Everything You Do Is Magic

Louis' P.O.V.

I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Everything's a mess. Maybe I should disappear, too. How did this even start? I don't remember. All I know is that I really love this girl. But I can't keep making and watching her suffer..... I got up and left the room.

"Louis!" I heard her yell for me but I kept walking. I walked and walked and walked.... then I suddenly walked into a park. Um. I didn't think I went this far. I only meant to get out of the hospital. Oh well. Let's keep walking. I saw a small pebble on the ground. I started kicking it around.... 10 minutes passed. I'm still kicking the same pebble. I'm still walking. I can smell the beach. The beach isn't that far from the hospital. I accidentally kicked the pebble too far. I went to go look for it and I came across the beach cave... I stared at it. I remember the day that I brought her here. Our First Date I think... back when everything was normal. I wish nothing would've changed. The night changes right before your eyes.I was too blind to notice anything. Now look at us. Look at this whole situation.... I hate everything. I hate Liam. I hate myself. The only word I'm able to think of is hate.j walked into the cave. it's still beautiful. I remember dragging her into the water. And her screaming at he top of her lungs because she didn't want to get her clothes wet. I smiled. I haven't smiled in a while.... an actual smile, that is. I look around. I haven't taken anything on the walls yet.... I feel around my pockets. I felt the market and grabbed it. What to draw, what to draw..... I went up to a wall and sat down on the sand. I let me Hand wonder on the wall. I'm letting it take complete control of itself.... I looked back up at the wall to see a plus sign. That's all. I have no clue what it means. But it's there, I drew it. I checked my phone.... 3:47 a.m. Maybe I should get home. I lifted myself off of the cool sand and started walking. The streets were empty. It wad dark. The only light was coming from the lamp posts. I heard people chatting around me but I ignored it. Then I walked past one house and heard an argument. Sucks for them. I kept walking and walking.after an hour, I finally arrived at my flat. I stumbled up the stairs and got into my room. I could see the crumpled sheets from when Jayme laid there, before she fell. I haven't been in this room since. I walked over to her side of the bed and knelt down. A rush of emotions came through me. Then I started crying. My heart hurt so much. It feels like it's going to fly out of my chest. I don't know what to do. I got into her side an cried even more. The pillows still smelled like her. I love her. But I'm a mess. Maybe I should just end us. I don't want to hurt her anymore......

Notes

WHAT EVEN IS THis STORY YO
-jayme x