"Oh? What do you mean by that?" I can tell by the look on Mark's face that he had no idea what he was in for.

But how could he? All of the pictures published of the boys and I were very PG. I mean, they would literally have to drag Louis and I away from the drugs to take a decent picture before a concert. But that's not my fault. They all had their skeletons before I had even gotten the call to spend the summer with them.

"Well I take responsibility for everything that happened between them and I because it IS my fault for getting involved. But they were the ones that put these options in front of me."

"Hm, okay. Well there was lots of speculation before hand that whoever was chosen would get sexually involved with one of the boys. Did that opportunity present itself?"

I let out a laugh, "Yes, it did."

His eyes light up, "Really? With who? And did you take that opportunity?"

I smile mischievously, "With Niall, Zayn, and Louis. But Louis was more of a drunken 'love me' thing. I spent the majority of the time lusting after Zayn, who I thought wasn't an option. That is, until he was. Niall and I also hooked up quite a few times."

"So you were romantically involved with the both of them?" He looks puzzled, this must be a lot to take in for an outsider.

Flashback
"Blair, wait!" Zayn screamed.

"What!" I replied, tears brimming my eyes.

"If you've ever loved me, you won't go to him! Please don't." He looked so hurt, but that wasn't my problem.

"Why?! Because he's single and can actually be a good person to me? Zayn you're engaged! I believed the 'it's for publicity' thing as long as I could. But seeing you with her?! She LOVES you! I'm not that girl, you can't stop me from wanting to be happy!"

He walked towards me and I took a step back, knowing that when he touched me it would be all over. That little bit of contact would ruin all of the progress I've made trying to stay away from him.

"Baby listen to me.. Perrie may have feelings for me. I don't know. She's never said anything if she does. But you are the only one I want. Why don't you believe me?!" He was reaching for any leverage he could get. This was one fight I wasn't going to lose, if I did.. It would all be over.

"If YOU'VE ever loved me, you'll let me go.." I whispered, using every ounce of restraint I had left not to burst into tears.

"I'll always love you.." He whispered, staring at his feet.

---

"Niall stop!" I squealed as he pulled me into his dressing room.

"Why B! You scared someone will see us?" He grinned, knowing I loved the chance of getting caught doing something that I wasn't supposed to.

"Maybe.." I grinned and kissed him as hard as I could.

He was clearly taken aback by my notion and we stumbled onto the couch behind us. Moments later, Lou started banging on the door.

"Just a minute!!!" Niall yelled, clasping his hand over my mouth to muffle my laugh.

"You two think you're so slick! I know what's going on in there!" She was smiling, I could hear it. If anyone was team Niall/Blair it was Lou. Even baby Lux would say Uncle Niall's friend Auntie Blair. To them, I would always be Niall's.

End Flashback


"Yes I was. But the two relationships were very different and both very complicated." I explain.

He nods his head, jotting some notes down on his note pad.

" Have you had contact with the boys since you left the tour last August?" He asks.

"I spoke to Liam on the phone a couple of times, mostly just arguing. But that was back in september. Since then, no I have not."

Flashback
"What Blair?" Liam finally answered my call, thank the Lord.

"Liam I just want to talk." I pleaded.

"Can we not do this now? I have sound check in 10 minutes."

"When is it ever going to be a good time for this?!" I could feel the tears brimming in my eyes, he couldn't ignore me forever.

"I don't know Blair, 6 weeks ago perhaps?! I finally gave up on you! I had too. You spent so much time worrying about yourself you neglected to give an explanation to the one person who deserved it! You just left! You left me!" He cried.

I tried to hold back my sobs, they wouldn't help the situation. They'd only make it worse.

"I'm sorry... I want to explain why I left."

"It's too late Blair."

That was the last conversation I had with Liam Payne. It's been destroying my life ever since.

---

"Okay Ms. Kelly! We're almost finished here. So describe these people in one word."

I grin, this is good.

"Harry Styles."

"Masochist." I'll leave out the real word for later.

"Liam Payne."

"Coward." I hope he reads that.

"Niall Horan."

"Obsessive."

"Louis Tomlinson."

"Addict." Who doesn't know that.

"Zayn Malik."

I grin, "Heartbreaker."