Ada's Point of View

"Someone looks like they had a great night."

"I'm not in the mood for it Oakley." I dropped my head in my book as we tried to work on more literature work. We have now moved on to Beowulf. What fun.

"Well you should be in the mood for it. You have two massive hickeys and you look like shit." I sprung up and ran to the mirror on my dresser.

Oh no, this is bad.

"What am I going to do Oaks?"

"Don't you have makeup?" He continued writing; trying not to seem too amused.

"I mean with Niall and Harry asshole." I laid on my stomach across from Oaks, waiting for him to say something.

"I just feel like you're back to the beginning except Harry gave you the hickeys this time." Oaks chuckled.

"It's not funny. I was so close to having sex with Harry. Do you know how bad that would've been?"

"I have an idea." I looked at him desperately. He actually looks pretty serious.

"Have sex with Harry, maybe a few times and then tell him you think your prego with his kid. Then have more sex with Niall and tell him you're prego with his kid. Whoever has a better reaction is the guy you should pick."

Wow, I actually thought he was going to help me out. I threw my pencil at his face and stood up.

"What, I'm serious." He was trying so hard not to laugh. "Fine, do you want me to be serious?"

I nodded, pretty nervous about what he is going to say.

"I think you need to stop acting like you can have both of them. You're not being fair. Harry is freakin' in love with you and it's so obvious because he's never given a shit about girls before you. And Niall, I'm pretty sure he likes you a lot too but I think when he met you he saw the good in you and decided he wanted something good in his life. It doesn't mean he really loves you."

That hurt.

"I mean I'm not saying he doesn't, it's just, he confided in you because he knew you were going to be a good person from day one."

"And how did he know that Oakley? You aren't making sense." He's really pissing me off right now. Niall wouldn't tell me he loves me if he doesn't.

"Because look at you! Any person could smell it from a mile away. Just your presence lightens the mood. It's always been that way Ada. It's just a fact." He put his pencil down and sat up, looking at me eye level. "I think he is infatuated by you. He doesn't look at you like Harry does. He's never met someone like you before; someone so genuine and so kind. That makes him feel special, it makes him feel loved. You make everyone feel loved Ada."

I don't like this conversation at all. I wish I never asked Oakley. He's too damn good at this.

"Look, he graduates soon and won't be around as much. I guarantee you if you were to stay broken up he will be able to find another girl. You fixed him, that's all he needed."

I can't believe I'm considering what Oakley is saying. I feel like I love him, I feel good when I'm with him.

"What do I do?" Oakley shrugged,

"Tell him the truth. If you want to be with Niall then be with Niall and leave Harry alone. If you want to be with Harry--if he'll be with you considering what happened the other night--leave Niall alone. You have to stop doing this to them; and to yourself. You don't understand how hard it's been for me seeing you hurt all the time."

I sighed and ran my hand down my face, I'm so ridiculous.

"I have stuff to do for the band. I'll do this work later."

"Ads, you can't keep holding this in. Call Niall and figure it out. I know you guys are technically broken up but doing all that stuff with Harry last night is going to start something that doesn't need to be started."

"Okay." Oakley stood up and gave me a big bear hug before leaving. "Love you Oaks."

"Love you too Ada."

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"Hey mom," I sat down at the kitchen table and watched her cut out coupons., "can I talk to you?"

I haven't talked to my mom about anything in weeks. Sure I've told her all of the fun I've been having and about the concerts but nothing serious.

"Sure honey, what do you want to talk about?" She set down her scissors and looked at me concerned. She probably should be concerned.

"Did you and dad ever have problems when you were dating?"

She laughed, "of course we did. All couples have problems. Are you and Niall having problems?"

"Yeah, we broke up yesterday after the concert."

"Oh no! Are you okay? Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"I'm okay mom, it's just, I don't know what to do. Whenever Niall and I fight all I can think about is Harry. I want to hang out with him because I feel like we wouldn't be arguing about the things Niall and I argue about. But when everything is okay with Niall, I'm pretty happy."

"You already know how much I love Harry dear. He looks at you like your dad looked at me when we were dating." I really wish people would stop saying things like that. It makes them feel true.

"What about Niall? How does he look at me?" She looked up, thinking.

"Niall looks at you kind of like Oakley does. It looks like he cares for you and admires you more than anything else."

"You don't think he loves me?" I'll be so devastated if he doesn't. But maybe I don't love him; maybe I'm infatuated just like Oakley said.

"I think he loves you like Oakley loves you. He just doesn't know it. If you broke up and gave him some time, I honestly believe he would be okay. And you would to." My mom smiled at me, trying to not be so cold. Their answers are so similar. It hurts to think both Niall and I have been together just infatuated with each other.

"Thanks mom, I love you." I gave her a side hug and went back up to my room. I need some time to think and this twitter account isn't going to work on it's own.

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Niall's Point of View

"Hello?" She finally answered. Now what am I going to say?

"Oh, hey. Umm, what are you doing?"

"Niall, I said we need space."

"I know, I know!" I said quickly before she could hang up. "I just wanted to tell you I'm okay with it. I've talked to Liam and Elisha and I think that it's best."

She didn't say anything and I don't know if that's her heart falling to the floor or if she's happy.

"Ada?"

"Yeah, I'm here." Another pause, "Niall last night I accidentally--"

"Don't." I stopped her quickly. If she hooked up with someone, especially Harry, I don't want to know. It isn't my place to know anyway and I'm sure it'll really hurt. "Look, I just wanted to tell you that I talked to Elisha last night. I told her everything."

"Everything?"

"Yeah, about my past. I didn't think I'd be able to but she listened and hasn't judged me. I thought telling someone on my level would make it easier but I was able to tell her thanks to you." I don't want to hurt Ada but I feel like she kinda fixed me. She's made me a better person but after thinking all night; I don't know if I need her the way Harry needs her. He loves her and she loves him, they have a true love that I don't think I can give her. I can't believe I'm doing this but Harry deserves her; not me.

"What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that I think this break up will be good for us. And if it's not, we'll get back together. It's like your tattoo."

"Everything happens for a reason," she whispered. "Niall?"

"Yeah?"

"Did you ever love me?" I don't know if I did. I think I did but I don't want to lie.

"I don't know Ada. I loved the way you accepted me and the way you treated me like no one else but you're right. I'm still working on my anger and I can't hurt you anymore." I heard sniffles on the other line. "Did you ever love me?"

"I don't know either."

The line went silent for a minute and then she finally spoke. I don't know if I want this silence to end but she broke it anyway;

"I'll see you at rehearsal Monday afternoon?"

"Yeah, Monday afternoon."

We hung up and that was the first time in months that we didn't say I love you.

Notes

I'll update again later tonight if I get a few more subscribers and these questions are answered:

Are Niall and Ada finished for good?
Are Harry and Ada going to get back together?
What do you want to happen?

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