Lost and Found

"What?" I breathed.

He knew? Zayn must have told them all. I can't be mad about that though. How could I ask him to keep something like this a secret? Granted, it wasn't his secret to share so yeah, I'm a little pissed. I have the right to be this time.

"What do you actually remember?" He asked, eyes wide with curiousity.

I shouldn't tell him. It's not his job to pry at my life.

"Nothing." I blurted, knowing it was a lie. Things were randomly coming back to me and I knew that. I just haven't put all the pieces together yet. That is, if I even have all of the puzzle pieces yet.

"You and I both know that's a lie." Louis stated with a slight chuckle. My heart sank. Why have I always been such a bad liar?

"I remember pieces. Not that I'm going to tell you what they are, but I remember bits of my past." I replied vaguely. I am not going to tell him any more than I have to.

"Does Zayn have anything to do with it?" My breath hitched in my throat. How did he guess that? Is it that obvious? I could feel the panic seep onto my features. Well, if he didn't, he does now. "Ahh, so it does. I thought so. Care to share?" Louis inquired, scooching closer to me, our knees just barely touching. His face was about a foot from mine.

"Nope." I popped the p at the end, watching his lips twitch into a smirk.

"Ya know, you remind me of someone." Louis thought aloud and instantly, I was intrigued. I remind him of someone? Maybe he knew me in the past! This could be it. Louis could be the key to it all.

"Really?" I asked, not able to keep the excitement from my voice. "Who?"

"Someone I used to know. You guys look alike." He sighed despairingly.

We look alike? Can it be? I should ask him some more questions.

Yeah, I should.

"What was her name?" I asked softly. Louis looks kind of upset over something. I shouldn't be too happy about this. But I am. Oh, whatever. I'm just gonna ask my damn questions. It's my past!

"Andria." Louis whispered, his eyes scanning mine. I searched my brain for any remembrance of the name, any hint that it could have once belonged to me. I found none. I guess maybe, we just look alike then. Maybe we aren't the same person.

"How old is she?" I asked. Might as well comfort Louis, if I can't help myself. It's the least I can do.

"She would be 19 right now."

Wow, no wonder we seem alike. We're both the same age. I wish I could recognize the name. If I could, then maybe I would know what happened to me and who I am. Who I'm supposed to be.

"Would be? What happened to her?" I couldn't help myself from asking. Louis's eyes seemed to shine as he cleared his throat. What happened to this girl? Why is he so upset?

"She- um, she died." A gasp left me as Louis's head fell forward, sagging toward the ground. He looked defeated. I could help but feel bad for him. My hand clamped over my mouth in shock. She's dead...

Wait. I remind him of a dead girl?

Not the point, Andi. Not the point at all.

"How?" I tried to keep my lips shut, but the word floated out into the world. I couldn't take it back now.

"We were all coming back from a tour. Me and the boys. And everything was fine. But somehow, we ended up in an accident on one of the bridges. Andria had taken her seatbelt off to change the radio because Liam wouldn't change it. He was driving, that was his reason, he was driving so he got to choose what we listened to, but Andira didn't like that rule. So when we were hit by the car, us boys were fine. The windshield had a hole though and Andria was-" He choked on his words. I moved instantly next to him, my hand rubbing his back soothingly. Poor Louis. Imagine what that must of been like. What happened to Andria?

"Andria was missing." He mumbled. My eyes widened, but I held my tongue. I had a feeling the story wasn't over. I was right.

"We all got out of the car and we could see something splashing down in the water. I knew it was Andria. But if any of us had jumped, we probably would have died before we could save her. I don't know how she was still alive after she hit the water." Tears drifted down from his eyes, but never once did he wipe them away. Instead, he turned his head to face, showing me his tears of sadness like a badge of honor.

"Andria was my girlfriend at the time." He admitted and I wanted to instantly hug him. This is so terrible! Why did he have to go through this? "She was Zayn's sister." It was like white noise suddenly filled my ears. Zayn had a sister. She died. I look like her. No wonder there was wistfulness in his gaze before. No wonder he wasn't mad. I remind him of his dead sister. And I was so mean to him too.

Oh Zayn I'm sorry. Sorry for your loss and sorry for how I acted.

"We had to hold Zayn back from jumping in after her. It was bad. I've never seen him breakdown that bad before. He's never let anyone get as close to him since then, not as close as Andria was, all except for Perrie. Perrie got through to him. But the police claimed her dead because they couldn't find her body and they said the river most likely dragged it away. Zayn was devasted and Perrie, well she helped put his heart back together again. There's still a hole though. Just like my heart has one. They'll always be there too, as long as Andria's gone." Louis's tears finally stopped, but it seemed like the sadness didn't. It oozed out of him like perfume. My brows creased with sympathy.

"Louis, I'm so sorry." I tried to express my feelings, but nothing would help no matter what I said. He smiled understandingly.

"The worst part was that it was the first time Zayn had ever taken her with us on any of the tours. And it was her last too." He let out a deep breath, shaking his head a little. "We all miss her a lot."

"I can tell." I whispered. It's a terrible thing to lose. I might hve lost my memory, but at least I didn't lose my life. Or a sibling, that I know of. Maybe having amnesia isn't so bad. It could have been worse. I see that now. If I had to choose between losing my memory or my life...

Memory would win everytime.

Notes

POOOORRR ZAYN!!!! God that sucks, to lose your sister like that. Geez oh man...anyway...on a happier note!

I start christmas break in two days!!!!! THAT MEANS MORE UPDATES!!!

Questions...

1. Wil Andi ever find out about her past?
2. Do you think Louis and Andi should start to like each other???WILL THEY???WILL THEY NOT???

Think and respond please!!

Izzy <3