a big sigh. Fuck my life. I scroll down my phone and find my something on the Gallery Icon. I click in to my pictures.....
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=106059991
Well then.
Next I go in to the full voice mail, missed calls, and undread texts.
Harry: Where are you?
Harry: PLease call me I'm worried.
Harry: LILIAN CALL ME
And about twelve more.
Perri: Hey!!!
Perri: You're being a baby, please stop!
Perri: Lily answer us, everyone is freaking out!!!!!!!
Ten more.
Louis: Hey, L, Niall called, asking if I knew where you were. Whats up?
Louis: Hey, please answer. I guess no one knows where you are.
Louis: I didn't do anything; don't make me the bad guy!
Thirteen more.
A knock sounded on the bathroom door, snapping me back in to reality. I got up and opened, revealing Jess.
"Morning, how are you?" She asks sleepily.
"OK, I guess." I stammer.
"You were pretty good for your first rager!" She said with a wink, before she went to the sink to wash her face.
"Rager?"
"Yeah, drinks, drugs, sex, the whole nine yards." She said between splashes of water. "You in again tonight? Other side of town?"
I looked back at my phone.
Incoming Call: Hazza!
Clicking off I looked back at my reflection, my cheeks were flushed slightly and my hair was a mess.
I had never felt so completely bare. Almost as if nothing was wrong. I felt almost free from the stress and drama of my life. As if it almost all never happened.
"Fuck Yeah."
But as much as Harry's emotions conflicted me, his words did ten times more.... Party girl? Drugs? He doesn't know me? Well I guess that made two of us because I didn't know myself either...
"Harry?"
Silence.
"Please don't ignore me." I sniffled, not finding the courage to look at him.
Silence.
"I'm sorry..."
And then I fell asleep waiting for him to break the silence...
-
"Lilian, wake up." I groaned but kept my eyes shut. I knew opening them would give em an instant headache. I was in hang over town again. "I mean it, five more minutes, lets go." Harry said monotone. I listened to his feet pad the floor as he left to the kitchen; where I heard Perri and Rae talking. They let out little screams and dropped something as he appeared from my bedroom. Apologies were exchanged, they must not of known he was here. Not long after, their voices grew to whispers.
I groaned and got out of bed, being quick to get dressed.
http://www.polyvore.com/lillian/set?id=106054123
When I was ready I as quietly as I could peeked my head through my door and made my way to the corner of the wall that stood between my hallway and the open kitchen.
"Well what do you expect us to do about it! She wont listen she never does!" Rae whispers harshly.
"You're her best friends, it's your job to figure it out." Harry hisses in reply.
"Oh, now that you don't know what to do shes our problem?!" Perri adds. Her problem?
"She isn't my responsibility anymore and I'm sick of pretending that she is! I don't want the rest of my life to involve saving her ass!" He retorts.
So that's how they felt about me? I was their problem. Their chore. Well I was done with that. I flew out from behind the corner and past the kitchen, their heads flew up and they sat there in horror as I zipped to the front door.
"Lily, wait!" Harry yelled after me, but he wasn't convincing me. I had enough problems in my life and now I find out my best friends and the first love of my life practically hate me. Like I was going to listen to his bullshit apologies. Hell, to the no!
As soon as I got in the elevator and pressed ground he was coming from the apartment door. I didn't look at him but he missed the close of the metal doors by a literal mili second.
When the button chimed I jogged through the lobby and out the double doors and out on the sidewalk. I stopped and took a deep breath. If he caught me he I would have to face him. I needed to take a break, I needed to get away.
I shot my head left and then right, contemplating which route to take. My eyes fell on the alley to the right of the building, I turned and ran, just as I was going around the corner I heard the thud of the building doors open in front of Harry. When I got to the alley I realized how long it was, and he still had his car...
My mind went to instinct and I ran to the large green garbage cube can and kneeled behind it, hiding myself from his view. He came around the corner not three seconds later. When he didn't see me ahead he slips the F bomb and turns on his heels, heading towards his car.
After his black car speeds off I get up and start walking. Now where the fuck was I gonna go? After my feet carried me quite some blocks,I plopped down on to the curb, slumping my head in my hands. Where to now?
I didn't want to call any of my friends for help, I wasn't in the mood for the lectures. Pulling out my cell I dialed the number I was looking for.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Jess, It's Lily. Are you hitting up any parties tonight?"
Jess was a girl I had been partying with for a few weeks, she was an animal and way to obnoxious for my liking but I couldn't just sit here. After making our plans and waiting about another
twenty minutes she pulled up next to me in her little pick up truck.
"Get in, bitch!" She laughed.
Hopefully I could just have fun tonight. I hadn't in way to long.
-
"AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE, NO NO NO LISTEN, YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE, JESSICA?" I shouted over our insane laughing. "HARRY IS SO FUNNY!"
"You're funny to, babe!" She snickered.
"He's funnier, and he's much more beautiful then me!" I started drunk sobbing, making her crawl over to me and give me a hug.
"I'm sure Harry is ugly. Now stop crying, lets PAR TAY!" She shouted in my face. I whooped back and we continued our drinking.
------------------------------------
Holy shiiiiiiiit. Everything is white and floaty. Floaty? Yeah, fucking floaty! Every where I look the walls spin and flip, my hair is trashed on my face. Fucking floaty.
It's a huge struggle to even lift my head, so I drop it down and count to about one hundred, after that I slowly lift it and look around. The fuck?
There are people every where. Like every where. On the couch, the floor, the table, the counter top. I don't know who's house I'm in or when I fell asleep. I'm laying on a pop out window bench, face down, sleepy winkers and crud on my eyes and face. After slowly urging myself up, and tip toe around the sleeping strangers i wander the house until I find a bathroom.
Taking a deep swallow I look at my reflection. I have huge bags under my eyes, a few hickeys on my neck and my face is as white as a ghost. My phone starts buzzing and I pull it form my shorts pocket.
Incoming Call: Niall!!!!(:
I press the green phone and take a seat on the edge of the bath tub.
"Hello?" My voice is low and it cracks. I even sound like shit.
"Oh my god, where the fuck are you?" Niall whispered in to the phone.
"Umm, thats a good question." I trail off.
"Is that here?" I hear in the back ground of Niall's call. Uh oh, Harold. "Shut up, Harry, Lily where are you?" Niall snaps I panic for a second.
"Why?" I mumble.
"So we can come get you!!" He says in disbelief. "Way to fucking go! Give it to me!" Harry shouts i the background. I hang up right away and let out a big sigh. Fuck my life. I scroll down my phone and find my something on the Gallery Icon. I click in to my pictures.....
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=106059991
Well then.
Next I go in to the full voice mail, missed calls, and undread texts.
Harry: Where are you?
Harry: PLease call me I'm worried.
Harry: LILIAN CALL ME
And about twelve more.
Perri: Hey!!!
Perri: You're being a baby, please stop!
Perri: Lily answer us, everyone is freaking out!!!!!!!
Ten more.
Louis: Hey, L, Niall called, asking if I knew where you were. Whats up?
Louis: Hey, please answer. I guess no one knows where you are.
Louis: I didn't do anything; don't make me the bad guy!
Thirteen more.
A knock sounded on the bathroom door, snapping me back in to reality. I got up and opened, revealing Jess.
"Morning, how are you?" She asks sleepily.
"OK, I guess." I stammer.
"You were pretty good for your first rager!" She said with a wink, before she went to the sink to wash her face.
"Rager?"
"Yeah, drinks, drugs, sex, the whole nine yards." She said between splashes of water. "You in again tonight? Other side of town?"
I looked back at my phone.
Incoming Call: Hazza!
Clicking off I looked back at my reflection, my cheeks were flushed slightly and my hair was a mess.
I had never felt so completely bare. Almost as if nothing was wrong. I felt almost free from the stress and drama of my life. As if it almost all never happened.
"Fuck Yeah."
Notes
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