I Understand. An AU/punk story.

Her eyes widen as she sees me waking my way to her once more. Morgan jumps back as I go after Carissa again. My anger blinding me. I hear Harry and Martin yelling at each other as Niall and Zayn attempt to pull them apart. Perri and Rae let me go after her, not even trying to stop me.

I swing at her once more, her head snaps to the side and she stumbles back. She turns to run but I grab a hold of her hair and rip back with all of my strength. Carisa falls to her ass but before I can get down and start throwing punches arms encircle my waist and yank me up.

I scream like an animal as I claw the owners arms and reach down for the slut bag on the cement below my feet. Harry and Martin have now begun shoving each other. Rae and Perri and Morgan are screaming at each other. Niall and Zayn look between their girls and Harry, trying to decide who to fight next. I look down at the arms holding me and realize they belong to Liam.

"EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I flinch at Lauren's huge voice. Everyone freezes. I go limp as Liam's massive arms keep me extended in air. "MORGAN GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE. BRING THE SLUT!" I scream like an animal once more as Carissa begins to run off with the stupid brunette.

"GET BACK HERE!" I screech, wriggling like crazy to break his grip so I can reach her and ruin her face beyond fix.

Harry's P.O.V.

I shove martin out of the way and try to calm her down, but you know who shoves me back. My head snaps up and I grab his shoulder, ripping him away from her.

"Don't you fucking touch her!" I spit, standing in between the two of them.

"You don't fucking touch her! This is all your god damn fault!"

"Oh shut your damn mouth! You don't know shit about this or me or her!" I snarl. I want nothing more than to just punch him in the face but I know she wouldn't forgive me. I hear some shouting but I don't pay mind. A hand clasps my shoulder and I turn to see Zayn.

"I know you fucking treat her like shit! I know she deserves better than you!" He sneers. Niall puts a hand on his chest, as our bodies are sizing each other up, he looks like a freaking baby in front of me but he sure doesn't feel like one.

"Oh really? As in you? Guess what, SHE'S NEVER GOING TO FUCKING BE YOURS! SHES MINE AND WE ALL FUCKING KNOW IT!" My hands twitch, begging to let me send them flying to his smug face.

"AND LOOK HOW HAPPY SHE IS BEING YOURS! FUCKING LOOK AT HER!" He shoves me and I press my nails in to my palms, my chest burns with anger. More yelling commences and I shove him back harder.

"You keep you damn mouth shut about her!" I hiss.

"EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I snap my head up and find Lauren seething. I look to where I left Lilian standing but find it empty. I have a fit of panic until I look up and see her in Liam's arms. Carissa is on the sidewalk at her feet, cradling her head. "MORGAN GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE, BRING THE SKANK!" I sigh in relief as Morgan and Carissa finally fucking leave. I frown as Lilian begins to squirm again, panic in her clear eyes as her number one enemy begins to get away.

"GET BACK HERE!" She screams, reaching her lioness claws out. Liam furrows his brows and does his best to hold the thrashing girl in his arms. Waves of guilt wash over me as I study her face; I knew she was using her anger to mask the obvious hurt in her eyes.

"Harry would you control her?!" Lauren brings me back to earth and I quickly make my way in to her vision. She flinches when she sees me and instantly beings pushing in to Liam's chest to put space between us, I reach for her and he begins the hand off until Martin comes out of no where, grabs my shoulder and rips me back.

"I said don't touch her!" He yells, reaching for her as I stumble back.

This kid really had a death wish.

I grab his shoulders and rip him back. He's about to fall until Zayn catches him. I take Lilian from Liam and wrap my arms around her, crushing her to my chest.

Lily's P.O.V.

"Get the fuck away from me!" I scream, slapping his chest. He is the LAST person I want right now. I can't stop hearing her words in my head. 'he screamed my name that night.' My eyes mist lightly, it's something no one would notice if they looked at me. But Harry is not a no one, and he picks it up right away, cupping my cheeks so I'm forced to look up at him.

"Just relax, it's OK. Shes gone." His breath tickles my face and I screw my eyes shut. Is it weird I just feel like crying? Because I do. I now start to notice the dull ache in my knuckles. Whimpering I bring them to my vision and take in the mix of my blood and Carissa's on my skin, the clumps of blonde hair stuck to it.

I hear Martin yelling at him, but Harry's friends keep him at by so we could have a moment.

"Ohmygod! Lily are you OK?" Rae squeals, quickly coming to my side. I nod and bow my head, inspecting my hands, trying to ignore Harry's hands and intense gaze on me.

"Oh my god, look at your hands." Perri breathes. My face blushes and my adrenaline and anger slowly diminish.

Harry snaps his head in her direction and I can only imagine the glare he gives her. They quickly scurry off and Lauren takes their place.

"You should bring her home, get her cleaned off..... You two need to work your shit out anyways." She huffs, stalking off.

I really didn't want to go anywhere with Harry.

I wanted to freaking go home and feel bad for myself and grieve my failed relationship.

BUt he had other plans. He hooks an arm around my waist and begins to drag me towards his car until Martin calls me.

"Lily, wait! You dont have to leave with him. I'll take you home." He pleas, wrestling away from Zayn to come and stand in front of Harry and I.

"Fuck off!" Harry barks as he begins to pull me away.

"Harry wait..." I breathe, pushing his arm away I face my friend. "I need to talk to him.... Work things out... please, just. Just forge this happened I'm so so sorry tonight wet like this." I hang my head in shame and cross my hands behind my back to hide them.

"Hey, hey. Don't say sorry. It's not your fault that that happened. It's his and hers. You had every right to get mad... come here." He quickly pulls me int o his chest in to a tight hug. I snuggle my head in to his neck and wrap my arms around him, making sure to keep my hands off of his back so I wouldn't ruin his blazer. "Are you sure you want to go with him?" He whispers in to my hair line. I nod small and he nods back in agreement, holding my out at arms length. "Call em if you need me, I'll come get you. OK?"

I nod and give him a small smile before turning back to Harry who suddenly seems annoyed with our PDA.

He wraps his hand around mine and I'm surprised he does so, knowing the condition of my hands

I flinch form the contact and he pulls me away from our friends and towards his car.

He opens the door for me and helps me in before closing it and jogging around the front.

The car ride to his flat is silent. My hands really start to hurt on the way there so I'm grateful when he gets the door for me again and leads the way silently to his place.

I cringe as we walk through the front door.

It seems every time I come here since our split something bad happens and it's just exhausting.

"Here, lets go to the kitchen." I nod and follow him to the sink where he slips on the cold tap water and beckons me closer. He softly takes my hands in his and puts them under the cold spray. Using his long fingers to rub up and down my skin, removing the blood and hair until their clean, cold and slightly pink from the water.

Now they're clean I can see the damage I've done to my hands.

"My pointer finger knuckle on the right hand is and swollen an angry red. Well all of my knuckles are, but that one seems to be the worst. Light bruising is placed up and down my hands from the repeated impact.

Harry leads me back to his room where he has me sit on his bed. Coming back from the kitchen with an ice packs he lays them gently on my hands before he sits next to me.

"Are you alright?"

I nod. He's siting not an inch away, his hands balled up on his knees, his eyes burning ni to the side of my head.

"I'm so sorry she was there. I had no freaking idea. I swear. I wouldn't have brought you there if I knew she was going to be.."

"Yeah I know. How were you supposed to know your girlfriend was her friend." I pout, rolling my eyes.

"My girlfriend? Morgan is not my girlfriend. I don't even like her. Shes freaking annoying." His voice is serious as he scoffs at me.

"Well then why the hell was she there today?" I spit back, finally meeting his pale green eyes.

"Because... because.. ... Why was Martin there?" He snaps, changing the conversation with hostility, I know he would use.

"We aren't talking about Martin!" I snap.

"Well why would you bring him anyways? I figured you would have brought Louis!" He sneer.

"Why the hell would i do that?" I cry, throwing my hands in the air in frustration. He takes the ice packs and my wrists and forces them down and puts the ice back on them.

"Hmm I don't know. Maybe because you like him?!"

I glare up at him, his anger masking his face perfectly.

"Yeah, Harry. You're totally right. I like Louis!" I sneer sarcastically, rolling my eyes.

"Well you kissed him so why the hell wouldn't you!?" He yells, making me jump.

"HE KISSED ME!" I yell twice as loud.

His eyes widen lightly and his jaw falls open.

"I was turning to go the bathroom, he grabbed me, whipped me back around and kissed me! OK!? So you bringing me to the basement and doing that to me was soo totally necessary now that you think about it, wasn't it?" I quip, glaring fiercely at him.

"Oh..."

"Yeah, OH!" I snap, getting up I'm about to storm out until he grabs my wrist.

"Wait. Wait... Please don't run off. I'm sorry... Let me just.. explain." He pleads. I shake his arm off of me and take a deep breath, but sit down none the less.

"You know, what you did.... you don't realize how mad that made me. And how much you hurt me! Because I wanted to work it out. I did.... And you just.. you just.. You were -

"I was such an ass. I know. I'm sorry. But I was on my way to talk to you, I look up and you're kissing him. It made me so mad! But you should have told me. And then you shouldn't have run off! I looked for you all night! I was worried out of my freaking mind! It pissed me off so much. So.. that's when I decided to bring Morgan..." He shrugs guiltily and looks down at his twisting hands.

"OK.....?"

"I was trying to prove my point; make you think I was serious about what i said..." He swallows and looks back up at me. "But I'm not serious about that. I don't want to be done with you, Lilian. I want and I need you in my life."

Notes

i just wanted to remind you guys i never spell check or reread so thats why my things always have a bunch of tiny wording errors and stuffff

#sorrynotsorry

#imlazy