Six months later

Three days later- Skylar's POV

I took a deep breath before opening the car door and getting out. We were at the church and my moms funeral was in about half an hour. I had prepared my self since I found out about the cancer to face all these sad faces and condolences from strangers. I thought I had prepared my self to say goodbye to my mom for forever but that isn't the case. When I walked into the church my brothers were all standing and talking to the priest as well as my father. Niall had to stop and get the flowers and he knew I wouldn't be ready to deal with the boys screaming a yet this morning. I walked slowly up the long isle where my parents had once married and re-newed their vows. I hate being here for such a sad thing. My mom would never be able to watch Nat and Manny walk down the isle, she wouldn't be able to watch Nate or Josh or Alex find their other half to marry. She would never meet this child or ant of theirs. My kids would never again wake up to make Christmas cookies at dawn with their grandma. This fucking sucks! Tears came to my eyes thinking about it and my hand flitted to my still growing belly. My mom wouldn't be able to help me diligent this baby. Tears flowed steadily now but I sucked it up when I heard Al run I to the church making airplane noises while holding his toy above his head to make it fly. Apparently everything was goin to make me cry today because my shoulders started to shake. This was something my mom taught him. Last night I burst into tears when Al came up to me while I was folding clothes and told me, 'that's not how grandma does it! She wouldn't like you very much right now mommy!" That's when I thought for the first time ever that I could kill my self.

"Baby, it's time," Niall broke me from my thoughts as he pulled me to the fount row. People started filing in and soon there were so many people the doors were posted open and people were standing lining the walls and cramped into the pews. People were everywhere. Niall held me close while my brothers sat near me so they all were holding my hand or had a hand on m shoulder.

"Today, we gather to say farewell to the beloved mother, sister, niece, daughter, wife, cousin, grandmother and friend, Judy Ann Smith. I have known Judy and her husband Jack from the time they first started dating. I married them, I have baptized each of their children and their daughters sons. Judy was in the middle of helping plan one of her sons weddings which was to take place here and had just completed her third to final round of chemo therapy. It is with a heavy heart that we must say goodbye to Judy. Judy was a wonderful mother and grandmother. Her and my wife were great friends. Our children grew up as great friends and we have dinners quite often. She was a nurse to her children and delivered each if her grandsons in her house when they were born early. I'm so sorrowful to say this third grandchild won't have those memories but I am so happy to say her grandsons have had that blessing. Anyone who knew Judy knew she was a great person and it was an honor. Today we acknowledge that we lost a wonderful soul but I have no don't she is watching us with her wings already in place. Her children would each like to shade something great. First her only daughter Skylar,"

I walked put the three short steps and turned to the podium. I looked out on the faces I had seen a million time and the ones u had never seen, "my mom was a great women. She blessed me with knowledge i will forever treasure. I will not only miss her company and love but waking up and going to the kitchen to see my mom and oldest don't with flour in their hair and my youngest in his highchair a giggling mess with it on his hands. I will always treasure waking up after having my youngest son and getting up to do laundry only to see my mom had broke in and done my chores so I could go back to bed. My mother was the most knowledgable women you will ever meet and she was better at everything as did then you could think imaginable. I-I can't help but feel her holding my hand because I don't believe all of her left. She was the best person and my personal hero. I looked to her with every question because she had raised four little boys. My moms always has been, always will be my hero. I love you mommy," tears streamed freely busy so did everyone else's. I walked off the stage as manny stood when I took my seat.

"Mommy why is everyone crying over grandma?" Al asked with sad eyes. I started crying more and hugged him close. Manny was approaching the podium.

"Baby boy, grammie had to leave because she was in a lot of pain okay?" I tried to get him off the subject.

"When will she come back mommy? I miss grandma!" He had tears in his eyes.

"Baby grandma can't come back, it would hurt too much," tears were shaking my body.

"No! I want my grandma! I want her back! Make her come back! Grandma would never leave me! Grandma ice me! Mommy I want my grandma!" He yelled as he clung to me while I club to him. Tears shook my whole body. Niall pulled him away and everyone began to cry at the sight of the little boy. I curved into Nate who was sitting on the other side of me. Josh took Niall's spot and Alex crouched in front of me. They soothed me as tears streamed down their face as well. My dad moved toward us and pulled me into his lap. This was the first time her had down much of anything since... Since my mommy left.

"My mom. She saved me. She dm saved me and my brother from a horrible life and she brought is into her home like we were never meant to be anywhere else in the world. My mom raised us to treat women right and when she somehow knew it was coming close to the last day she told us boys to watch over our little sister like we always have and protect her from the hurt that it would cause her. I don think my mom knew the hurt would come from somewhere we couldn't stop the hurt. Our hearts. Our mom was the heart and soul of everything. My dad who could be called the backbone of it all came crashing down when this all happened. As we all grew up we were used to my dad quietly soothing our mom when the emotions got the best of her but we had never once seen much of and emotional scale unless someone hurt our sister. Our mom meant everything to us and you saw as my nephew reacted to something being protected. She was the most impacted person that my life has ever had. My mom was and is a super hero. I couldn't have ever met a better women or mother. I cherish every moment I spent with her," Manny walked toward us and we moved over so we could hug him as the tears came down his face. My brothers took their turns talking and said alon the same things as Manny and i. When we were beginning to get ready and stand at the doors like normal for people to talk to us Al pulled on my hand.

"Mommy? Can I say somethin' 'bout grandma?" He had finally got calmed down after realizing his beloved grandma wasn't coming home. I nodded as tears came to my eyes and we walked up to the podium.

"Hold on everyone, my son has something to add," I took a deep breath and picked him up over my growing belly so he could talk into the microphone.

"Hi. My name is Alexander But everyone calls me Alex. My daddy and mommy told me MY grandma left us today. She left for forever and they said that it's doesn't matter cause she still lives me. But now my new baby sister will never meet her. My grandma was the best in the world. It's not fair. I lived my grandma more than my brother! I want her back." He started crying and so did I but Niall pulled us both to the door. I held hands with my brothers as people have us condolences. I felt like I could no longer cry. I sat with a sad look on my face through the car ride to the cemetery. When we got there my six uncles carried the casket to the plot. They set it on a table and backed away. I clung to Niall as everyone looked down while we prayed once more. They began to lower the casket and the flood gates suddenly filled again. I leaned into Niall as he walked us to the car. My mommy was officially gone.

"It's a girl?" Niall asked me and I hiccuped looking at him confused.

"Wh-what are y-you t-t-talk-talking about?" I stuttered out as we got ino the car.

"Alex said 'my little sister' the baby is a girl?" He asked softly squeezing my hand. I nodded and he kissed my lips lightly, "I'm sorry baby."

The drive home was silent because the boys were staying at Anna's tonight. We got out of the car and I went to get the mail. I opened it and was going through it until I got to the last envelope and dropped all the mail. It was to me from, from... Not possible.

Notes

I'm sorry it has taken so long! I wanted to start that other story before it ate away at me! Please vote subscribe comment and enjoy! Please check out my other story 'Knock Knock' thanks coconuts! :)