The Bad Boy Effect
Let's Talk
I opened my eyes and like the weekend before, had a huge headache. I remember promising myself last night I would have the night to myself but it turned out much differently. I somehow remember more than I wish I did. I stretched my arms and yawned. I really don't want to go to church with El but I feel like I haven't really talked to her in forever and I already bailed on her last night. I swallowed but wish I hadn't; I could still taste the puke from last night. I got up to go brush my teeth and wasn't too surprised to see Harry sleeping on my desk chair and Niall passed out on the floor. I think I'm just going to pretend they're not there. I grabbed some clothes and headed for the bathroom to brush my teeth and take a shower. Instead of going back into my room and having to deal with sleeping beauty one and two I went down stairs to find my mom and dad enjoying some breakfast. I wonder if they know who's in my room. My mom looked at me, not pleased. Did she find out about last night?
"Hey mom, hey dad." I smiled wearily and poured some coffee. I really don't want to ask but I probably should, "Is everything okay?"
She sighed and my dad continued reading the paper. "We're just a little peeved with your brother." She glanced into the living room and my eyes followed hers. Liam, Zayn, and Louis were still asleep. "Your father said they were making a lot of noise last night while he was sleeping. If I weren't at work I would've gone down and said something myself." A weight seemed to lift off of my shoulder and I'm glad she wasn't home for once. I feel bad for Liam but my night was much worse. I'm guessing they don't know the others are in my room. I grabbed my dead phone,
"I guess I should finish getting ready for church. I'll see you guys this afternoon."
"Wait Ada," he was either tired or upset, "I'm leaving tonight for another business trip so I'd like for you and Liam to be home for dinner."
"Of course dad! We won't miss it." I kissed him on the forehead and ran upstairs, closing my door behind me.
I plugged in my phone and then softly tapped Harry and whispered in his ear, "Hey, get up. My parents don't know you're here." He slowly opened his eyes and moved his body around--I'm betting extremely sore.
Even though I made him and Niall furious the night before he smiled at me, "Are you okay? I was worried about you last night." I wouldn't mind waking up to his husky morning voice more often. Stop Ada, just stop.
"Yeah, I'm just an idiot. Apparently this guy over here feels the same way." I shifted towards Niall and he laughed. That was a better reaction than expected.
"Bye Ada! We're heading off!" My mom yelled up the stairs,
"Okay love you guys." I looked back at Harry. "The guys are downstairs sleeping if you want to join them. Or I'm sure Liam wouldn't mind if you laid in his bed."
"Or I could lay in your bed." He smiled but I looked away. He didn't remember our conversation from last night. Or maybe he did. He quickly picked at the skin between his eyebrows.
"I have to go to church soon but I think we should talk about some stuff tomorrow." He nodded and stood up, rubbing his back.
"Uhh, yeah. Can I take you to school? We can talk then." I don't think that would be a problem.
"Sure." I hugged him and he went downstairs. I then looked at Niall on the floor. He looked so peaceful. I went ahead and gave him a small kick,
"Wake up. I'm going to church soon and you can't be in here." I think it's funny how my relationship is so different between the two.
"Good morning to you too princess." His sarcasm mixed with his Irish morning voice was a bit of a turn on. I sat down next to him and he slowly sat up. "What have I done to you?" I wasn't expecting that. He looked so sad.
I'll tell ya what I want, what I really really want...
I smiled, saved by the bell. I ran to my phone and tried to hold it to my ear as it was plugged into the wall. "Hey El, are we still going today?"
"Yes! I just texted you a few times and you didn't respond." I could hear her sad voice.
"I'm sorry, I woke up a little late and my phone died. I just plugged it in." This wasn't a lie and it felt so good.
"It's okay!" Her peppy-ness was back. She was like Sarah except innocent. "I'm walking to my car right now, I'll be there in fifteen!" I laughed,
"Okay see you then." I hung up and Niall was up, sitting on my bed. He rubbed his eyes, looking beat. "Does your nose hurt?" He laughed,
"Yeah, a little. Your boyfriend has a mean strike."
"He's not my boyfriend Niall." I sighed and he rolled his eyes. "What happened Ada?"
"Look Niall, I don't have time for this right now. I'm going to church with El and I think you should go back downstairs with the guys. I'll see you at school tomorrow and we can talk about what happened yesterday." I spoke calm and steady. I even added a grin for the perfect touch.
Niall went back downstairs and I finished doing my hair and put on some makeup. I need to forget about last night for the day. It's Sunday, Jesus is waiting.
Harry's Point of View
From: My Ada 6:54 am
Hey Hazz, I'm really sorry but I forgot I told Oaks he could pick me up. I still want to see you though....before class meet me at your locker? I would really like that.
I can't catch a break with that girl. I know she hasn't seen Oakley in a while so I'll keep my cool. At least it's not Niall. Talking with my dad yesterday helped me with the whole Niall situation. I really have no right to be mad at him. He hasn't done anything to me--he just likes Ada. Ada's the one who messed with my heart. It's just so hard to be mad at her.
I put on some jeans and pulled out a random t-shirt. I really don't give a shit about what I look like today. I brushed my teeth and then washed my face. Looking into the mirror I saw a weak man. I have been so obsessive over Ada I've lost myself. I told myself the first day of freshman year I wouldn't get all caught up with serious relationships and girls. If I was with a girl she'd have to know it was very casual. Almost like friends with benefits. I was such a douche but life is so much easier that way--and it involves less injured body parts. I went downstairs and grabbed an orange. It was so quiet in the house when everyone was at work or just not here. Maybe I'd just stay home for the day. I never used to care. That's what I'll do. I dropped my bag and keys on the kitchen table and took off my boots. Today I'd stay home and do absolutely nothing.
I slept for a while and woke up at noon to three texts.
From: My Ada 8:01 am
I waited at your locker but I didn't see you. I hope you're not mad :( Text me when you get the chance.
I'm not mad, just tired of everything. And I'm really debating on changing her name in my phone.
From: Liam 9:45 am
Mate, you aren't here and we have some songs we want to test out! Ur our main guy where are you???
I laughed, stupid boy band wanna be's.
From: Douche Bag 11:59 am
Sorry about last night. I think we should talk or something....you know....for Ada.
And you're the last person I want to talk to. I got up and looked for some more food. I like being able to eat whenever I wanted. I forgot how much fun it is to skip school. I sat on the couch and turned on the tv but nothing's on. Day time tv sucks. I'll go for a run. I can't remember the last time I worked out. I got outside and ran down the block and through the park. My thoughts were racing: Ada, Niall, our 'boy band', school, that one freshman I had my eye on before Ada, and more thoughts about Ada. If I couldn't have Ada, I could at least try to make her jealous. What am I talking about? Ada and I are still together. We said some hurtful things the other night but I don't remember either one of us breaking it off. I stopped running and collapsed to the ground. I laid back in the wet grass and let it soak--gross. I think Ada has work today, I'll stop by so we can talk about whatever happened. I really need to stop drinking so much.
Niall's Point of View
I sat in math staring at my test. I read the numbers over and over but nothing clicked. I'm really good at math; why can't I get this? Oh, I know, because Ada's driving me insane. It's two and I'd get to talk to her in about thirty minutes if I could get through this class. When the bell rang I got up and turned my test in, not very confident on what the results may look like. I walked as fast as I could to her locker and waited. I saw her turn the corner walking with Elisha. I forgot they had last period together.
"Hey Niall!" El was always so jumpy.
"Hi El. What are you guys up to?"
"Ada has work at four so we can't really hang out but she definitely said she's coming on Wednesday!"
"I'm right here El," Ada said as she laughed. "Do you think Niall and I could talk for a few minutes?"
"Oh, yes!" El winked at Ada like she knew what was going on. I'm sure Ada made up some lie--there's no way Ada told her what happened. When she walked away Ada took a deep breath and we walked outside. It didn't look like it was going to rain so we sat on a bench. Ada crossed her legs and held onto her knees.
"So," I said when she didn't say anything, "did you want to talk about something?"
"I like you Niall. I like you more than I've ever liked someone before but I don't like that I like you. I wish I didn't like you. I wish I hated you." She spoke so fast I couldn't tell if this was good or bad. I took a hold of her face and made her look into my eyes,
"I don't care how much you like me or dislike me. Tell me what happened and why it happened." Ada looked away and began braiding her hair. She does that a lot when she doesn't know what to say or when she's nervous. I think she's feeling a little of both right now.
"I don't know. I got mad and so I drove off. I needed gas so I stopped and then I wanted to try something new. I was angry at you and Harry for fighting but I was more upset with myself so I think that I thought if I did something stupid I'd stop thinking about everything."
"And did it work?"
"Mhmm." I grabbed her arm tightly.
"Don't you ever do something that stupid ever again. Driving drunk can kill you Ada, you're smarter than that." I didn't let go of my grip but it was like she didn't mind, or that she was challenging me. I squeezed tighter. She finally pulled away.
"You can't tell me what to do Niall." She held onto her wrist, covering the spot where another bruise would appear.
"I can tell you I care about you and I swear if you try to do anything that stupid ever again I'll--"
"You'll what?" Her blue eyes were turning into an ocean. I could see the tears form like waves. "You'll hit me? Hitting me won't stop me Niall."
"No, I won't hit you. I don't want to hurt you, I never want to hurt you. But I'll feel like it's my fault. It's my fault I got you into any of this. If I wasn't here you would be with Harry and you'd be happy."
"I wouldn't though. I was with Harry because I was trying to push myself away from you. Yes, I do like Harry a lot but my feelings towards you are stronger. I can live with Harry being my friend, but I don't want you as a friend. I want more or nothing." I looked down and smiled. Was I blushing?
"Have you talked to Harry?"
"No, I was supposed to earlier but he didn't show up. I think he's really mad." I reached and pulled a yellow flower from the ground. I put it behind her ear and she giggled,
"Nah, he doesn't remember much. He does know something is up between us though." She took the flower out of her hair and smelled it. She crinkled her nose,
"This doesn't smell like anything."
"Your one of those aren't you?"
"One of what?" She asked as she put her hands on her hips.
"One of those high maintenance girls." She pushed me and laughed. I liked this. I liked us. I had to really try and keep Ada safe now; she's unpredictable. I've turned her into something and I never know when that side of her is going to come out.
Ada's Point of View
It was nearly seven and I still had a little over an hour. We always slowed down at about this time and I got bored with Scooter. We always made small talk but that was it. The door opened and Scooter greeted the customer,
"What's up Harry?" Scooter asked. I continued making a latte, pretending like I didn't hear their conversation.
"Nothing, you okay?"
"Yeah, yeah, great."
"Is Ada around?"
"Yeah," Scooter called me over. I looked at Harry and smiled.
"Do you think you could take over for a while Scooter?"
"No problem."
Harry and I walked to a table and sat in silence for a minute. I kept my arms crossed on the table so he wouldn't try to hold my hands. I made sure whenever I looked at him it was only his face. His tattoos were showing again and they were too much for me to handle.
"Do you remember anything Harry?"
"I remember getting mad because of Niall's contact name and I remember hitting him. And then I remember helping you but that's it." I sighed and just told him everything. When it got to the part where I told him I didn't want him like he wants me I wasn't as harsh.
"So then you got mad and started yelling at me and I told you I didn't exactly feel the same." Harry looked away and bit his lip. I could tell his heart was breaking even though we weren't even considered boyfriend/girlfriend. "I just, I feel something for Niall and I don't know why. It isn't his fault though and I wish you wouldn't be mad at him."
"Were you using me Ada?" I froze. I think I was using him.
"I don't know. I think that I didn't know what I wanted but I knew that I did like you. I just didn't realize how much more you liked me." Now I could feel tears in my eyes. I felt like we were breaking up. "I want to be friends with you Harry. I want what we had this summer. That was so much fun!" I tried to lighten the mood but he couldn't look at me.
"If I had asked you out on a date this summer would you have said yes?" I nodded. "Do you think you still would have fallen for Niall?" I could tell how hard it was for him to get these words out. He didn't want to know my answers.
"I can't answer that Harry. I don't know what would have happened." He stood up,
"I think I'm going to go." He sniffled,
"Wait, Harry, I don't want you to be mad."
"I'm not mad Ada," he flashed a slight smile, "I'm happy for you and I'm sorry I got in your way." Ouch. That really hurt.
"Harry, please don't do this. I still want to be friends and hang out at parties and talk at school."
"Me too, I just need some time." I guess I could deal with that answer.
"Okay." He turned away, "see you later Harry Styles." Harry froze as I spoke those last two words.
"Bye Ada." The bells on the door rang and he was gone.
"Hey mom, hey dad." I smiled wearily and poured some coffee. I really don't want to ask but I probably should, "Is everything okay?"
She sighed and my dad continued reading the paper. "We're just a little peeved with your brother." She glanced into the living room and my eyes followed hers. Liam, Zayn, and Louis were still asleep. "Your father said they were making a lot of noise last night while he was sleeping. If I weren't at work I would've gone down and said something myself." A weight seemed to lift off of my shoulder and I'm glad she wasn't home for once. I feel bad for Liam but my night was much worse. I'm guessing they don't know the others are in my room. I grabbed my dead phone,
"I guess I should finish getting ready for church. I'll see you guys this afternoon."
"Wait Ada," he was either tired or upset, "I'm leaving tonight for another business trip so I'd like for you and Liam to be home for dinner."
"Of course dad! We won't miss it." I kissed him on the forehead and ran upstairs, closing my door behind me.
I plugged in my phone and then softly tapped Harry and whispered in his ear, "Hey, get up. My parents don't know you're here." He slowly opened his eyes and moved his body around--I'm betting extremely sore.
Even though I made him and Niall furious the night before he smiled at me, "Are you okay? I was worried about you last night." I wouldn't mind waking up to his husky morning voice more often. Stop Ada, just stop.
"Yeah, I'm just an idiot. Apparently this guy over here feels the same way." I shifted towards Niall and he laughed. That was a better reaction than expected.
"Bye Ada! We're heading off!" My mom yelled up the stairs,
"Okay love you guys." I looked back at Harry. "The guys are downstairs sleeping if you want to join them. Or I'm sure Liam wouldn't mind if you laid in his bed."
"Or I could lay in your bed." He smiled but I looked away. He didn't remember our conversation from last night. Or maybe he did. He quickly picked at the skin between his eyebrows.
"I have to go to church soon but I think we should talk about some stuff tomorrow." He nodded and stood up, rubbing his back.
"Uhh, yeah. Can I take you to school? We can talk then." I don't think that would be a problem.
"Sure." I hugged him and he went downstairs. I then looked at Niall on the floor. He looked so peaceful. I went ahead and gave him a small kick,
"Wake up. I'm going to church soon and you can't be in here." I think it's funny how my relationship is so different between the two.
"Good morning to you too princess." His sarcasm mixed with his Irish morning voice was a bit of a turn on. I sat down next to him and he slowly sat up. "What have I done to you?" I wasn't expecting that. He looked so sad.
I'll tell ya what I want, what I really really want...
I smiled, saved by the bell. I ran to my phone and tried to hold it to my ear as it was plugged into the wall. "Hey El, are we still going today?"
"Yes! I just texted you a few times and you didn't respond." I could hear her sad voice.
"I'm sorry, I woke up a little late and my phone died. I just plugged it in." This wasn't a lie and it felt so good.
"It's okay!" Her peppy-ness was back. She was like Sarah except innocent. "I'm walking to my car right now, I'll be there in fifteen!" I laughed,
"Okay see you then." I hung up and Niall was up, sitting on my bed. He rubbed his eyes, looking beat. "Does your nose hurt?" He laughed,
"Yeah, a little. Your boyfriend has a mean strike."
"He's not my boyfriend Niall." I sighed and he rolled his eyes. "What happened Ada?"
"Look Niall, I don't have time for this right now. I'm going to church with El and I think you should go back downstairs with the guys. I'll see you at school tomorrow and we can talk about what happened yesterday." I spoke calm and steady. I even added a grin for the perfect touch.
Niall went back downstairs and I finished doing my hair and put on some makeup. I need to forget about last night for the day. It's Sunday, Jesus is waiting.
Harry's Point of View
From: My Ada 6:54 am
Hey Hazz, I'm really sorry but I forgot I told Oaks he could pick me up. I still want to see you though....before class meet me at your locker? I would really like that.
I can't catch a break with that girl. I know she hasn't seen Oakley in a while so I'll keep my cool. At least it's not Niall. Talking with my dad yesterday helped me with the whole Niall situation. I really have no right to be mad at him. He hasn't done anything to me--he just likes Ada. Ada's the one who messed with my heart. It's just so hard to be mad at her.
I put on some jeans and pulled out a random t-shirt. I really don't give a shit about what I look like today. I brushed my teeth and then washed my face. Looking into the mirror I saw a weak man. I have been so obsessive over Ada I've lost myself. I told myself the first day of freshman year I wouldn't get all caught up with serious relationships and girls. If I was with a girl she'd have to know it was very casual. Almost like friends with benefits. I was such a douche but life is so much easier that way--and it involves less injured body parts. I went downstairs and grabbed an orange. It was so quiet in the house when everyone was at work or just not here. Maybe I'd just stay home for the day. I never used to care. That's what I'll do. I dropped my bag and keys on the kitchen table and took off my boots. Today I'd stay home and do absolutely nothing.
I slept for a while and woke up at noon to three texts.
From: My Ada 8:01 am
I waited at your locker but I didn't see you. I hope you're not mad :( Text me when you get the chance.
I'm not mad, just tired of everything. And I'm really debating on changing her name in my phone.
From: Liam 9:45 am
Mate, you aren't here and we have some songs we want to test out! Ur our main guy where are you???
I laughed, stupid boy band wanna be's.
From: Douche Bag 11:59 am
Sorry about last night. I think we should talk or something....you know....for Ada.
And you're the last person I want to talk to. I got up and looked for some more food. I like being able to eat whenever I wanted. I forgot how much fun it is to skip school. I sat on the couch and turned on the tv but nothing's on. Day time tv sucks. I'll go for a run. I can't remember the last time I worked out. I got outside and ran down the block and through the park. My thoughts were racing: Ada, Niall, our 'boy band', school, that one freshman I had my eye on before Ada, and more thoughts about Ada. If I couldn't have Ada, I could at least try to make her jealous. What am I talking about? Ada and I are still together. We said some hurtful things the other night but I don't remember either one of us breaking it off. I stopped running and collapsed to the ground. I laid back in the wet grass and let it soak--gross. I think Ada has work today, I'll stop by so we can talk about whatever happened. I really need to stop drinking so much.
Niall's Point of View
I sat in math staring at my test. I read the numbers over and over but nothing clicked. I'm really good at math; why can't I get this? Oh, I know, because Ada's driving me insane. It's two and I'd get to talk to her in about thirty minutes if I could get through this class. When the bell rang I got up and turned my test in, not very confident on what the results may look like. I walked as fast as I could to her locker and waited. I saw her turn the corner walking with Elisha. I forgot they had last period together.
"Hey Niall!" El was always so jumpy.
"Hi El. What are you guys up to?"
"Ada has work at four so we can't really hang out but she definitely said she's coming on Wednesday!"
"I'm right here El," Ada said as she laughed. "Do you think Niall and I could talk for a few minutes?"
"Oh, yes!" El winked at Ada like she knew what was going on. I'm sure Ada made up some lie--there's no way Ada told her what happened. When she walked away Ada took a deep breath and we walked outside. It didn't look like it was going to rain so we sat on a bench. Ada crossed her legs and held onto her knees.
"So," I said when she didn't say anything, "did you want to talk about something?"
"I like you Niall. I like you more than I've ever liked someone before but I don't like that I like you. I wish I didn't like you. I wish I hated you." She spoke so fast I couldn't tell if this was good or bad. I took a hold of her face and made her look into my eyes,
"I don't care how much you like me or dislike me. Tell me what happened and why it happened." Ada looked away and began braiding her hair. She does that a lot when she doesn't know what to say or when she's nervous. I think she's feeling a little of both right now.
"I don't know. I got mad and so I drove off. I needed gas so I stopped and then I wanted to try something new. I was angry at you and Harry for fighting but I was more upset with myself so I think that I thought if I did something stupid I'd stop thinking about everything."
"And did it work?"
"Mhmm." I grabbed her arm tightly.
"Don't you ever do something that stupid ever again. Driving drunk can kill you Ada, you're smarter than that." I didn't let go of my grip but it was like she didn't mind, or that she was challenging me. I squeezed tighter. She finally pulled away.
"You can't tell me what to do Niall." She held onto her wrist, covering the spot where another bruise would appear.
"I can tell you I care about you and I swear if you try to do anything that stupid ever again I'll--"
"You'll what?" Her blue eyes were turning into an ocean. I could see the tears form like waves. "You'll hit me? Hitting me won't stop me Niall."
"No, I won't hit you. I don't want to hurt you, I never want to hurt you. But I'll feel like it's my fault. It's my fault I got you into any of this. If I wasn't here you would be with Harry and you'd be happy."
"I wouldn't though. I was with Harry because I was trying to push myself away from you. Yes, I do like Harry a lot but my feelings towards you are stronger. I can live with Harry being my friend, but I don't want you as a friend. I want more or nothing." I looked down and smiled. Was I blushing?
"Have you talked to Harry?"
"No, I was supposed to earlier but he didn't show up. I think he's really mad." I reached and pulled a yellow flower from the ground. I put it behind her ear and she giggled,
"Nah, he doesn't remember much. He does know something is up between us though." She took the flower out of her hair and smelled it. She crinkled her nose,
"This doesn't smell like anything."
"Your one of those aren't you?"
"One of what?" She asked as she put her hands on her hips.
"One of those high maintenance girls." She pushed me and laughed. I liked this. I liked us. I had to really try and keep Ada safe now; she's unpredictable. I've turned her into something and I never know when that side of her is going to come out.
Ada's Point of View
It was nearly seven and I still had a little over an hour. We always slowed down at about this time and I got bored with Scooter. We always made small talk but that was it. The door opened and Scooter greeted the customer,
"What's up Harry?" Scooter asked. I continued making a latte, pretending like I didn't hear their conversation.
"Nothing, you okay?"
"Yeah, yeah, great."
"Is Ada around?"
"Yeah," Scooter called me over. I looked at Harry and smiled.
"Do you think you could take over for a while Scooter?"
"No problem."
Harry and I walked to a table and sat in silence for a minute. I kept my arms crossed on the table so he wouldn't try to hold my hands. I made sure whenever I looked at him it was only his face. His tattoos were showing again and they were too much for me to handle.
"Do you remember anything Harry?"
"I remember getting mad because of Niall's contact name and I remember hitting him. And then I remember helping you but that's it." I sighed and just told him everything. When it got to the part where I told him I didn't want him like he wants me I wasn't as harsh.
"So then you got mad and started yelling at me and I told you I didn't exactly feel the same." Harry looked away and bit his lip. I could tell his heart was breaking even though we weren't even considered boyfriend/girlfriend. "I just, I feel something for Niall and I don't know why. It isn't his fault though and I wish you wouldn't be mad at him."
"Were you using me Ada?" I froze. I think I was using him.
"I don't know. I think that I didn't know what I wanted but I knew that I did like you. I just didn't realize how much more you liked me." Now I could feel tears in my eyes. I felt like we were breaking up. "I want to be friends with you Harry. I want what we had this summer. That was so much fun!" I tried to lighten the mood but he couldn't look at me.
"If I had asked you out on a date this summer would you have said yes?" I nodded. "Do you think you still would have fallen for Niall?" I could tell how hard it was for him to get these words out. He didn't want to know my answers.
"I can't answer that Harry. I don't know what would have happened." He stood up,
"I think I'm going to go." He sniffled,
"Wait, Harry, I don't want you to be mad."
"I'm not mad Ada," he flashed a slight smile, "I'm happy for you and I'm sorry I got in your way." Ouch. That really hurt.
"Harry, please don't do this. I still want to be friends and hang out at parties and talk at school."
"Me too, I just need some time." I guess I could deal with that answer.
"Okay." He turned away, "see you later Harry Styles." Harry froze as I spoke those last two words.
"Bye Ada." The bells on the door rang and he was gone.
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