I Understand. An AU/punk story.

"I don't know, Lily. I'm sure he wasn't mad, just upset, you know?" Perri suggests, elbowing me with her elbow lightly.

"I don't know... He basically told me I was playing him. And I'm not. I don't think I want to be with him, not that it matters because I don't trust him and I doubt I ever will..." I sigh.

Lauren, Rae, Perri and I all sit in the sand, later that day in matching sundresses. The air is comfortable and the dogs run and bark in the water.

"Well, I think then you might just need to do your best with letting him know what you wan't from him." Lauren smiles at me, regardless of the fact we're talking about her cousin.

"I know. And I try.. he's just so damn.. persistent. And I loved him, I did. It's not that I'm trying to blame him.. I am very capable of telling him no, but I don't know. It's hard to say not to him and he knows that. And he uses against me." I shiver, and bury my toes in the sand.

"We know what you mean." Rae giggles. And they really did.

"What about Lou? He's been really bummed lately. He really misses you, you know." Perri sighs.

My heart throbs and butterflies rack in my insides just at the mention of his name. I missed him. I did, I missed sleeping next to him, kissing him, laughing with him. I missed how dedicated he was and how honest and true he could be with me.

'You and I could be as simple as breathing.'

His words make me shiver.

''If I ever tried to be with Louis, Harry would lose it."

"Oh, Harry can go screw himself! You BOTH, no all THREE of you deserve to be happy, and if you're happy with Lou, then so be it!" Lauren argues.

"I vote, Louis!" Rae smiles, and nudges me. "You two are just so sweet together."

"I'm dead set on you and Harry!" Perri counters.

"Well I -" Lauren starts to say before Rae interjects.

"Your opinion is biast, one of them if related! You don't have a say!" Rae yells. We all chuckle and then I have it decided. I miss my Louis.

i haven't been fair to him, after everything that Harry did to me, and how he was there for me through everything. And i just walked out...

"I think I'm going to head out... I'll text you later, OK?" I ask them, getting to my feet and pulling my cell out.

"Oooh, shes gonna go get her Louis on!" Rse screams, throwing some sand at me.

I laugh and call the dogs, heading to the top of the beach I dial a number.

"Hello?" He asks , answering on the second ring.

"Hey.. can you wanna go do something tonight?"

"Yeah, of course! Do you want me to pick you up?"

"That would actually be great, I'm at the beach."

"I'll be there. See you soon.''

"Yeah, OK." I smile in to my phone as I hang up.

He takes a few minutes before his black car rolls up, he gets out before I can reach the vehicle and opens the back door for the dogs who run to him and then closes the door behind them and it turns to me. His face is fixed in a big smile as he makes his way to me.

I surprise him by pulling him in to a big hug, my arms around his neck, his snake around my hips.

"hi." I breathe in to his neck.

"Hey." he chuckles, pulling away. "Let's get outta here." I nod and follow him to his car that we both jump in to.

"I missed you." I tell him confidently, and I did.

"I missed you too. I was surprised you called. I was an ass the other night." He frowns, as do I at the memory of when Harry forced him to come to his head and see my bruises.

"You were. But you are always forgiving me.. I figured it was half decent of me to do the same." I shrug as we drive towards my place.

"I'm glad that you did too... But I really am sorry.. I should have been understanding, not mad. You were just scared and hurt.: He huffs, running a hand through his hair.

"It's fine, I don't want to talk about it.." He nods and we pull up to my place and make our way up, the dogs following happily.

"What do you want to do tonight?" He follows me in to my room and plops down on my bed.

"Doesn't matter, what ever you want." I shrug, sitting next to him.

"Mmm, dinner?"

"Sure." I smile. "Let me go get dressed."

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Hurrying my way along, I let my hair fall in loose waves and let my makeup remain natural with some gloss. I make a point to cover my arms and legs. People do not need to see all of these bruises, I can barely imagine the loos I would receive from doing so.

"Wow, you look great." He beams at me as I come out from my bathroom. Lou is on his back, his hands under his head, the dogs laying besides him.

"Thanks." I blush which he definitely notices...


"Ready?" I nod and he gets up, following me from the apartment.

When we reach his car we drive to a small yet nice dinner by the coast, it's getting both darker and cooler and Louis is dressed in dark jeans and a Rolling Stones T.

We are seated right away and not soon after a pretty waitress with blonde hair strolls along, her eyes bulging as she sees my Lou.

"Hello, I'm Amy, I will be serving you tonight, can I get you anything to start off with?" She asks Louis.

"Hi, Amy. I'll get a raspberry tea." I say before Louis can answer, so she's forced to look at me.

Her blue eyes flicker to me and squint significantly before she jots it down.

"And you, hon?" She smiles down at Louis who looks at me, then Amy and then me and then Amy.

"Um, a coke." He clears his throat and doesn't say anything back when she flirts a response back to him. His eyes stay trained on mine as mine stay glaring at our waitresses and our waitresses who's stay on Louis.


"What in the hell was that?" He chuckles once she's gone from earshot.

"What? his smirk deepens.

"Is someone not a fan of a certain waitress?" He teases. I kick him under the table. "Hey! No need to be jealous, love. I prefer girls with brown hair." He winks as he leans forward, his face close to mine in the cozy booth.

"Shut up.." I murmur, my face flushing. He laughs an amazing laugh and throws his head back.

"You're cute when you're jealous." He teases me more and I blush harder as the she devil returns with our drinks.

"here you go." She smiles and then puts his cup down in front of him, pushing her chest out. Fuck. You. Bitch. Then she turns to leave...

"Exuce me?" Louis calls after her, she whips around.

"Yeah?" Her face hopfull.

"You forgot my dates drink." His tone flat and his face suddenly angry. I snicker and she shoots me a death glare.

"Be right back." She bites and leaves.

"There, happy now?" He smiles, leaning back towards me as I bite down the laughs.

"Very." I smile.

Amy returns a few moments later and places my drink in front of me noisily.

"Thank you." I tell her with fake sweetness, she rolls her eyes at me and leaves once more." She probably spit in it." I laugh twirling my cup in my hand.

"Well you were quite rude." He teases, flicking my nose from across the table.

"Well, I wouldn't have to be if she knew what was mine was mine and what hers was hers." I point out, glaring at the direction she came from.

"Oh, so I'm yours?" He wiggles his eyebrows at me.

"I - I dind't say that!" I stammer.

"Don't be shy, L, I wouldn't mind it either way."

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