To Soon
Chapter 2
Louis's point of View)
I loved being back home. Me and Chelsea were just sitting on the couch. Her laying on my chest just talking about what all i've missed since i've been gone. Whether it be about her, or Ella. I hate that I'm having to miss out on my daughter's life and that I'm having to leave my beautiful girlfriend at home all the time to take care of her. Not a day goes by that i don't think about how I'm the reason she's not finishing college and following her dream. Instead she's having to stay at home and take care of OUR daughter, which is something i should have to be here to help with, but at the same time i have to provide for my family, and that's what i'm doing now. Man i've really missed Chelsea. I love it when she's just sitting here on my chest. I fall more in love with her everyday.
"So are you excited for New York ?" I asked.
"Beyond excited ! I think that it's gonna be really good for us to just get away, and see what life is like on the road, and see how Ella adapts to it."
"Do you think that mabey ya'll could come on a big tour with us ? It's just I feel like i'm missing out on so much in Ella's life and i want to be able to grow old and be talking to her and be like 'remember when you...' and i feel like if i'm not in her life more than i am now then i'll never get to have those moments with her. I guess i just worry about us not having any daddy daughter moments because of my life now."
"I think it would be great for her to have more time with you, but I'm just not sure if being on the road and never in the same place for more than a week at the most isn't good for her, but I'll take it into consideration. I think we just need to see how New York goes first before we worry about a big tour yet."
"I love how relaxing you are. You just make me feel like i have nothing to ever worry about." She just does her famous little giggle in response. God, did i love that giggle. It was so cute. "Does she love me ?"
"Who Lou ?" Did i mention how much i love when she calls me that ? It makes my heart melt.
"Ella. I feel like leaving her as often as i do may make her not love me. It's just something i worry about. Alout."
"Lou, don't you ever think for one seond that Ella dosn't love you. Sure, when you leave she does get very upset, and she dosn't understand, but i mean what can you expect ? She's only 2. but look at me Lou" I lokked down into those beautiful, mezmorizing, blue eyes of hers. "When you're gone, she never stops talking about you. She always asks to call you, or asks when you will be home, or if she can color you a picture... Lou, she loves you so much more than you will ever know. Your such an inspiration to her Lou." This brought tears to my eyes. To know that she's always thinking about me makes me so happy. And when she said that I'm an inspiration to her, i couldn't even describe how that made me feel. And it's almost like she heard us talking about her, but she starts busting out in cries. Chelsea starts to get up to go calm her down.
"No missy. You stay here I'll go get her." I walk up the stairs to her bedroom to see her standing in her crib sucking her thumb, and crying. I go and pick her up and start bouncing her up and down in my arms and swaying back and forth to try to calm her down. "Shhhh princess, it's okay. Daddy's here. Shhhh. You'll be ok." I went and sat down in the rocking chair and started rocking her to try to put her to sleep. Even though this took a long time, i didn't mind it. I loved just sitting here and looking at her beautiful face. In my opinion, and may others, she looks just like me. I don't mean that in a boasting way, but she just has the green eyes, and brown hair. She's so beautiful. Everytime I'm just sitting still, taking in all of her features, i flash back to the first time i ever held her. Goodness, that was a big day.
*flashback*
"Come on Chelsea, just one more time baby, one more and then we get to see our beautiful little girl." I coax Chelsea on as she's giving birth to our beautifu little girl that i'll get to see in just a few seconds. I was so excited ! But i was also hating seeing Chelsea in this much pain. Especially knowing that I'm the reason she's like this."One more time baby girl, one more" and with that the doctors starting counting down for her to push for the last time.
"Well, Mr. and Mrs. Tomlison (i love how Chelsea was being adressed by Mrs.Tomlinson for the day) your daughter is now here." ahhh, there they are. The words i've been waiting to hear for 9 months now. Chelsea had just got done pushing, and they had cleaned her off and handed her to us. Well me specifically. I looked down at the beautiful girl i'm holding in my arms. I could tell from an instant she was gonna look just like me. I've never felt like i did in that moment. I've never loved someone so much. This human being is mine. This is what I've made. There's just no words to describe how i felt in that moment. Chelsea looked up at me as tears started forming in my eyes.
"Lou, why are you crying ?" she sounded so weak, which could be expected. i still hadn't looked up from this beautiful baby i had in my arms.
"She's beautiful." I still couldn't look up. She was just so mezmerizing.
"Well let me see her." i lent down and handed the beautiful girl to her equally as beautiful mom. I lent down and kissed Chelsea on her lips, then her forehead. I pushed the hair off her forehead.
"You did so good baby girl. I love you." then i placed another kiss on her forehead.*end of flashback*
She really is just the most beautiful thing in the world. She amazes me everyday, and I'm looking foward to seeing how she adjusts to her dad's lifestyles this next week.
I loved being back home. Me and Chelsea were just sitting on the couch. Her laying on my chest just talking about what all i've missed since i've been gone. Whether it be about her, or Ella. I hate that I'm having to miss out on my daughter's life and that I'm having to leave my beautiful girlfriend at home all the time to take care of her. Not a day goes by that i don't think about how I'm the reason she's not finishing college and following her dream. Instead she's having to stay at home and take care of OUR daughter, which is something i should have to be here to help with, but at the same time i have to provide for my family, and that's what i'm doing now. Man i've really missed Chelsea. I love it when she's just sitting here on my chest. I fall more in love with her everyday.
"So are you excited for New York ?" I asked.
"Beyond excited ! I think that it's gonna be really good for us to just get away, and see what life is like on the road, and see how Ella adapts to it."
"Do you think that mabey ya'll could come on a big tour with us ? It's just I feel like i'm missing out on so much in Ella's life and i want to be able to grow old and be talking to her and be like 'remember when you...' and i feel like if i'm not in her life more than i am now then i'll never get to have those moments with her. I guess i just worry about us not having any daddy daughter moments because of my life now."
"I think it would be great for her to have more time with you, but I'm just not sure if being on the road and never in the same place for more than a week at the most isn't good for her, but I'll take it into consideration. I think we just need to see how New York goes first before we worry about a big tour yet."
"I love how relaxing you are. You just make me feel like i have nothing to ever worry about." She just does her famous little giggle in response. God, did i love that giggle. It was so cute. "Does she love me ?"
"Who Lou ?" Did i mention how much i love when she calls me that ? It makes my heart melt.
"Ella. I feel like leaving her as often as i do may make her not love me. It's just something i worry about. Alout."
"Lou, don't you ever think for one seond that Ella dosn't love you. Sure, when you leave she does get very upset, and she dosn't understand, but i mean what can you expect ? She's only 2. but look at me Lou" I lokked down into those beautiful, mezmorizing, blue eyes of hers. "When you're gone, she never stops talking about you. She always asks to call you, or asks when you will be home, or if she can color you a picture... Lou, she loves you so much more than you will ever know. Your such an inspiration to her Lou." This brought tears to my eyes. To know that she's always thinking about me makes me so happy. And when she said that I'm an inspiration to her, i couldn't even describe how that made me feel. And it's almost like she heard us talking about her, but she starts busting out in cries. Chelsea starts to get up to go calm her down.
"No missy. You stay here I'll go get her." I walk up the stairs to her bedroom to see her standing in her crib sucking her thumb, and crying. I go and pick her up and start bouncing her up and down in my arms and swaying back and forth to try to calm her down. "Shhhh princess, it's okay. Daddy's here. Shhhh. You'll be ok." I went and sat down in the rocking chair and started rocking her to try to put her to sleep. Even though this took a long time, i didn't mind it. I loved just sitting here and looking at her beautiful face. In my opinion, and may others, she looks just like me. I don't mean that in a boasting way, but she just has the green eyes, and brown hair. She's so beautiful. Everytime I'm just sitting still, taking in all of her features, i flash back to the first time i ever held her. Goodness, that was a big day.
*flashback*
"Come on Chelsea, just one more time baby, one more and then we get to see our beautiful little girl." I coax Chelsea on as she's giving birth to our beautifu little girl that i'll get to see in just a few seconds. I was so excited ! But i was also hating seeing Chelsea in this much pain. Especially knowing that I'm the reason she's like this."One more time baby girl, one more" and with that the doctors starting counting down for her to push for the last time.
"Well, Mr. and Mrs. Tomlison (i love how Chelsea was being adressed by Mrs.Tomlinson for the day) your daughter is now here." ahhh, there they are. The words i've been waiting to hear for 9 months now. Chelsea had just got done pushing, and they had cleaned her off and handed her to us. Well me specifically. I looked down at the beautiful girl i'm holding in my arms. I could tell from an instant she was gonna look just like me. I've never felt like i did in that moment. I've never loved someone so much. This human being is mine. This is what I've made. There's just no words to describe how i felt in that moment. Chelsea looked up at me as tears started forming in my eyes.
"Lou, why are you crying ?" she sounded so weak, which could be expected. i still hadn't looked up from this beautiful baby i had in my arms.
"She's beautiful." I still couldn't look up. She was just so mezmerizing.
"Well let me see her." i lent down and handed the beautiful girl to her equally as beautiful mom. I lent down and kissed Chelsea on her lips, then her forehead. I pushed the hair off her forehead.
"You did so good baby girl. I love you." then i placed another kiss on her forehead.*end of flashback*
She really is just the most beautiful thing in the world. She amazes me everyday, and I'm looking foward to seeing how she adjusts to her dad's lifestyles this next week.
Notes
Hope ya'll are still enjoying ! It usually dosn't take me this long to update, but i didn't have good connection over the weekend !I love hearing ya'lls thoughts on the story ! please get commenting and voting !
Sorry for any typo's !
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11/17/13