Dreaming
Away From Death
Nikki's P.O.V.
Today was the day. Im finally doing it. Im going to kill myself. To much is going on, i cant handle it. My life, everything. Im a screw up and no one loves me. I walk outside on my last walk. Remembering why i have to do this, why i cant live anymore. I just hopes it makes sense to all the ones i love. I sit down not being able to hold my tears anymore. I thinks its time. I stand up running away. i run untill i reach this bridge an old abandoned one. I hold myself up over the railing. i was ready to jump when something caught my arm and pulled me into a hug. i try t fight it but its to strong.
"What do you want?" i cry into the strangers arms.
"Nothing, i want to save you from doing something stupid" he sat there and held me untill i stopped fighting him. i didnt even know who he was. i fell asleep in his arms. the last thing i remember is being carried away in someones arms. when i woke up i saw someones unfamiliar house. i got up walking around to find out who's house this was an almost everything in this house says Niall Horan on it. which is kinda funny because my last name is so similar to his. when i got to the kitchen i saw the dude from the park sitting down with four other guys.
"Hi beautiful"
"Um...hi" i say back shyly, trying to whipe my makeup clean from crying. almost theni was surrounded and brought into a hug. i ran away into the bathroom. i dont like all this attention it to much. im in some strangers house crying my eyes out in the bathroom. i just want to die. i want to be left alone, cant anyone tell. i rumage through the bathroom looking for any type of sharp object. found it. i found a peice of broken glass. i look at the object before slicing huge cuts on my wrist. SLASH. one SLASH. two. SLASH. three. i watsh the blood pour out of my wrist. its not enough. SLASH. one SLASH. two SLASH three. i cut deeper this time. by now the blood is all over the bathroom and my clothes.
"Open the door" someone knocks.
"Why?" i ask
"I dont want you in there alone"
"Why dont you just let me die, cant you see i dont belong here?"
"Please open the door" he says it was silent for along time then i begain to feel light headed. Next thing i know the door was open and Niall was screaming.
Niall's P.O.V.
I break open the door to see this girl small fram laying there helpless covered in blood. why would she do this to herself?
"HELP"
"What Niall?" they all say running to the bathroom.
"Someone call an ambulance" harry ran off callingfor help.
"Hold on, Im right here" i cry into her shirt holding her arms with a towell so she doesnt lose as much blood. next thing i know is we're off to the hospital.
*****1 WEEK LATER*****
I've been sitting here hand in hand with this girl who's name i dont even know for a week. i havent eaten or slept for almost a week. the boys are worried. they always come here and tell me i need to leave but i cant i dont even know whats wrong with me.
"Why dont you just wake up" i cry onto her. "please, why would you do this to yourself?" thats when the doctor came into the room.
"Mr.Horan?"
"Yes?"
"I think that its time that we decide weither we shoud take her off life support?"
"My answer is NO, I want her alive"
"are you aware that she is pretty much dead" those words cute me like knifes. he leaves. i stand up kissing her. first her hands then her arms her forehead and then her lips. i know its to far but i couldn't take it anymore. thats when she opened her eyes.
"your awake"
"yes please dont tell the doctors "
"i have to"
"alright but as long as i get to go home"
"be right back, love" i said kissing her head.
"she's awake"
"Thats impossible"
"Apparently not" i walk away being followed by her doctor.
"you weren't lying" she looks up and says
"when do i get to leave?"
"um you seem to be fine, so you can leave when you want!"
"great" she said getting up leaving.
"oh and one more thing you have to be with or around someone at all times you hear me?"
But i dont have anybody" she said almost in tears.
"You have me"
"We barely know each other!"
"Please just come on?" i say pulling her to the car leaving everything. i open the door and put her in the car. she was silent the whole way back to m y house. i still cant believe she would do this to herself. we pull into my house and i run to the door and carry her inside.
"This is home from now on ok anything you want is yours"
Today was the day. Im finally doing it. Im going to kill myself. To much is going on, i cant handle it. My life, everything. Im a screw up and no one loves me. I walk outside on my last walk. Remembering why i have to do this, why i cant live anymore. I just hopes it makes sense to all the ones i love. I sit down not being able to hold my tears anymore. I thinks its time. I stand up running away. i run untill i reach this bridge an old abandoned one. I hold myself up over the railing. i was ready to jump when something caught my arm and pulled me into a hug. i try t fight it but its to strong.
"What do you want?" i cry into the strangers arms.
"Nothing, i want to save you from doing something stupid" he sat there and held me untill i stopped fighting him. i didnt even know who he was. i fell asleep in his arms. the last thing i remember is being carried away in someones arms. when i woke up i saw someones unfamiliar house. i got up walking around to find out who's house this was an almost everything in this house says Niall Horan on it. which is kinda funny because my last name is so similar to his. when i got to the kitchen i saw the dude from the park sitting down with four other guys.
"Hi beautiful"
"Um...hi" i say back shyly, trying to whipe my makeup clean from crying. almost theni was surrounded and brought into a hug. i ran away into the bathroom. i dont like all this attention it to much. im in some strangers house crying my eyes out in the bathroom. i just want to die. i want to be left alone, cant anyone tell. i rumage through the bathroom looking for any type of sharp object. found it. i found a peice of broken glass. i look at the object before slicing huge cuts on my wrist. SLASH. one SLASH. two. SLASH. three. i watsh the blood pour out of my wrist. its not enough. SLASH. one SLASH. two SLASH three. i cut deeper this time. by now the blood is all over the bathroom and my clothes.
"Open the door" someone knocks.
"Why?" i ask
"I dont want you in there alone"
"Why dont you just let me die, cant you see i dont belong here?"
"Please open the door" he says it was silent for along time then i begain to feel light headed. Next thing i know the door was open and Niall was screaming.
Niall's P.O.V.
I break open the door to see this girl small fram laying there helpless covered in blood. why would she do this to herself?
"HELP"
"What Niall?" they all say running to the bathroom.
"Someone call an ambulance" harry ran off callingfor help.
"Hold on, Im right here" i cry into her shirt holding her arms with a towell so she doesnt lose as much blood. next thing i know is we're off to the hospital.
*****1 WEEK LATER*****
I've been sitting here hand in hand with this girl who's name i dont even know for a week. i havent eaten or slept for almost a week. the boys are worried. they always come here and tell me i need to leave but i cant i dont even know whats wrong with me.
"Why dont you just wake up" i cry onto her. "please, why would you do this to yourself?" thats when the doctor came into the room.
"Mr.Horan?"
"Yes?"
"I think that its time that we decide weither we shoud take her off life support?"
"My answer is NO, I want her alive"
"are you aware that she is pretty much dead" those words cute me like knifes. he leaves. i stand up kissing her. first her hands then her arms her forehead and then her lips. i know its to far but i couldn't take it anymore. thats when she opened her eyes.
"your awake"
"yes please dont tell the doctors "
"i have to"
"alright but as long as i get to go home"
"be right back, love" i said kissing her head.
"she's awake"
"Thats impossible"
"Apparently not" i walk away being followed by her doctor.
"you weren't lying" she looks up and says
"when do i get to leave?"
"um you seem to be fine, so you can leave when you want!"
"great" she said getting up leaving.
"oh and one more thing you have to be with or around someone at all times you hear me?"
But i dont have anybody" she said almost in tears.
"You have me"
"We barely know each other!"
"Please just come on?" i say pulling her to the car leaving everything. i open the door and put her in the car. she was silent the whole way back to m y house. i still cant believe she would do this to herself. we pull into my house and i run to the door and carry her inside.
"This is home from now on ok anything you want is yours"
@Irish girl
thank thats actually the first positive comment i've received...and it means a lot that somebody actually likes it...i thought his story was hopeless...but thanks! i will try to fit in some time to update!<3
12/18/13