Broken
Chapter 10
It's been a week since I last saw Harry and a week since we well you know. I haven't told anyone, I couldn't find the right words to explain it. My heart hurts a lot and I figure that means I like him a lot more than I let myself believe. I've never felt more used in all my life and I hate him for it but I hate myself even more for letting things get that far between us and for letting myself fall for him without knowing I had. I decided it was time to go back to school, I'd only missed a couple of days but I couldn't face it, up until now. I've decided that it's time for me get over him and grow up. If anyone asks I'll tell them. I got myself ready and stepped outside just in time to see his black range rover speed off down the street.
I walked down the hall and I could feel everyone watching me, I'm sure it was just my imagination but I felt as though everyone knew.
'OMG you're alive' Perrie Screeched into my ear and she pulled me in for a hug
'I wouldn't be so sure I feel pretty dead inside' I mumbled hugging her back
'How are you?, Zayn told me about what happened with Harry' she said in a sympathetic voice
'Getting over it you know, I just need to clear Harry from my mind you know'
'Yeah, so Louis Is having a party tonight, you should come, its an excuse to get wasted'
'But won't Harry be there?' I asked
'probably but you need to not worry about him, and just go and show him what he's missing'
'Okay, I'll come, you guys should come over to mine to get ready after school' I offered
‘Sounds great’ She replied with a smile as I shut my locker and Headed to my first lesson.
A few hours later and we were drunk, but ready to gohttp://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=102775353.
I was feeling a lot happier now that I had alcohol inside me and I was ready to get Harry out of my system. I still couldn't wrap my head round the fact that even though I'd only known him a few weeks, I'd fallen for him and I hadn't even realised I had.
‘Are you thinking about Harry again?’ El asked nudging me, and I just gave her a weak smile to signal a yes
'I was trying not to, but he just slipped his way in there' I said as we reached Lou’s house.
'I'm good at that' I heard a raspy voice behind me and spun round nearly toppling over, I heard the girls go quiet and I was pretty sure you could hear my heart thumping in my chest.
'What do you want Styles?' I asked trying to keep my cool despite the anger that was threatening to burst out.
'Can I uh Have a word?' he asked
'I can give you a few of those' I spat
'I'm sure, but please can we just talk?' He asked again
'Um no Harry we can't talk but you can listen, I mean seriously why the fuck would you do what you did, do you know how used I feel ?, but then how can you because you have no emotions, You're cold and heartless, you'd have to be to do what you did Harry, and the worst part is I don't even fucking hate you for it, I hate myself because I fell for you and I didn't even fucking realise' I shouted, tears running down my face, He just stood there with a shocked expression on his face
'Look Fran I..'
'No Harry I don't want to hear it, Just leave me alone, I don't want you in my life because this.. Us would never work So just do both me and you a Favour and stay away because one of us will end up getting hurt and we both know it won't be you who gets hurt Harry' I replied cutting him off.
'Okay Fran If that's what you want, Then I'll stay away' He muttered before storming past me and heading into the house, I took a moment to wipe away my tears and fix my Makeup before heading inside, as much as I wanted to turn and run I knew I had to go in there and get over him, otherwise I'll never do it.
I walked into the house and headed straight for the vodka bottle, I was beyond caring I just wanted to drown Harry out. I started to move my hips to the beat of the music letting the alcohol flow through my system. I felt a pair of hands grip my waist and I spun round, to find Josh, I scanned the room quickly and found Harry engaged in a game of tonsil tennis with some slutty blonde.
'Make him Jealous babe, He clearly doesn't give a shit about you' Josh whispered I responded by wrapping my arms round his neck and burying my head in his shoulder as he kissed my forehead. We danced for a bit longer and I could feel myself becoming drunker by the minute.
'I'm gunna go get some air' I slurred, before stumbling outside, I sat on the bench, and I started feeling really dizzy, I could myself dropping off.
'Fran, Jesus Fran can you Hear me' Harrys voice was the last thing I hear before everything went black.
I walked down the hall and I could feel everyone watching me, I'm sure it was just my imagination but I felt as though everyone knew.
'OMG you're alive' Perrie Screeched into my ear and she pulled me in for a hug
'I wouldn't be so sure I feel pretty dead inside' I mumbled hugging her back
'How are you?, Zayn told me about what happened with Harry' she said in a sympathetic voice
'Getting over it you know, I just need to clear Harry from my mind you know'
'Yeah, so Louis Is having a party tonight, you should come, its an excuse to get wasted'
'But won't Harry be there?' I asked
'probably but you need to not worry about him, and just go and show him what he's missing'
'Okay, I'll come, you guys should come over to mine to get ready after school' I offered
‘Sounds great’ She replied with a smile as I shut my locker and Headed to my first lesson.
A few hours later and we were drunk, but ready to gohttp://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=102775353.
I was feeling a lot happier now that I had alcohol inside me and I was ready to get Harry out of my system. I still couldn't wrap my head round the fact that even though I'd only known him a few weeks, I'd fallen for him and I hadn't even realised I had.
‘Are you thinking about Harry again?’ El asked nudging me, and I just gave her a weak smile to signal a yes
'I was trying not to, but he just slipped his way in there' I said as we reached Lou’s house.
'I'm good at that' I heard a raspy voice behind me and spun round nearly toppling over, I heard the girls go quiet and I was pretty sure you could hear my heart thumping in my chest.
'What do you want Styles?' I asked trying to keep my cool despite the anger that was threatening to burst out.
'Can I uh Have a word?' he asked
'I can give you a few of those' I spat
'I'm sure, but please can we just talk?' He asked again
'Um no Harry we can't talk but you can listen, I mean seriously why the fuck would you do what you did, do you know how used I feel ?, but then how can you because you have no emotions, You're cold and heartless, you'd have to be to do what you did Harry, and the worst part is I don't even fucking hate you for it, I hate myself because I fell for you and I didn't even fucking realise' I shouted, tears running down my face, He just stood there with a shocked expression on his face
'Look Fran I..'
'No Harry I don't want to hear it, Just leave me alone, I don't want you in my life because this.. Us would never work So just do both me and you a Favour and stay away because one of us will end up getting hurt and we both know it won't be you who gets hurt Harry' I replied cutting him off.
'Okay Fran If that's what you want, Then I'll stay away' He muttered before storming past me and heading into the house, I took a moment to wipe away my tears and fix my Makeup before heading inside, as much as I wanted to turn and run I knew I had to go in there and get over him, otherwise I'll never do it.
I walked into the house and headed straight for the vodka bottle, I was beyond caring I just wanted to drown Harry out. I started to move my hips to the beat of the music letting the alcohol flow through my system. I felt a pair of hands grip my waist and I spun round, to find Josh, I scanned the room quickly and found Harry engaged in a game of tonsil tennis with some slutty blonde.
'Make him Jealous babe, He clearly doesn't give a shit about you' Josh whispered I responded by wrapping my arms round his neck and burying my head in his shoulder as he kissed my forehead. We danced for a bit longer and I could feel myself becoming drunker by the minute.
'I'm gunna go get some air' I slurred, before stumbling outside, I sat on the bench, and I started feeling really dizzy, I could myself dropping off.
'Fran, Jesus Fran can you Hear me' Harrys voice was the last thing I hear before everything went black.
Notes
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12/17/14