We drove for fifteen minutes, like he said, in silence. I knew my town in and out and the direction we were going wasn't the best. We stopped in front of a big garage I had never been to before. I always saw bikers going in and out who looked rather scary but like always, I didn't show any fear. If I were here with anyone else I'd be freaked out and want to run home but with Niall it was like I didn't care.

"I'll be right back," he said, "wait here."

"Yeah, cus' I was definitely thinking about getting out." I rolled my eyes and leaned my head against the window. I counted the raindrops as they slid down the window. Liam and I used to sit in the car while my mom went in the grocery store; we'd pick a rain drop and see who's would get to the bottom of the window first. He always won. There was no cheating in that game. My eyes began to close until Niall's door opened and slammed shut. "You decided to come back?" He was only gone for a few minutes but I love giving him a hard time. I am such a bitch around him. I'm never a bitch. Ever.

I sat up, "What am I doing here Niall?" He put the car in reverse and we drove away from the creepy garage. "Are you going to answer me? What's in that bag."

"Will you stop with the questions? I just want you to have a little fun. Aren't you tired of being a goody-two-shoes?"

"Honestly, no. My life was perfectly fine before you came around. You're so confusing. I don't understand why you're trying to turn me into a terrible person like yourself." I crossed my arms and he slammed on the breaks.

"I'm not a terrible person. I may be a dick, but I'm not--" I couldn't stand listening to his stupid Irish voice trying to defend himself. I rolled up my sleeves,

"See these?" I yelled as loud as I could. "You did this to me!" I took off my bracelet, "See this? You did that to me too! And then you came into MY home and tried to take my virginity. You skip class and for all I know do crack on the weekends. I don't know what the hell is wrong with you but you are a terrible person." I took my seat belt off and jumped out of the car. I knew this was stupid but I had to say it, "And you don't even wear your seat belt! Are you just asking to die? Do you know how many people get in accidents every year?!" I started to walk towards town. He turned the engine off and walked towards me. I didn't flinch, I knew he'd hurt me. I just needed to get it over with. This time I'd tell someone.

"You have no idea who I am or what I do in my spare time. Don't you dare judge me."

I laughed, "Are you serious? I have never judged somebody some much in my life. I am one of the nicest girls you will ever meet. I stay out of trouble, I get As, I go to church and I have really good friends Niall. And what do you have? Huh?" I didn't feel bad about anything I was saying. He just looked at me, kinda sad. Maybe he agreed. I walked towards him until our bodies almost touched. I looked directly into his eyes, "So does this turn you on Niall? When I'm a little bitch, does that turn you on?" He stood there, no smirk, no nothing. I had no idea what he was thinking. He finally smirked. I was beginning to think he was going to break down,

"Get back in your car and drive away Niall. I'm tired of you and your games. You can't abuse me one day and then try to get with me the next." I turned around, pleased with myself until he grabbed me from behind. I screamed, not expecting that. My feet were off the ground and I couldn't breathe from the way he was holding me. When we got to the car he grabbed me by the neck and pushed me to the car. I laughed,

"Just get it over with." I stayed calm. If I started hyperventilating it would just get worse. He let go of me and I held my throat.

"Get in the car. We're not finished yet."

"Excuse me?"

"Get in the car." He got in and slammed the door. The car started and I looked through the window at him. He began turning the radio station. Was he trying to pretend nothing just happened? I got in and put my seat belt on.

"I'm not afraid." I looked at him confused. "Death, it doesn't scare me." I chuckled,

"Well that's great for you Niall. I guess you should keep being the bad ass you are and not wear your seat belt. Me on the other hand, I have things I want to do with my life." I was tired of yelling. I really was pretty mean to him. He was right, I didn't know anything about him. He is still an ass and treats me awful but I have no idea what he's gone through in his lifetime. "Just tell me what's up with you. I'm not going to tell anyone, I really don't care to be honest. I just want you to stop treating me the way you do."

He stayed quiet, thinking I suppose. "Okay, don't tell me about you. Just tell me why you picked me. Why did you pick me to terrorize?"

"I'm not trying to terrorize you Ada. I like you." Was that really his answer?

"So you think abusing me is going to make me like you back?"

"Probably not."

"Do you want to know what I think?"

"What do you think Ada?" He chuckled. It was so adorable.

"I think you're actually a really nice guy somewhere deep inside but you're covering it up to the point where you hurt the people you care about. Look at Elisha," he gripped the steering wheel tighter, "When we were at Harry's and Oakley was kissing Sarah, you rubbed her back to make her feel better. But when you're with the guys, you're laughing and having a good time. You don't know them so what's there to lose?"

He looked at me but I didn't know what he was going to say. "Why do you think I treat you the way I do?"

"You said you like me. Maybe that's why. I honestly don't know." He pulled the car into some empty parking lot and turned off the car. I don't think he's angry anymore.

"What's the most adventurous thing you've ever done?"

I thought for a moment, maybe his days of being abusive towards me was over. "Umm, one time Oakley and I snuck out of his house really late last year and went to a party."

"Did you get wasted?"

"Are you kidding? No way!" He laughed,

"So that's the most adventurous you've ever done?" I shrugged,

"I guess it is. Where is this going?"

"I want to do something adventurous with you."

"No way."

"Do you want to find out more about me?" I sighed,

"Yeah, I do."

"Alright here's the deal. Each time you do something adventurous with me, I'll tell you something about myself. The bigger the adventure, the better the answer will be." I shrugged again. I was fearless with him,

"Fine. What are we doing tonight? We only have an hour." He smiled, this won't take long. "Wait!" He sighed,

"You're wasting time."

"Fine." He pulled something out of the bag. This was not going to happen.

"I'm not doing that Niall."

"Yes, you are."

"You can't make me."

"I know I can't. But you want to."

"Actually, I don't want to."

"Just try it with me."

"Why are you pushing this so hard on me?"

"What are you most scared of Ada?"

I thought about it for a minute, "Probably spiders." He laughed,

"No, like really scared of."

"Being alone for the rest of my life. And death--the opposite of you."

"Why are you scared of death?" Was he trying to kill me?

"Niall...I don't like where this is going."

"I'm not going to kill you, Jesus! I know you have a good life but you don't do anything. You don't really live. You go along doing the same routine every day. This isn't addicting, I would never do that to you."

"Tell me why and I'll try it. Tell me why you want me to do this."

He sighed, really debating on if he wanted to let go of his first answer. For free. "I don't want to be alone. I want to tell someone my secrets. I want to tell someone things I've never said before. I want you to be that person." I can't believe what I'm hearing right now. He's being so--so sincere. "When I first saw you all I could think about was how much of a good girl you were and it drove me insane because you reminded me of El. Obviously not in a cousinly way but just your attitude towards life. I can't tell someone things about me who thinks they are ten times better. I can't have someone judgmental." He was right, I would be very judgmental. "You aren't scared of death Ada. You're scared of living. There's this bubble surrounding you and I want you to get out of that. I'm not asking you to be me because I'm messed up. But I want someone to understand where I'm coming from."

I opened his hand and and took the joint from him. I had always wanted to try it but he was right, I was scared of life. "What do I do?"

He smiled genuinely and explained the process. It burned the back of my throat and I coughed so much I thought I was going to die. He rolled the windows down and it got better. The smell wasn't too bad either. It almost smelled good.

"What's it like to be high?"

"It's different for everyone but I feel like I think outside of the box." He looked at me and laughed, "And you'll sleep really well tonight."

"Will we be okay driving home?"

"Yeah, it isn't like drinking, I'll be able to drive fine."

I could feel the effects. It wasn't like I expected, I felt free. The sky wasn't spinning, it was still. When I closed my eyes I laughed. For some reason I couldn't stop laughing. Niall looked at me and started laughing as well. "Why do you have the cutest laugh I've ever heard?" I was in control of what I was saying. I know alcohol would have made me say things a lot worse.

"I don't know. Everyone at home used to say it was goofy."

"I like it. And I think your accent is really cool."

"Thank you Ada. I like when you compliment me." I blushed,

"So spill your first secret. I won't forget tomorrow will I?"

"No, weed doesn't do that to you. I guess I'll start from the beginning. Remember, this is a small secret." I nodded. "I had this dog. He was a golden lab and his name was Focus. My mom named him that because she said I never focused in school. I was eight when I got him. When I was twelve he was hit by a car."

"I'm so sorry Niall."

"I know whenever an animal dies it's sad but I'm the reason he died. I was walking him and then I saw my friend Jake. I ran over to him to say hi and I don't know why but I let go of Focus." He paused and I think a tear was running down his face. "A car came and he started chasing it. When the car stopped he was caught under the wheel."

I waited for some more. "That's awful Niall, I'm so sorry."

"It's okay, but that's all you get for now." He looked at his watch, "We really have to get going, it's almost one."

I held the joint up to my mouth one more time and he lit it for me. Niall finished it up as we headed back to my place. For some reason it felt romantic smoking with Niall. He was right, it gave me a different perspective on life. It wasn't something I was planning on doing frequently but I didn't see the harm in it. People drink all the time and that has to be worse. We pulled into my driveway,

"If my mom is up will she know?"

"Let me see your eyes." He turned on the light and looked into them. "Wow, they're really beautiful."

"Thanks but are they red? Will she notice?"

"No they aren't red at all. They're just extremely blue. I've never seen anything like that before." I snapped out of whatever trance I was in and turned off the light.

"Thanks for tonight Niall. I actually had fun." I smiled and shut the door.

I ran up to my room, hopped in the shower, and brushed my teeth. I couldn't risk smelling like weed. Niall said it wouldn't ware off for a while but it would be hard to wake up because it makes you sleep so well. I needed to do more adventurous things. I wanted to know about him and I already knew about his dog. If weed was a small adventure, what would be bigger?

I got in bed and I heard the front door. Thank god Liam was just now getting home.