The Broken Ones
Chapter 1
"Did you ever TRY to ever think about how I felt? Did you ever wonder why I was so sad? Did you ever THINK that something was wrong with me? Do you even care about me?" I yelled.
The words hung in the air while I cried my eyes out.
I dropped to my knees. I barely whispered it when I said, "Does anyone care? At all? Do you all ever wonder how I ever felt when you left me out? I already went through this once, why do I have to do this again? Why does God hate me so much? What did I ever do you you guys to make you hate me so much?"
I hung my head down and cried.
My best friend, Cece ran to me. She was crying when she told me, "We do care. And I'm so sorry that I did this to you. You know we didn't mean to!"
"That's what they all said.. before they left me. I didn't want this to happen. But it did." I tilted my head up and put it back down.
I looked up at the faces surrounding me. My mom, my dad, my best friends, my other so called friends, my old friends, my family.
"Did you ever think," I barely whispered to them "That I wouldn't ever feel the pain when you hurt me? People say the nicest people are the ones who always get hurt the most. Well i'm always hurt. And YOU didn't even THINK about helping me! Did you ever wonder why I smiled so much? Why you never heard from me at night? Why I take such long showers?"
I continued.
I feel so lonely and yet you people dance around.. singing. I have no-one in this world so why didn't you just leave me to die? I don't want this life. You say you love me, and that you care about me but you don't. You never will."
I looked at my mom. " And you mother, You told me to kill myself and I tried to and yet you stopped me. How dare you. " I stood up and lunged at her before I was stopped by my dad.
He held me tightly with his arm around mine.
"Stop. You know we care about you. You know we never wanted this to happen."
"And yet it did. Stop lying to yourself. You know you don't want me. I don't want you either. " I spat. If looks could kill, everyone would be dead.
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"Why couldn't you just let me die that night? I don't care anymore. I'll do it again. And you won't be able to stop me." I smirked.
"I'll come back though. And i'll haunt your damned lifes forever. You'll never die without me knowing it. Just watch." With one last look at my family and friends, I stood up. "Next time, don't stop me. Leave me to die. You wouldn't even care." I laughed. I looked at them.
Cece was still on the ground crying in her hands.
"Cece," She looked up. I held out my hands to her. "You see this? Do you see the cuts?" She nodded slowly at me while the tears were still running down her face. "This is what you did to me. What all of you did to me. Don't ever think about saying sorry to me when i'll never forgive you. Don't even try." I sneered.
I looked at my ex-best friend Madison. "And you, did you ever think about what you did when you hurt me that day?" She nodded. She knew what I was talking about. It was a long time ago but we fought and she took everyone away from me to her side. "You gave me this scar." I pointed to the long, jagged cut on my left arm.
"You almost killed me. Taking everyone to your side like it was your favorite thing to do. It's easy to hurt someone like me isn't it? But when I unleash all my anger out you get mad at ME. It should be the other way!" I yelled.
I looked at everyone, they were all crying.
"Yeah, cry for me. You'll cry even harder when I'm gone." I said. I reached in my pocket for the object of my desires. I took it out and it shined in my hand. Shiny and sharp.
Everyone gasped as I took it out. "Where did you get that? We took them from you!" My mom cried out.
"You didn't bother looking for any on me didn't you?" I replied.
I took the object and secured it safely in my hand. I held it between my forefingers as I laid my right arm in front of me. Slowly, I took the blade toward my arm and cut.
Slowly and painfully, I cut while my audience looked on silently.
The blood quickly rushed out and landed on my pants and the ground.
Cece looked up at me and yelled, "Stop! Please. Nat please stop!" "No." I said firmly as I slid the blade against another mark on my skin.
I winced. "You wanted this. You have it now." I slid in another spot.
When I was done, my pants was covered in my blood and I wiped my hand against my face.
My grandma fell down on her knees. She cried out, "Please Natalie. Please stop. I love you. You know I do!" "I know grandma, but these people don't care about me enough to even stop me from cutting NOW. But I love you too grandma. Way more than I do the others."
I walked up to her and wrapped my blood-soaked hands around her small frame. I whispered, "I love you." in her ear. "I love you too, cherie" I smiled.
I stood up and waved my hands up. "Are you people happy now? I'm closer to dying. I would expect some of you to be jumping right now."
A honk came from somewhere and then I saw a mess of brown curls.
Harry.
"Nat!" He ran up to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"Can you get off?" I yelled.
He stumbled back, probably shocked. He looked at me and then my arms. He gasped.
"Babe, what's wrong with your arms? Di-did you cut yourself? Are you ok?!" He asked.
"I am." "No you're not. Please. Tell me."
He looked at me but I looked away.
He always brought out my nicest side. It's such a shame that i'll l-lose him someday. I don't want to but these people hate me so much I just can't take it anymore..
I turned to my mom. "Did you ever think about what you did when you hurt me? When you fucking screamed at me? When you threw my to the ground and kicked my stomache until I couldn't breathe? Did you ever think I would be able to forgive you? You have caused the MOST PAIN I HAVE EVER HAD YOU BITCH. I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS. I WILL NEVER EVER LOVE YOU. NOT EVEN WHEN I'M IN HELL." I glared at her.
She fell to the ground and sobbed loudly.
Everyone turned to look at her before staring at me.
"Don't even ask me to say sorry, She ruined my life." I told them.
My heart was beating faster.
"Please. You know we care about you!" Cece stated.
"Nat. Please tell me what's wrong. You know I care about you." Harry started. "Please." He looked at me with his green orbs.
"Can you all please stop pretending to care? I have had enough with all of you!" I screamed. I looked away from him. My heart beat faster and faster until it stopped.
I fell to the ground immediately and the last thing I saw was everyone rushing toward me.
The words hung in the air while I cried my eyes out.
I dropped to my knees. I barely whispered it when I said, "Does anyone care? At all? Do you all ever wonder how I ever felt when you left me out? I already went through this once, why do I have to do this again? Why does God hate me so much? What did I ever do you you guys to make you hate me so much?"
I hung my head down and cried.
My best friend, Cece ran to me. She was crying when she told me, "We do care. And I'm so sorry that I did this to you. You know we didn't mean to!"
"That's what they all said.. before they left me. I didn't want this to happen. But it did." I tilted my head up and put it back down.
I looked up at the faces surrounding me. My mom, my dad, my best friends, my other so called friends, my old friends, my family.
"Did you ever think," I barely whispered to them "That I wouldn't ever feel the pain when you hurt me? People say the nicest people are the ones who always get hurt the most. Well i'm always hurt. And YOU didn't even THINK about helping me! Did you ever wonder why I smiled so much? Why you never heard from me at night? Why I take such long showers?"
I continued.
I feel so lonely and yet you people dance around.. singing. I have no-one in this world so why didn't you just leave me to die? I don't want this life. You say you love me, and that you care about me but you don't. You never will."
I looked at my mom. " And you mother, You told me to kill myself and I tried to and yet you stopped me. How dare you. " I stood up and lunged at her before I was stopped by my dad.
He held me tightly with his arm around mine.
"Stop. You know we care about you. You know we never wanted this to happen."
"And yet it did. Stop lying to yourself. You know you don't want me. I don't want you either. " I spat. If looks could kill, everyone would be dead.
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"Why couldn't you just let me die that night? I don't care anymore. I'll do it again. And you won't be able to stop me." I smirked.
"I'll come back though. And i'll haunt your damned lifes forever. You'll never die without me knowing it. Just watch." With one last look at my family and friends, I stood up. "Next time, don't stop me. Leave me to die. You wouldn't even care." I laughed. I looked at them.
Cece was still on the ground crying in her hands.
"Cece," She looked up. I held out my hands to her. "You see this? Do you see the cuts?" She nodded slowly at me while the tears were still running down her face. "This is what you did to me. What all of you did to me. Don't ever think about saying sorry to me when i'll never forgive you. Don't even try." I sneered.
I looked at my ex-best friend Madison. "And you, did you ever think about what you did when you hurt me that day?" She nodded. She knew what I was talking about. It was a long time ago but we fought and she took everyone away from me to her side. "You gave me this scar." I pointed to the long, jagged cut on my left arm.
"You almost killed me. Taking everyone to your side like it was your favorite thing to do. It's easy to hurt someone like me isn't it? But when I unleash all my anger out you get mad at ME. It should be the other way!" I yelled.
I looked at everyone, they were all crying.
"Yeah, cry for me. You'll cry even harder when I'm gone." I said. I reached in my pocket for the object of my desires. I took it out and it shined in my hand. Shiny and sharp.
Everyone gasped as I took it out. "Where did you get that? We took them from you!" My mom cried out.
"You didn't bother looking for any on me didn't you?" I replied.
I took the object and secured it safely in my hand. I held it between my forefingers as I laid my right arm in front of me. Slowly, I took the blade toward my arm and cut.
Slowly and painfully, I cut while my audience looked on silently.
The blood quickly rushed out and landed on my pants and the ground.
Cece looked up at me and yelled, "Stop! Please. Nat please stop!" "No." I said firmly as I slid the blade against another mark on my skin.
I winced. "You wanted this. You have it now." I slid in another spot.
When I was done, my pants was covered in my blood and I wiped my hand against my face.
My grandma fell down on her knees. She cried out, "Please Natalie. Please stop. I love you. You know I do!" "I know grandma, but these people don't care about me enough to even stop me from cutting NOW. But I love you too grandma. Way more than I do the others."
I walked up to her and wrapped my blood-soaked hands around her small frame. I whispered, "I love you." in her ear. "I love you too, cherie" I smiled.
I stood up and waved my hands up. "Are you people happy now? I'm closer to dying. I would expect some of you to be jumping right now."
A honk came from somewhere and then I saw a mess of brown curls.
Harry.
"Nat!" He ran up to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"Can you get off?" I yelled.
He stumbled back, probably shocked. He looked at me and then my arms. He gasped.
"Babe, what's wrong with your arms? Di-did you cut yourself? Are you ok?!" He asked.
"I am." "No you're not. Please. Tell me."
He looked at me but I looked away.
He always brought out my nicest side. It's such a shame that i'll l-lose him someday. I don't want to but these people hate me so much I just can't take it anymore..
I turned to my mom. "Did you ever think about what you did when you hurt me? When you fucking screamed at me? When you threw my to the ground and kicked my stomache until I couldn't breathe? Did you ever think I would be able to forgive you? You have caused the MOST PAIN I HAVE EVER HAD YOU BITCH. I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS. I WILL NEVER EVER LOVE YOU. NOT EVEN WHEN I'M IN HELL." I glared at her.
She fell to the ground and sobbed loudly.
Everyone turned to look at her before staring at me.
"Don't even ask me to say sorry, She ruined my life." I told them.
My heart was beating faster.
"Please. You know we care about you!" Cece stated.
"Nat. Please tell me what's wrong. You know I care about you." Harry started. "Please." He looked at me with his green orbs.
"Can you all please stop pretending to care? I have had enough with all of you!" I screamed. I looked away from him. My heart beat faster and faster until it stopped.
I fell to the ground immediately and the last thing I saw was everyone rushing toward me.
